Happy Easter everyone. I had a relaxing day and lunch with a couple of girlfriends. Colorado is finally starting to green up and there are white and pink trees in bloom all over town. I am trying not to get too excited since we could very easily get another snow this month.
For those of you who know or don't know, J.B. and I have been separated for 6 months. He has been living in North Carolina with a friend of ours while we work through a lot of stuff separately and together. Now however we are planning to renew our vows on June 25, 2006. We will be piggybacking my brothers wedding on the 24th because I wanted family as well as Colorado friends involved. We will be having a private ceremony in the mountains and hopefully a party to celebrate and also say farewell the following week.We will then load up a U-haul and drive to North Carolina. I have decide to join J.B. there for many reasons. This is not an easy decision and is very sad because I will miss my friends here in Colorado very much. However, I feel it is God's will and also His timing for me to do this.
It is strange to think that our time in Colorado is coming to an end. I had a lot of dreams and hopes for what would happen here and none of them came to pass. In fact there was a lot of pain, sadness, loss, betray and disappointment. Despite all of that I now can see some of what God's purpose was in having us in Colorado and am thankful that we did live here for this season of our lives.
I definantly have hope for the future. I know that God still has purposes for us as a couple and also individually. This time that we have spent apart has really allowed God to speak to me about who I am and what His desires are for me. For a long time I simply tried to fit myself into what I perceived was the role of a minister's wife. As a result I didn't dream or really have much excitement for life at all. What a waste. I hope in the future I can live life to the fullest and experience fulfillment in following dreams and the purposes of God for me. I have no idea what the future holds but I look forward to what God is going to do in us and through us. I have learned to trust God during this season of trials and will continue to do so no matter what happens.
My posts will probably be very sporadic in the future but I love you all and appreciate your continued prayers.
(The current profile pic represents to me that God is hiding me in the cleft of the rock in His protective covering.)
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