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Name: Franklin
Country: United States
State: California
Birthday: 6/20/1990
Gender: Male
Interests: Playing my guitar, writing poems, trying to become a better person, and of course being humorus.
Expertise: I'm pretty good at cars. I can look at a cars headlights and tell you exactly which direction it's coming at.
Occupation: Artist
Industry: Singer for hire
Message: message meEmail: email me
Website: visit my website
AIM:  thefuzzypanda777
Yahoo:  DDRmaster777
Member Since:
11/23/2003
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| I texted Kristine yesterday and of course she didn't reply.
I don't know why but ever since the last open mic she just doesn't answer her phone for me, text me back, or message me on myspace.
Did I do something to make her mad at me?
I really miss her. I was gonna try to call her yesterday but I'm starting to think she's avoiding me on purpose so nevermind.
I was pretty depressed today. I've been for the past two weeks. Just everything happening has been making me so stressed. I really miss my friends. I just wish I could hang out with someone new.
I can't believe that it's been only a couple weeks since this.
I miss you guys. We gotta jam soon.
Someone save me. I'm so lonely and depressed lately it's not even cool.
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| Amy and Christina are off at college.
Last person who I talked to on the phone was Amy. I got kinda worried because she was talking about how she was bummed that she couldn't go to a hookah party. She sounded like a hypebeast all the sudden.
Julian is off at DVC, has work, and is always with Ashley, so I can't really kick it with him.
That's basically my three closest friends. All gone. I guess I'm getting more and more lonely lately.
If only I could meet someone new. I know how cliche that sounds, but I mean it.
I wanna meet someone new. Someone different.
For a while this summer I was trying to hang out with Lissa as if she was my new kick it buddy, but what I quickly found out was that in addition to being a crappy girlfriend when we went out, she was a crappy friend.
I remember the last night we talked I told her that I was kinda lonely cause all my friends were going off to college and she said she was sorry for not really being there for me.
That was an understatement. Lissa was never there for me. Not as a girlfriend, and not even as a friend.
Looking back now, I really should have hung out with Jaime instead of Lissa. Jaime at least made me feel like she wanted to hang with me and she treated me nice.
I remember the night I took Jaime to the spot and we had a nice heart to heart.
I sang the song I wrote for Kristine for her and she said she really liked it.
She really meant it, and it made all the difference.
I really messed up my summer trying to force Lissa to be a real friend and trying to get her to actually open up to me. I don't think I'll ever figure out that girl. I've never met anyone more unappreciative and uncaring.
Even now I still think about her. I know I shouldn't, but the whole thing just leaves such a bad taste in my mouth.
I really just wish she had at least tried to be nice to me. Or at least cared for me.
Once again I must face the fatal truth that no one will ever care about me as much as you did for me Kristine.
I miss you so much.
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| Another dream this morning.
Seems to be a more common thing lately with me. I don't know why.
It was kinda of like going on the road trip to Napa for the wedding gig, except I was in the car with Kristine.
She looked so happy. It was the Kristine that I remember from when we were first going out. She was so happy.
Then we got stranded, so all of us got into a barn and tried to hold on for the night, but then it got really cold...
Then after that I had another dream that it was Halloween and something was chasing Kristine and I down a really dark alley. I was so scared. I was terrified.
But then we were safe, and so I said goodbye to Kristine and she slowly came up to me and pecked me on the lips saying.
"I'll see you later."
She smiled and ran off.
I woke up this morning and sighed deeply.
What I would give for that to actually happen...
I won't try to lie. I miss you Kristine, and I was wrong for cheating on you.
Every single girlfriend I had after you was a joke compared to you. Yesenia, Lissa, even Janis. None of them were half of what you were.
I think that's what made me so mad at Lissa. The fact that she was nothing like you, and she wasn't even trying.
I got mad the other day when Lissa came up on the conversation with Christina, and Amy. I was driving and I shouted and punched my steering wheel.
There's this dent there now.
I was so mad.
I guess I still am.
Where's my apology Lissa? You owe me so much.
I'm more mad at myself than I am at you though. I was the one that let you screw me over the 3rd time.
I'm such an idiot.
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| A youtube romance?!
Is it possible...?
I will soon find out, haha!
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| It's funny how everything just leads back to her.
My sister keeps playing the Wicked soundtrack, which of course makes me think of her.
I hate how it just ruins my day when I remember her.
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