new york city. center of the universe. times are shitty, but i'm pretty sure they cant get worse. it's a comfort to know, when you're singing the 'hit the road' blues...that anywhere else you could possibly go after new york would be....a pleasure cruise.

i always tend to come back to this thing when the going gets tough. i guess i know i can always count on you guys to bring me back up. i'm counting on you guys...

i got drunk last night....and the night before that...and the night before that...before that i dont remember. and guess what i'm doing tonight. i'm pathetic. maybe i should just kill myself. no, i wont kill myself...but i'm not doing so well. i almost jumped out a window last night...the pavement was just calling out to me. i was so high...i wouldn't have even felt it.

my deranged life...i'm so depressing. i'm so tired of this. maybe i should just lay low for a while. something's got to give. i dont know if i can take this anymore.....shiz...help me out girls, i'm begging you...

whoa...have not updated in for-freaking-ever...sorry girls! i've been so busy! i moved into my dorm room, met my roomate, she's very friendly and beautiful. we have a lot in common, so this should be a great first year. our room is so cute, we've got it all decked out with posters and pictures and whatnot. it's nice.

classes start on monday...wish me luck, babies! i have to go now though, i'm having lunch with my roomie, i love her! yay!

ps. i'm down to 93 now...i feel so good about myself!

pps. i have a boyfriend now and he is all sorts of wonderful.

oh my gosh, i havent updated in a while...that's okay, i've been doing pretty well, actually.

camp is over, which is cool, but kind of sad because i was getting great workouts every day! i got a little tan, which is awesome, and pretty toned, which is even better! i'm still at 95, which is okay, because that was my goal before classes started, and they dont start till the 29th! yesss!

i went to a wedding today, and it was really fancy and stuff, and some girl who i've never met told me i was really pretty...and it made me really happy. gah! i'm just in a good mood right now.

i hope you're all kickin' ass out there, girls! i'm so proud of each and every one of you! you all rock!

i almost fainted at the camp today...eek. i just got really lightheaded and had to sit down. i told the director that i was just tired, and i'd be fine. at lunch, i had a soft shell taco from taco bell. gross, i know, but i had to eat something or there'd be trouble.

but there is good news! ........dun da da dunn! i'm down to 95! yay! i guess its from dieting and working at the camp. it rocks! today it was 92 degrees and sooo humid, so i must've lost like 2 pounds in an hour...which is awesome. i'm so proud!

you all are my girls. i dont know what i'd do without you...stay strong, much luck and love.

hello lovelies! i hope you are all staying strong and having a great time doing it! and i'm sure you're all just as beautiful as ever.

well, day camp started today, and guess what! the staff (that's me) gets a choice of eating the camp food or having open lunch!! so i can just say i'm going to burger king or something, and they'll never know! woohoo! thanks for all of your advice and ideas though, you guys are so smart...i love you all!

today i had a banana and a glass of skim milk, along with 2 diet pills, because i knew i would be out in the sun all day and i didnt want to pass out and cause a scene...we all know how dangerous that can be...

well, i'm going to bed now...i worked hard today! i'm really proud of myself, and of all of you, too. you girls inspire me, and keep me on my feet when i want to give up. i hope you all had days as good as mine, and even better ones tomorrow!