| Well... I'm glad to say i'm finally done wit Rusty... i mean he'll alwayz have a place in my heart but i just can't put myself through that pain nemore... I know he cares but i'm not willing to do it nemore... I'll always love ya bud....
I finally opened my eyes and decided to give gene a chance and so far its going absolutely great... I can't believe we didn't try sooner... Yesterday was pretty rough we had to drive down to paola to lay his friend to rest.... I'm glad i was the one there for him though... I know it meant alot to him... He took his friends death pretty rough but i mean that's to be expected i owe Jody alot he saved gene's life a time or two... RIP JODY!!
Newayz everythings goin pretty good i'm gradually getting back on my feet... slowly but surely... I finally got my tat i've been talking bout for the past 6 months or so... i'll have to get a pic and post it...
Well i've heard all my old friends are doing good wit their lives and i'm so happy for them... It makes me very happy that everyone u care or once cared about are getting their lives in the right direction. I went and saw Ryan a couple days ago and he's doin so good i'm so proud of him... He's my boy....
well gotta get ready for work later dayz.... |
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| well as we all knew this day would come.. my life is shit again... i always think i'm doing the rite thing and bammmm nope endless road... i know no one reads this but i could give a shit i'm just relievin thoughts cuz i have no one to talk to... i'm alone in this big world as usual... manda is never home cuz she's always working brandon's never home cuz he has a life... rusty i don't even know what to say bout that cept lots of unanswered questions... and endless thoughts and major shit.... it seems like when you are so happy everything takes a huge turn around and ur left standing there alone wondering what to do next and what just happened to the life u had... well i'm standing here looking around and i can't find one thing bout my life i love or even like cept my job... that barely pays the bills but u know what it's a great job that's the only reason i'm there... my car is starting to act up again my best friend is working constantly the only time she even talks to me is to make sure i'm giving her money for the bills that's all that's said... my babygurl has been sick and i'm scared cuz idk know what's goin on wit her and i can't talk to her and that's scares me... all my old friends are married getting married having kids whatever the whole nine yards and i'm alone wondering y then it dawns on me i always push away the only good things in my life... y are gurls so stupid they push the good guy away and bitch cuz their stuck wit the asshole and not even stuck just sitting waiting... i don't get it... how u think u want something so bad and once u have it how easy it is to let it go... don't u just wish you had some of the answers... i'm out!!!!!! |
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| wow... it's been some time... oops my bad whatcha gonna do... neways life is awesome i've got the best job ever and i'm still living wit my bestest friend in the whole wide world... And loving every minute of it... and i met a really nice guy... well see where that goes... i'll try to keep u posted on that... neways gotta balance my checkbook
later dayz |
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| Well i think mom and i figured out what's wrong wit me with no doctors help thank u very much... I'm becoming diabetic well hypoglycemic(sp) a type of diabeties. Where your blood sugar drops really low more often so i've gotta start stabbing my finger everyday which will be so much funn....
Not much really happening got kicked outta my house almost 2 wks ago but it's all good dez and i are living wit manda till we can find a place... i love it... i get to see her everyday now i missed her so much... we found two really cute houses in our price range but the stupid f'rs rented them out from underneath us damn them....  so now we are waiting to see what her landlord is gonna do cuz we might rent the house next door to manda....
No one special in my life cept for Tyler guy at work he's so cute and such a sweetheart... i like him alot he's got me all twisted... I can just see his smiling face for a second and it makes my nite he just has the most amazing smile he's great i just wish things could be easier... I"m destined to have him though... lol we have so much fun together such a cutie.
well i need to finish my laundry just wanted to express cuz it's been awhile... later dayz |
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| What's new?? not much been goin on over here... my car's in the shop again hopefully this time it'll get fixed cuz we didn't take it back to Nissan lol so we shouldn't have ne probs lol...
I went to see my guy last sat. he looks so much better than he did when he went in... it's day 13 now... i miss him i do... can't wait to be able to be in his arms again... he's such a sweetheart...
Just been tryin to get my life back in order i was at a bad place in my life but i guess everyone goes thru it sooner or later huh... i think so... but neways trying to stay focused on my drmz now...
I found out my heart monitor results came back normal so they think i need to wear a dif. kind for up to thirty days that's gonna suck...
Plus i didn't get the position at work they said i was to young and havn't been wit the comp long enough so that sux... owell
well later dayz |
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