Gothic_Anime_Chick's Xanga

My first semester of college is almost done ^_^

Wed, 05 Dec 2007 16:35:35 GMT

Hey people for those who are still loyal to xanga. I am back after a very long time.....nothing much has been going on just have been really busy with college and studying my ass off. I can't wait for my winter vacation I really need it. During the winter break I am going to go see Cirque du Soleil Wintuk I can't wait because all the cirque du Soleil shows are different and always amazing.

Lets see final exams are coming up and I have been studying like crazy. I am planning to hang out with friends once we are all on our vacation. I also ran into some old friends for my old public school from the 6th grade so it was really cool. We are finally going to be able to catch up since we haven't seen each other in years. Lets see what else oh I went to a massage spa with my friend mousy-chan it was a wonderful stress free day.

I AM REALLY EXCITED BECAUSE THE .HACK//G.U. VIDEO GAMES ARE SO POPULAR THEY ARE MAKING A MOVIE ^_^ OMG OMG OMG OMG ::faints:: Do you realize how huge this is no .hack series ever before has become to popular for a movie.

The release date in Japan is January 25, 2008 and the release date for America is said to be in March 2008. But omg YESSSSSS the preview looks hot and it has its own story line and not just the game itself made into a movie.

Haseo Xth form and Tri-Edge

.hack AI buster is only a novel but I love the character Alberio sooo much.

YAOI CON 2007 this Nartuo yaoi skit was soooo hilarious I almost fell off my chair WATCH PEOPLE ^_^

My b-day October 8th a couple of my friends and I went took me to this Japanese resturant ^_^

Wed, 17 Oct 2007 20:23:11 GMT

Hey people sorry I haven't updated in a long time college has been killing me. I don't have time to do anything but study, study and more studying. Since my Uncle Ronz death my aunt is still having a hard time after all it has only been over a month.

Well for my 18th b-day I was going to have a masqurade party all huge and stuff on how my sweet 16 was but with college well I didn't have the money but it was ok. Instead my friends Karolina and Tara treated me to this really awesome Japanese resturant where they cook in front of you and do tricks and omg soooo awesome. I called my friend shermeen the last minute so she could come to. Shermeen and I wanted to have Sake but yeah lol where not old enough....but I could use a drink with all this stress. We haven't seen each other in months because of college so it was a really relaxing and awesome time.

Lets see we also all got to see our friend Rios he works in this halloween store and he has to scare ppl in costume it was very hilarious to watch. Oh and after all of that shermeen had to go >_< sadness.So karolina and I went to Taraz house and we watched BrokeBack Mountain honestly I don't see what the big deal was but yeah it was fun to see karolina crying over the movie and getting emo. And I was like omg Seme and Uke.....and then I had to explain to tara and karolina what that was lol.

Well thats about it my classes in college are going ok but its like ahhhhhhh I don't wanna be in college but then again a lot of my friends don't want to either >_<

Kiba and Shino from Nartuo Shippuden

Sai is my favorite character in Nartuo. Ever since Sasuke went all evil fangirls are like omg Sai ^_^ You gotta love how Sai is like Naruto you don't have a penis and Naruto gets all mad its awesome.

Haseoz Xth form oh yeah you know its hot. I got the last .hack G.U. volume 3 ^_^ People usually don't like .hack because its so comfusing but thats because you need to play all the games watch all the shows and read all the novels thats what makes it such a good anime.

Final Fantasy 7 I can't wait until the new game Crisis Core comes out its basically the story before Final Fantasy 7

Just cool fanart of Rikku

You have to know Death Note and Gundam Seed to get it lol

Albel looking all chibi sooo kawaii ne?

Well I know I was lazy with the pictures but I must get back to studying now

8/27/07 My first day of college filled with sorrow R.I.P Uncle Ron

Fri, 14 Sep 2007 20:51:36 GMT

Hey people. My first day of college started and I was excited and nervous at the same time. I came home just a normal day then about 20 minutes after I got home the phone rang it was my aunt she was talking to my grandma and my grandma just went histerical. I went into the room and asked her what was wrong and she said that Unlce Ron died. He isn't my Uncle by blood but still he was cool. I couldn't move for a couple of second I walk into my room and fall to my knees looking for my cell phone throwing things all over my room. I finally find my cell phone and call my mom to tell her what happened I was in tears.

My other aunt came home from work and my grandma told her what happened at first she didn't believe it until she saw me crying since she knows that I hardly cry at all or show emotion for that matter. We rushed out to go into the city to be with my Aunt Donna. We went to her apartment first but she wasn't there and we got worried. Then we had to track down the hospital and we took a cab there. When we finally found her it was hard to look at her. She couldn't walk on her own she was heartbroken since she did lose her husband.

We went back to the house and we couldn't reach my cousin Anthony we finally called his girlfriends house and we told him what happened. He couldn't beileve it and he came home asap. I didn't care that I had college the next day I waited long into the night for my cousin to come home. When he walked in he was so pale and went to his mom I never seen him cry before. It was hard to see a person who is always happy so sad.

Finally the day and of wake/funeral my aunt was a mess she kept on walking up to the coffin. I went up to the coffin but I couldn't hold tears back. I haven't cried in such a long time I got a headache. We don't know the cause of his death but doctors are working on it.

I am going to pick up the guitar in his memory and all I have left of him is a necklace he gave my for graduation. Its purple hearts all around. But its not enough and neither is the guitar I was going to ask him to teach me but now he is gone. Hez only been dead for like 3 weeks now and its going to take a while for my aunt to recover from her loss. This is the story in its short version....please don't say I'm sorry in comments for some reason I just don't like it when people say it. It just seems people don't know how to give any other comfort than "sorry"

The last time I saw him was my graduation. There is my aunt and unlce (through marriage) He was 60 didn't even look it and over 6ft tall.

I don't want my whole xanga entry to be sad so......lets see what to talk about. I am going to a Jonas Brother Concert in December ^_^

Nick, Joe, and Kevin so sexy. Joe is my favorite he is the one in the middle.

He is also very flexible

hmmmm messy hair on Joe

Don't be afraid to rock out Kevin and Joe

I've been reading ahead in the Naruto manga and this part made me laugh so hard

Very awesome skit

For those who couldn't make it out this is how the song went

First you hold chidori in your hand
Then you make the enemy look bad
Then you blow a sexy kiss kiss
And you make your dynamic entrance
Sneak behind and use a ninja cheat
Use your blood for the summoning technique
With a clone to make the chakra spin spin
This rasengan will make sure we win win

Just came back from the state I hate Florida but I saw my abuela and abuelo and my first friend

Tue, 21 Aug 2007 18:19:44 GMT

I just uploading a lot of pictures that where just staying on my digital camera and I'm still not done but I'll put up a few of them.

A cake I made for the 4th of July

A couple a pictures from prom I had 2 different limos for the day.

I didn't take that many pictures at prom I didn't even get all of my friends >_<

My sister Jennifer, Randy, and Al

Maria and Tidus sooo kawaii

Our party hall

Mousy-chan and Kitty-chan

Tara and Eva

My 2nd limo

Graduation

My senior picture

Me and my cousin Anthony

Some picz from florida....DISNEY LAND LOL people coming from all over the world and not to mention......ALL THE HOT BISHONEN

1) Went on a lot of rides

2) Saw my grandparents

3) Hung out with my friend Austin we went to a Rave club at Downtown Disney...those pictures are not mean't for xanga.....plus since it was dark in the rave the picz are hard to see anyway.

Baby Ducks >_<

At the pool from the hotel.....I was boy watching I got hit on when my aunt wasn't around I was in heaven

Random car that I liked

I love it when they draw Naruto and Sasuke as ANBU

I love the idea of Hikaru and Haru as a couple

I love Sai he is my favorite Naruto character

Death Note is awesome...but I have sad news Viz Media has licensed it and its coming out in November. There going to screw up the voice of L just you watch.

I am obessed with Zac Efron because omg look at his eyes lovely

Aly & AJ Potential Break Up Song

Otakon 2007 was to awesome for words

Mon, 30 Jul 2007 15:16:49 GMT

Hello people sorry I haven't been here for a while. But I know have a myspace just for the hell of it. Honestly I don't see what the big deal is. But my myspace is http://www.myspace.com/otakuluv89

Anyway Otakon 2007 omg just wow.

1) I took the train to get to Baltimore

2) I get to Baltimore and my hotel room wasn't ready so I had to change into my costume in a public bathroom >_<

3) It was really hot in my costume and my costume (the leg parts were falling) >_< I was sad.

4) Walking to the convention in the city of Balimore people in cars look at the people in costume like were freaks but it was so funny. I ran into a girl named Kyrea and I asked her if she knew how to fix cosumes she didn't but her friends Wynn and Alex did so she took me to them.

5)Kyrea, Wynn, and Alex helped me fix the leg parts of my costume and after that we hung out and went to the Art Ally.

6) We had to go to different events. I went to go meet Japanese voice actor Tomokazu Seki he does so many characters to Kyo from fruits basket, Shuichi from Gravitation, and Haru from Rave Master. Then I went to the Anime Music Video Contest.

7) Saturday I called up Kyrea, Alex and Wynn and took them out to lunch for helping me. We went to the mall and all the normal people saw all these people in costume and the looks on their faces we just laughed. Some people came up to us and asked us what was going on.

8) We went back to the convention, went to the dealers room, not to mention getting glomped lol.

9) After that I went and met the one the only MAKI MURAKAMI the girl who created Gravitation there were no pictures allowed though >_<

10) Then I went to a .hack Photoshoot it was just by the word of mouth lol. But it was awesme you feel famous. Then after that I went and walked outside and these two guys who worked in a returant wanted to take my picture becuase they liked my costume......they weren't even part of the convention now thats werid lol.

11) Then I went to the Masquerade (Cosplay show) and then after that I met up again with Kyrea, Wynn and Alex at the Otakon Rave

12) Sunday I went to go see the Eminence Orchestra Concert. Then I had to go home it was so sad. Kyrea, Wynn, and Alex we all said goodbye and we gave each other our e-mail adresses and screen names.

Dude it was a Sonic and Shadow

I know the picture is the wrong way but it was Sasuke and Sai from Nartuo....OMG SAI ^_^

Dante from Devil May Cry

I found a full Death Note Cosplay group so cool

This made my day I found Zidane from Final Fantasy 9.

I ran into another Haseo only his X form I was second form Haseo and omg an Ovan kyaaaa

Ok well the story behind this we were all trying to take a break but people wanted to take pictures of us and well I just wanted to sit down and eat my food ::cries::

Then we found first form Haseo and Tri-Edge and Subaru form .hack//Sign

I found another Tri-Edge.....but for the record I was the only second form Haseo at the convention WOOT!!

The .hack G.U. and .hack//Sign Photoshoot. It laster for over an hour it was fun but everyone was so tired after wards.

Dude I found a Mia

I took a picture with Kuhn, Pi, and Bo my aunt was taking all the pictures I was in lol

I found a Silabus at the .hack Photoshoot

I was talking to this Alkaid and we were both like omg we should do the Death scene of her dying. The only problem was that Haseo was in his 3rd form when this happened but we didn't care. There wasn't a 3rd form Haseo around probably because thats the hardest costume to make.

And well once we did this people wanted to take to many pictures and I had to hold her for like 20 minutes my arms felt like jelly after that.

This was the scene we were both role playing the part out at the Photoshoot. I had to pretend to cry and everything and the screaming did not go well with me voice lol.

More role-playing

We found another Alkaid and we were like oh lets have both of them fight over Haseo (Alkaid likes Haseo)

I took a picture with Shino

It was a Fai enough said ^_^

This was when I was waiting on the line for the Cosplay show so I took pictures to kill the time the cars in the background were like what the hell is going on.

Just wow it must have took forever for the guy to do Gaara demon arm.

Meg and Jo from Burst Angel ^_^

This picture I took after the Rave I think it looks so cool with the lights in the back. weeee Chrono Crusade

This is my favorite picture u wanna know why because they were twins actaully Cosplaying as the twins Hikaru and karou from Ouran High School Host Club a rare photo shot indeed.

This was Sunday and my new friends Kyrea, Alex, and Wynn.

Muahahaha Maki Murakami autograph ^_^

NOW TIME FOR THE OTAKON COSPLAY SKITS....well not all of them just the really good ones

Haku and Zabuza come back to life.....omg just watch in it was hilarious.

Sora dancing to the song Gay Bar, Kairi being emo.....just watch again everyone did an awesome job at the Cosplay skits with humor

Guide to the Ultimate Cosplay skit. The girl who was Haseo X form was it in ^_^

She was awesome she was young link playing the flute from several Zelda games.

Same skit only a closer look because that young link was so KAWAII ^_^ everyone wanted to hug her.

Break Dancing to Transformers enough said

Street Fighter Skit

This was Kyreaz video at the Rave she made a mistake with the year though when uploading it I think the music was still in affect

7/7/07 AnimeNext was awesome and Otakon is next week ::faints::

Fri, 13 Jul 2007 14:34:28 GMT

So after all the crap I've been through actually after everything happened 2 days later I was over it and realized I WAS FREE!!! I've been so happy lately that instead of walking through my house I've been dacning. Talking to my friends really made me feel better and they made me realize that I shouldn't be sad at all. So I'm taking a college class over the month of July its ok its just really long its from 1:30-5:00 on Tuesdays and Thursday.

So anyway WHAT I DID AT ANIMENEXT ^_^

1) Saw the Jrock group 12012 kyaaa <3 Wataru Miyawaki

2) Hung out with my friend I made last year she cosplayed as Kurama ^_^

3) Hung out with my friend Andrew for a while yup yup

4) Cosplayed as Haru from Fruits Basket got glomped.

5) Met the voice actors Chris Patton and Monica Rial

6) Hung out with a random cosplay group from Fruits Basket it was Kyo, Yuki, and Tohru we were like OMG

7) Went to the Cosplay show it was awesome.

My nephew Jaden he is the cutest baby ever

This was the Cosplay group I hung out with. The kyo was hot but I found out that it was a girl I was omg lol oops. THEY WON BEST IN SHOW. The song fit perfect to the anime and the dancing just told the story. And yes I was one of the fangirls screaming lol. The name of the song is Simply Being Loved by BT

The Naruto Skit they weren't that bad

This one was kawaii The Puppet Skit

This one was funny Hellsing VS Pikachu

The Gundam Seed Skit this one I almost fell out of my chair

The Yu Yu Hakusho Skit its hard to hear but I was there so I know what they said lol. The girl Cosplaying as Kurama is my friends I was like WOOT!!!

My favorite song from 12012 Cyclone the ending theme song of Romeo X Juliet

To lazy to put up pictures lol until next time people

Ok so maybe I'm not back to my Otaku self......don't worry I made this entry when you called me

Fri, 29 Jun 2007 19:11:26 GMT

So I feel like updating because xanga is empty and nobody really gets a lot of comments anymore and also that I'm bored. I went to the city and hung out with my cousin and we went to see Fantastic 4 and I went to Forbidden planet to get some comics. I hung out with mousy-chan and karolina yesterday but karolina had to leave in an hour and we watched the Digimon movie it was fun.

Things have been getting worse with family therez been non-stop agruing everyday. You know I really don't care what happens to me. This may sound strange but I want somebody to continously hit me and tell me that i'm worthless. I had practice hitting from my mom when I was younger so it doesn't bother me.

Graduation was so depressing for me I felt like I didn't belong there at all. I wasn't excited or happy like I said I just wanted it to be over and done with. Only one person noticed that I was depressed so that person gave me a big bear hug but I didn't want that person to worry so I just took pictures and then left. I went out with my family to eat but I wasn't in the mood to celebrate. I got money and cards and a silver necklace with a heart and a key. Also my aunt is going to pay for my whole entire trip to Otakon for me that was a big surprise because I've been saving up for it for about a year.

If you make an emotional connection with someone, however small, you were done for. They'd chip, chip, chip away at you until you were defenseless, needy wreck. And then they'd leave you. Leave you to cope, alone with no one to confide in anymore and no understanding.

I think my emotions are effecting me physically I can't breath in all the way or then it feels like my ribs are cracking I know it sounds werid but thats what it feels like. I threw up some blood a couple of days ago but I don't want to worry anybody its probably nothing. I know I won't worry my friends they all have a myspace to they don't bother with xanga anymore.

Death Note Dance-Off - OhayoCon 2007

Everyone knows this part in Death Note. Everyone one thinks its yaoi but its not ::sniff:: why did L have to die but i'm glad Yagami Light was finally killed.

Reference to Christianity. Christ washed the feet of his disciples, including Judas, the night before he was crucified. So in this scene, L is meant to represent Christ, the Savior, where Light is meant to represent Judas, the betrayer. It makes sense since Light did put himself as the new "God" because he had the power of the Death Note.

This skit is so funny they put Ouran High School Host Club and there theme came from the movie 300 it was so awesome becase they do themez in the anime for the girls they host ^_^

AND DON'T WORRY THIS WAS BEFORE U CALLED ME!!!!!!

The Death of L from Death Note Light is such a bastard I cried when L died he is everyones favorite

Tue, 12 Jun 2007 22:10:49 GMT

Hey people I know I haven't updated in a long time. School is finally over for me and my graduation is on Saturday. I also had prom and I have pictures but I haven't had the chance to upload them yet.

But things haven't been going well its to personal to put on xanga and stuff.(Only 2 people who I really trust know what happened I just wanna say thanks for listening) I've been crying for like 5 days striaght.........i'm so tired and plus finals on top of all that crap.

I just feel so helpless. I look at other people and see how there friends or family support there dreams and stuff and try not to be so controlling but reasoniable. My parents controll my every thought and and step. I can't wait until my 4 years of college are done because then i'll be free. My other family relatives wish they could help me but they know they can't since parents well get majority of their own child. It also must have been painful for them because I was abused when I was little emotionally and physically and they couldn't do a thing.

Its like people don't seem to understand i've always been alone and I don't know how to react when somebody actually starts to care about me. I've always protected myself and thats all I really know how to do....but I like to think i'm getting better.

Not even my dancing at the studio seems to keep me happy as much. The girls noticed my styling was off and when I danced with the guys during partner work they knew I usually have more energy. I don't know if I wanna give it up or not I mean its not like I have somebody to share it with.

I've also realized I have so many different faces.

1) How I act around friends

2)How I act around my family

3) How I act around people I just talk to but aren't my friends

4) How I act around like my family member friends who I'm meeting or whatever

I'm not really in the mood to put up a lot anime pictures so sorry for those who have been waiting a really long time. When I'm not in a crappy mood i'll tell you all the good stuff thats been happening.

No matter what even though we all know its hard

So pretty I wish I knew where this was a perfect place to relax

I didn't put up picz but i'll still but up some good vids

Here is a funny Cosplay skit trust me if you guys know Trigun, Devil May Cry, and Final Fantasy 7 you will laugh your ass off.

Utada Hikaru singing Green Days Boulevard of Borken Dreams. She just got a divorce not to long ago I hope shez doing well. I love you Utada your an awesome singer in Japanese and English.

Now if you'll excuse me i'm going to go back to being a bum and just waiting until Graduation is over and done with I really don't wanna go Saturday i'm not going to be excited or happy not because of all the crap thats been happening but just because I don't want to go.

So don't worry guys i'll be back to my old crazy Otaku self the next time I update. ^_^

Well its been a while

Thu, 26 Apr 2007 20:45:20 GMT

Ok so hello everybody ::crickets:: well the reason I haven't been on for a while is because i've just been lazy. Lets see I've been watching the new Naruto episodes on YouTube but since they take to long i've been reading ahead with the manga on youtube OMG I LOVE SAI ^_^ he is so hilarious.... and sasuke is still a bastard and evil >_<. But anyway my friends Tara and Kat are coming with me to AnimeNext in July. I was really shocked that they both wanted to go espically Kat. But I know they will both have a good time I can't wait.

Lets see what else in May i'm going to go see Beauty and the Beast on Broadway because its going off Broadway soon and is being replaced my The Little Mermaid I hate that movie so much. Prom is like a month away my prom is on May 24th I got my limo all set and everything else to ya WOOT!!!. And senior year is almost over as well I can't believe it i'm graduating soon. I'm getting old lol it sucks >_<. What else oh ya I'm going to the Cherry Blossom Festival this Saturday I can't wait its always so pretty and the shows are nice as well.

Also I made up my mind who i'm going to Cosplay as for AnimeNext and Otakon it came down to Fai from Tsubasa and Haeso from .hack G.U. but I picked Haseo. The costume is going to be $308 I since the costume has so much detail and its custom made.

Ya so this is going to be my costume for AnimeNext and Otakon I'm buring a big hole in my pocket $308 dollars but its going to be so worth it. The idea is to be a character who is popular but you don't see much ^_^. Just like when I was Haru from fruits basket I had so many fanboys and fangirl glomps lol.

I love Hikaru and Kaoru from Ouran High School Host Club

cool fma pic

It was so sad when they died together I cried so much

You know Haru is the best character in fruits basket I acutally got volume 16 not to long ago.

I would say for those who are watching Naruto on Cartoon Network that when they get up to Sai which won't be until literally years from now to watch the Sub because they will cut out all the dirty and nasty things Sai says lol.

Just a clip from .hack G.U. omg the next part of the game is coming out in May I can't wait ^_^

I love it when Haeso is like PI!!!! lol

I'm bringing sexy back ^_^

I love Sai'z justu he paints anything on scrolls they come to life and attack people so far thats all I know he can do from reading the manga I feel like reading more now.

Kare First Love its so sad the manga is over

Hikaru and Kaoru. Song Here in Your Arms by HelloGoodbye

Just a funny clip from Ouran High School Host Club

Just picz from naruto Shippuuden just seriously watch all the Naruto episodes that are out in Japan and then continue with the manga since not all the episodes are out yet that and Cartoon Network sucks.

Went to I-con last Saturday ^_^ ALL OF THESE SKITS ARE WORTH WATCHING 0_0

Fri, 30 Mar 2007 12:48:11 GMT

So ya hello people I don't update as much as I use to. I went to I-con last Saturday with my bf Derek and it was fun. Just a whole bunch on random anime people. Went to the Cosplay show and AMV contest but......MY CAMERA DIED AHHHHH!!!! I couldn't record or take any pictures but a lot of other people were recording so i'll put up those videos. At the dealers room I just bought three mangas, a Loveless t-shirt, and a .hack G.U. wallet ^_^. While waiting online for the Cosplay show to start we were singing are you happy and you know it clap your hands and 99 bottles of beer on the wall lol.

Tara and Kat want to experience an anime convention so there going to come with me to AnimeNext in July. This is going to be so awesome. Oh ya and I got my limo for prom weeeeeeeee all I need now for my prom is a dress and i'm set. Oh and my little baby nephew Jaden is coming over this Saturday again I can't wait he is so cute.

IFYOU GUYS HAVE ANY QUESTIONS ABOUT WHAT PEOPLE SAID IN THE SKITS JUST ASK ME SINCE I WAS THERE weeeeeeeeeeeeeee ^_^

OK so this Cosplay group is known as PANTS ^_^ they couldn't win best in show this year because they won so many other times already it sucked >_<. I was laughing so hard in my chair that night I almost fell off. Sorry if you guys don't hear everything they say since so many people were laughing ^_^.

This skit is called so you think you can dance. Its kakashi, Gai, and Iruka dancing to songs they would never dance to. ANOTHER HILARIOUS SKIT ^_^ AT I-CON.

SHORT YET KAWAII AND HILARIOUS SKIT called GAME OVER LINK AND SARIA

THESE PEOPLE ONLY GO BY ONE NAME RUFFLES!!!!!

We all did the YMCA at the Cosplay show yup yup

lol I couldn't resist but even though sasuke is evil now and the replaced him with Sai....Sai is very cool ::nods:: yup yup.

Only those who know about Sasukes past will get this comic

awwwww

this one is just cool to me

ONCE AGAIN I AM TO LAZY TO PUT UP MORE ANIME THAT I LIKE THAT AND I HAVE TO GET READY TO GO OUT TO. BYE BYE ^_^