I'm back home finally and I've never been happier. I feel like I've been given a second chance at life in general. I'm back with my family, I'm with a beautiful girl that rocks my world and I have a new car so hooray yippeeday!!! Now I'm just relaxing, enjoying myself. I'll start looking for a job here sometime soon. I thought about becoming a cop and trying to go SWAT. That's the only way I would become a cop, if I knew I could get on SWAT. Other than that I'm thinking about just going to school. I'm still trying to get with that Scout Infantry Platoon. I honestly wouldn't mind being a scout. If I get the transfer I'll be applying for Ranger school, Airborne, and Air Assault school. I know I could do all of it. I find myself helping my cousin Will out again. Why I don't know but I'm going to try again. I can't really give up on family, especially Will, not when I know he could be so much more than he is now.

All in all I would like to think that the war hasn't fucked me up to bad.lol I think that I'm reintegrating back into society just fine. I've also been catching up with alot of old friends. Friends that I haven't seen in two to four years. It feels good to see them and to catch up with them. Now I'm just waiting to see my girl. I miss her horribly but I'll be alright. I think.lol She's definitely a keeper.=] I'm pretty sure I'll be hanging on to her for a while.

another day down, got like 19 days left or something like that. I have to admit, after a year with my platoon I'm pretty tired of seeing all their faces. I find myself day dreaming alot of the day away. I'm currentley acting as an advisor to our replacements, the new york national guard. It helps pass the time, plus it gives me someone new to talk too. One guy, Torney(tonnto), made the compilment that I was a "lifer". I said I don't think so pal, I don't like the military that much. Though he hasn't been the only one to make that comment. I asked him why he thought that I was a "lifer" and he told me it was my attitude. I've had alot of people tell me that I should go active, or become a ranger, and even join the marines. I don't think I'm ready for that yet. Not really sure whether or not I actually want to do either of those. Definitely not now any ways. If nothings going for me back home and I ain't got anything worth sticking around for then maybe I will. I wonder what's going on back in the States alot of the times. Like whats on the news these days. I don't really keep track of what's going on, mostly since I've been here. Right now I'm just getting paid to sit and wait until I can go home. Easiest dollar I've ever earned probably. I can't wait to eat a bowl of Peanut Butter Captain Crunch. That sounds pretty good.