Hope everyone had a happy and blessed Christmas!

I'd have to say mine was pretty awesome.  The family and I opened presents at midnight on Christmas Day.  I got some clothes to wear for church, an American Express giftcard, a Lego thingy that my little brother gave to me, and a digital camera.  I probably got something else, but those are the things that stick out.  On Christmas morning, we all went to church.  It was such a happy time in the church.  Everyone was smiling and hugging each other.  Really felt like Christmas.  I don't understand how some churches cancel their services on Christmas Day.  Don't they realize that there is no better time than Christmas to celebrate the birth of Christ?  After church, the family and I had lunch and watched tv.  Our cell phones were ringing all day with people on the other line saying "Merry Christmas!"  Last night, I went to my friend Sarah's house.  Her roommates and some friends of hers were having a Christmas dinner and it was pretty good.  I wasn't planning on staying long, but I stayed til about 11:30 or midnight.

So I had to deal w/ a friend who was being a Christmas grouch, but not for long.  I wasn't really in the mood since I was so happy.  Anyway, that's another story.

Have a great day, everyone!

So yea, I'm sitting here in a very pensive mood on this cloudy Friday morning.  Christmas is coming up soon and I need to do Christmas shopping for family and friends, but that's not really what I am thinking about at the moment.  Here's what's on my mind...

I have made a close friend out here whom I can trust.  Her name is Starr.  I have been asking God for a good friend out here ever since I moved from PA.  I spent a year and a half w/ pretty much no friends my age to talk or hang out with.  She is an amazing friend whom I can tell anything to.  It's been a few months that we've become close and through becoming close friends, I have developed feelings for her.  We get along really well and we have the same beliefs and desires in life.  I have been praying about our friendship and asking God if He would allow it to grow into something more if that is His plan for us.  If His plan is just friendship, then I am happy with that but if it happens to be more than that, then bring it on.  I'm just ready for what God wants to do and I'm praying and trusting and hoping that this feeling is right.

Yesterday, Starr was asking me a bunch of questions that would have probably gotten me to share my feelings but I would not let them come out.  I didn't feel that last night was the right time.  The more that I think about it now, though, I should probably tell her soon.  It will be scary to put myself out there but I need to realize that she is a good friend and I have been able to tell her everything.  So why is this so hard to say?  Am I afraid of losing a good friendship?  Quite possibly!  But if she's the good friend that I know she is, telling her my feelings won't change anything in a negative way.  I'm just gonna wait for the next time I get a chance and then I will tell her everything that is on my mind.  I must keep trusting in God and telling myself that it will be alright.

Well....that's all I have for now.

Happy Thanksgiving to all! 

Guess who's back?!  Ok ok it's only me.  But still.  I'm back on xanga.  I can't believe how long I let this thing go.  Well anyway, what should I begin with?  These past few months have gone fast.  I've been busy w/ work and church basically.  At work I do basically about 6 different characters now (Chuckie, Woody Woodpecker, Popeye, Sam I Am, Spongebob, and Rico).  If you've seen the movie Madagascar, then you know who Rico is.  Anyway, moving on...

My church life is definitely an important part of my life here.  I'm involved in the choir and worship team here still and I couldn't ask for a more blessed time.  I've really been trying to discover what God's purpose for my life is and have been praying for many things.  I truly believe that I am right around the corner from a huge blessing and while I don't know what that is yet, I'm on the verge on finding out and cannot wait for the results.  I'm in the Christmas musical at my church and I will be playing the part of Joseph.  It will be great.  Shelly is going to be Mary and I could not be happier.  She has an amazing voice, and we will sing well together.  That's pretty much it.

But yea, so many of you probably are thinking that I have changed.  The answer is yes I have.  I realized that the partying and everything that I was doing before I moved here was not the real me.  I let depression and lonliness take over me and became someone that I never wanted to be.  When I moved out here and realized that I was doing this, I automatically just stopped.  Now God is the center of my life and that is where I belong always.  Nothing makes me happier than knowing that He is in full control of my life and will guide me to great promises and great blessings.

Well, that is all I have to say for now....till next time.

GUYS: Turned ON or OFF when a girl:


dresses like a slut: off

dresses like a grandma: off!!!

dresses like a prep: on

dresses in all black: off

doesn't care what she wears: depends, i like a girl that likes to present herself well sometimes

plays a musical instrument: on

is skinnier than you: off, im pretty skinny so that would just look unhealthy if she were skinnier

is bigger than you: off

is taller than you: depends on how tall

has straight teeth: on

has chapped lips: definitely off

has green eyes: on

has blue eyes: on

has brown eyes: on

has long hair: on

has short hair: on

wears glasses: doesn't matter

has blonde hair: on

has brown hair: on

has black hair: on

has red hair: on

works out: definitely on

smiles more than not: definitely on

calls you just to sa "HI": on!!

smacks your butt: haha on

compliments you: on

wears jewelry: on

has bigger feet than you: ummm....definitely off.  i wear a size 12 shoe, lol

has smaller feet than you: on
wears perfume: on

smiles when you walk into the room: on!

wants to be a mom: on

Has a nice stomach: on

Virgin: ON!!!

Loyal: on

Laid back: on

Doesnt party a lot: definitely on

laughs a lot: on

doesnt care about wat ppl think about her: on

believes in love at first sight/fate: on

talkative: definitely on

rich: that doesn't matter to me

Yea, I was bored and decided to keep myself busy by doing that.  I still have nothing to say cuz I'm just not in the mood.  I hope this pain goes away soon.