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Sunday, November 28, 2004

Sun, 28 Nov 2004 23:00:36 GMT

new xanga...

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Tuesday, November 16, 2004

Tue, 16 Nov 2004 19:47:22 GMT

well lately i have been bored out of my fucking mind. but ya school has got even gayer. i cant wait till summer again.

well me and bryan have totally stoped talkin. ya i know that sounds wierd cause we go out but like ya. thats just how it is i dont want it to be this way. but i guess he is losing interest in me. and he wont break up with me i dont know why but i guess if he doesnt talk to me or tell me what is going on with him the only choice i have is to ....you know. wich i really! really!dont want to do. cause i want to be with him but i cant have a boyfriend i dont even talk to. well ya all my friends seem to keep disappearing...i dont kow what i do to make them go away i guess i am just a plan old bitch. like everyone supposly says. i mean me and cj mckenna used to be like the bestest of friends and then i find out he talks shit behind my back and that he like hates me.but ya ok. guess i deserve it. life sucks...and so does love. i see no use for either one. like if you fall in love it all like dissapears and life it dissapears. Every single time you think everything is great and getting better it turns around and slaps you in the face!!!

well i have to go cause i have to go to my doctors...boy do i have some problems...i have esteye, swollen gland..a spider bite, and ausor..you kow like all on my head so if i dont go to the doctors my head is going to fall off..lol.

well ya write again when i feel like it...

Ashley~//<3333

Friday, November 05, 2004

Fri, 05 Nov 2004 20:17:57 GMT

wowa i havent written in here for like ever....everything has just gotten worst. sometimes i just want to get out and go away to a far fra away place and live there . but i cant!. i am so confuzed and everyting that is going on just puzzles me. have you ever felt so alone like no body liked you like at everyone you looked at they were saying someting about you well that is how everything seems to me. i have got ppl hating me that dont even know me. But ya me and renee got in a fighgt cause she really pissed me off and ya well we became friends again in dance. so we are cool ond good thing that has happened to me. i am so confuzed right now about bryan too but i dont know maybe it is justb that stage it has been 2 months and all but i just dont know. well i am going to my moms tonight so that should be fun. i will get to see my older brother and his girlfriend who ids pregnant with my little knephew...hehe. his name is going o be jordon taylor connelly. well i have to go know so i will write when i can.

see ya,

Ash

i am going to marry this guy one day<333

tear* tear*

Saturday, October 23, 2004

Sat, 23 Oct 2004 05:03:14 GMT

well lately I have been so bored and well ya school same old same old but it is just getting worse....i am still thinkin about going home schooled and ya....but i feel like i cant cause of my close friends. but ya my mom finally camere home she ran away from the guy who hit her. An she is back and i cant believe i am so happy to see her. i thought i would hate her for the rest of my life.

well me and bryans 2 months is one wendsday..so ya! ya! for us. i love him soooo much. but ya i am really bored and there si nothiong really to talk abiotu so i am going to go i will write some other time...

~Ash-//<333

Tuesday, October 12, 2004

Tue, 12 Oct 2004 00:28:45 GMT

well on friday i went tot he football game and well that was funn...but i was more anxious to got to homecming on saturday....but that didnt turn out the way i wanted it to...first i got all stressed out at the begging cause my hair and dress wasnt turning out right. btu i got over it and when i was there this whol;e big thing happened with me and emily. and that kind of ruined my night but itr was all cool at friendlys i had soo much fun. even tho the friendlys ppl are were being really mean. so ya then sunday i came home early from renees house. and i hung out iwth page and well we were hiding from my dad cause i was supposed to be at her house but ya know that just didnt happen. so anyways we were walkin behind house and then we stareted to run. paig was infront of my\e a little bit ..and all of a sudden i hear her say woooh and i was like what...and she was on the ground and i triopped over this little fence.

It was so fucking hilarious. "WATCH OUT FOR THE FENCE"

so ya then i came home and well it got boring again cause i had to go to school and schyool is always boring. well i hung out iwth jessi today and that was fun...i got gum in my hair and she used penut butter/windex(do not ask..it was her crazy idea.)/sope. but hey it worked so o well. so ya i am going to go and take a shower to get it out...but before i go here are somepics from homecomin of me,emily,renee,my sis and her friend stephany.

renee,emily&&me

...emily

...me

me and my dad^

I love my nae...

me and my emiie

well thats all...post some other time.

~Ash-//<3333

I you love bryan<33333

Tuesday, October 05, 2004

Tue, 05 Oct 2004 20:39:37 GMT

Well.....on friday me renee and brayn all went to the mall...and well that was pretty boring no one was there at all. but ya so saturday it was renees party and well at first me and renee woke up at 11 and started cleaning like all day.

and then emily showed up and then amanda and then paige and then brittany lee and then amy. ya amy was a slow poke even tho she left befor any of them and she lives closer than anyione she was last. szo ya it started off slow and we just sat and talked. then later we ate food and had a food fight thanks to renee cause she through macorronie and cheese at me. but she ran so i threw it at amy and amanda and it got in both of there hair. (lmao)

so ya then we took a walk in the woods....and then sat by the fire for like an half an hour. then we all started to play simon says and red rover. well simon says was fun and sasfe but umm not red rover my arm hurt so freakin bad and i have bruises and worse renee almost died cause her necki ran like right in to me and jen (renee sister) and well she flipped and sored through the air landing on the pavement onb her head. so ya we def. stopped that....

then paiges mom was being men and wouldnt trust her to psend the night so she had to go home...and just the rest of us danced to grease...lool that was lots of fun i was always dancing with amy and emily<3 but ya then later at like 3 we wetre all trying to stay awake well atleast renee cause she was tired..and we were supposed to sneak out but ummm...well lets just say renee's mom was cleaning the kitchen at 4 in the morning and was like watching us like a hawk. and ralph and nick and everyone else who had been out in the cold for liek 3 hours wating for us were really mad! but thats ok they will get over it. So we wnet to bed at like 4:30.

then sundayamanda and brittany left all early and emily and amy left at like 3 and well em and reneetook showers anfd got ready to go to her little sisters party ta chuckie cheeses.it was lots of fun. Renee kept kicin this dinosour machine and getting like all these coins. but ya then i came home at like 8:30 and took a shower and went to bed at like 9:30..ya its early but othert wise i will sleep in class.

btu ya tonmorrow is wacky tacky day and me,renee,and shawn are all dressing up like wiggers.its going to be great. well this is really long so i am going to go. i will write later or whenever i feel like typing or if something exciting happens.

homecoming saturday<3 ..pictures once Renee downloads them.

~Ash-//<33333

I love you bryan

Friday, October 01, 2004

Fri, 01 Oct 2004 21:44:22 GMT

well the past few days have been boring but this week has flew by quick. thank god. so ya tomorrow is renee's party it is going to be a blast. (lol)

but ya i am going over there tonight so i am going to leave this message at this and write in it tomorrow and tell everything that happened at renee's.

well post tomorrow hopefully....

~Ash-//<333

Monday, September 27, 2004

Mon, 27 Sep 2004 00:02:33 GMT

well today was a boring day and all i have been doing is thinkin,listening to music,and being confuzed...so i dont really have much to talk about but the thing with my family is just gettin worse and it seems like my dad just keeps bringing me in to it when i dont want to be....so ya i am going to go and think more about everything.....

~Ashley//<3

this is exactly how i feel right now...

Sunday, September 26, 2004

Sun, 26 Sep 2004 04:48:25 GMT

ok well today was so awesome.....me and renee got up at like 12 and then we went to walmart to get adams present(cards) so we came home got ready and showed up at adams house just alittle late. well we were all just sitting down in the basement while everyone ignore me and renee..and i think lyndsay too? but ya i had a first impression of these girls who were here and it was this (wtf) but ya so we all went outside and hung out for a while..and agin me,renee,lyndsay,and, jackie were all out of place...so when everyone went out of back to watch andrew irish dance..me, jackie,lyndsay and renee all ran to the park and then came back like 15 minutes later and took adam and whoevers bike and rode up to this little delly mart. We got some oreos and coke....then kevin called me and i told him we were lost in a field and this guy gave us some oreos and coke and left. so then they all found us at the park and after that we went back to adams house and just hung out out back. then of course we were like left out again so me renee,jackie, and lyndsay all went and played duck duck goose. that was fun. so ya then renee and lyndsay got us all to play hide and go seek. ya renee and everyone else could never find me and mikey. i guess we were just some really good hiders but ya we hid for like 20 minutes and we came back and like evreyone was liek you guys made out on a swing...i really dont know where they got that from cause it wasnt true we were just simease what can i say so then we went inside to watch adam blow out his candles and read cards out loud. and so we went back outside and like just sat there again and listened to music while everyone started a mosh pit in adams back yard. lol. so ya the 3 girls left...and then lyndsay..and then jackie...and me and renee left at like 10:40...ya so thats about all that happened but i had lots of fun<3 post more later

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ADAM<33333

~ASH-//<3

Friday, September 24, 2004

Fri, 24 Sep 2004 01:12:36 GMT

well today i had my one hour detention. It was boring as hell. i did nothing but write these stupid numbers....and so i came home...and waited for my dad to come home while i talked to bryan. That was cool. So then my dad came home and michelle came over and they took us out to dinner. Boy did i get stuffed!. so then we went to leave and michelle just left my dad in the parkin lot without saying anything and my dad fliped out on me..and my sister. godd i knew this was going to happen..i saw it coming. But later he apoligized and called me and my sister in to the living room and he like started to cry it was so sad =(..especially since he never cries. So ya you know all this dating stuff confuses me..like i am starting to get really cofuzed i thought i knew everything about love but what i relized from seeing what my parents are going through is once you give yourself up to love someone your only rewally letting yourself out there to get hurt,and played,used..and so on...love is just liek a game that everyone plays over and over again...but i mean i do really like bryan..just i dunno about this love thing..i am so confuzed.

-Ash=(

answer this....

1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. How have I affected you?
5. What do you think of me?
6. What's the fondest memory you have of me?
7. How long do you think we will be friends?
8. Do you love me?
9. Do you have a crush on me?
10. Would you kiss me?
11. Would you hug me?
12. Physically, what stands out?
13. Emotionally, what stands out?
14. Do you wish I was cooler?
15. On a scale of 1-10, how hot am I?
16. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
17. Am I loveable?
18. How long have you known me?
19. Describe me in one word.
20. What was your first impression?
21. Do you still think that way about me now?
22. What do you think my weakness is?
23. Do you think I'll get married?
24. What makes me happy?
25. What makes me sad?
26. What reminds you of me?
27. If you could give me anything what would it be?
29. How well do you know me?
30. When's the last time you saw me?
31. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
32. Do you think I could kill someone?