| | I come here, because....everyone can read anything I post elsewhere;
and I've done nothing but gripe.
But, damn.
Im just done.
With being in these shoes.
Which steps they take...
...take me no where.
Near, what, I think I want.
Not just anyone, but, someone.
Start with understanding. Start with it being okay.
Im ready to be me, but how did it come about, that I've lost everyone who I can be me too.
I don't feel comforerable around anyone, anymore.
I don't want them to know, that Im still tearing apart inside.
I don't want to be honest. Im ashamed. Im scared. But how can you blame me.
It was pride and courage, that got me here.
Im even sick of turning inward. And my one last escape, just escaped.
It dosnt matter what I change around me.
Nothing actually changes. Here or there.
I hang out with myself.
I sleep alone.
How pathetic I have become.
I dont even hunt for sympothy. It dosnt do anything, anymore.
I just.......
huh.
And another heavy sigh.
As I try to sleep, on these thoughts, again.
Smile.
Then, tommorow.
Everything is better.
Goodnight, me.
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| | Posted 1/14/2008 12:29 AM - 89 views - 4 comments
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I was hoping that I would see you there...
By the way, I think that you already know what you want and how to get there. Just...getting the balls to do it is the hard part.
I have faith in you. I really do. :)
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