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Friday, May 26, 2006

Fri, 26 May 2006 15:57:51 GMT

ok people here we go!!!

I have been tagged by probably one of the most amazingly beautiful girls I know- Kelley Sharp AND Adam Farley who... lets just be serious... its basically the definition of awesome!!

RULES - Once you've been tagged, you have to write a blog with 8 facts/things/habits about yourself, saying who tagged you. In the end you need to choose the 6 people to be tagged and list their names. No tag backs.

1. I want to be Jack Bauer. For those of you who don't know- Jack Bauer is the main character on the TV show 24... definitely the greatest show ever created!

2. I am absolutely terrible about starting books and never finishing them... i'm basically the worst.

3. My new fav band is Dashboard Confessional! THEY ARE AWESOME!! Like- I can't get enough of them... it's almost pathetic

4. I love Mac computers. And I especially love the new mac vs. dell commercials. They crack me up every time!

5. You all should be really jealous after reading this next one... Basically I'm going to have the most awesome roommate next year- LINDSAY HAYES... yes its ok... you can be jealous- I said you were going to be. And we have the same name.... it's just destined

6. I really really want to learn spanish. I would love to speak it fluently. That would be pretty amazing.

7. I love DXP!!! It is such an incredible group of women! And I'm so honored that I am now apart of it!

8. Ok- let's see.... a habit... I twirl my hair. Its a really bad habit. I've done it ever since I was a baby. And If you ever see me twirling my hair it either means 1) I'm sleepy or 2) I'm daydreaming or something

So there ya go!
Ok I tag..

1. CUPCAKE!!! My new roommate!!
2. An amazing friend- who I absolutely adore... who unfortunately is in a foreign country at the moment- but i know will post as soon as he gets back!!! DANIEL
3. One of my favorite people in the whole world. My beautiful pledge sister Heather!
4. One of the coolest guys at HP- Curtis Foot w/ an E :)
5. Another member of my amazing pledge class- MOLLY!
6. And time heinze... for the single reason that he has not updated in forever!

Hope you guys are enjoying your summer!!!

Friday, May 05, 2006

Fri, 05 May 2006 03:50:44 GMT

i don't know if i've ever felt so selfish in my entire life....

i don't understand God's timing and i don't understand the way he plans things.... i want to so badly. i want to know what the rest of my life looks like: who i'm with, what i'm doing, where i am. i want to know.
i came back to my room last night in a terrible mood. the night was so weird- and i was so broken. i'm so tired of letting satan win over my thoughts. i get so caught up in his distractions of life. i talked to monica about it a lot. she is so wise, and the girl has no idea.
my first year of college has been incredible and i wouldn't trade it for the world- it has just kind of revealed things that aren't revealed in high school. like- it seems like everyone is looking for the person they are supposed to end up with. guys- i'm not gonna lie- i've been so caught up in that lately. especially because some of the girls i am around are getting married or getting engaged... and like i panic because i'm not dating anyone.....
why can't i trust that God has a plan that far surpasses anything that i could ever imagine? i'm so selfish and so terribly impatient- but i guess that is typical human nature, eh? we want to know now. i was talking to daniel last night and he said "I just wish God would give me the initials".... and as silly as that sounds.... i'm in the same boat. that would make my life a lot less complicated. but alas this will not happen- therefore i will continue to rely on God.
it's just so hard sometime not to just plan out your entire life, but that is not the way God intended us to live.... it would be such a small faith to live like that....
grrrr this is hard people...

summer is approaching, and i don't think it could com fast enough.....

blah finals!!!!!!

Friday, May 05, 2006

Fri, 05 May 2006 03:50:44 GMT

Monday, April 24, 2006

Mon, 24 Apr 2006 22:20:40 GMT

PEOPLE!

banquet is over and it went GREAT! i think everyone really enjoyed it. so that was such a huge relief. it was such a joy to get to hang out with my pledge class. its crazy how you spend every second for 6 weeks with these girls then BAM its over... its sad really. but it was so great to be all together this weekend. i don't know if people should be allowed to have that much fun!

guys... i am so torn about this summer. like- i applied for this "uncharted waters" internship (basically i would be doing cheer/bible camps for kids in oklahoma) which sounds like SOOOOOOO much fun! but then i called my mom to tell her some more details about it all and se was so discouraging and kind of dissing the whole idea... makes me wonder what God has planned... makes me real nervous since i don't know what i'm doing. i'll go crazy if i'm home. its so hard to be home after you've been gone a year. like... its just awkward- you guys probably know the feeling. its like i have friends there, but things are just so different because we are not around eachother as much as we were in high school. i don't know ya'll- i'm just very worried about the whole situation. your prayers would be greatly appreciated.

i've learned that i have a problem with running away from my problems. like instead of talking to the person i just flat out avoid them. i hate confrontation.... i can't take it. there has been one specific issue that i have been avoiding because it is just so awkward and i don't know how to approach it and i don't know what to say, because i don't want to hurt their feelings..... its just so hard. i want to be honest, but i'm afraid if i am i will just be hurtful- ya know? and i don't want to do that..... blah....

let's end on a good happy note!!! :) :) :)

i have become so thankful for lindsay hayes the past couple of weeks. this girl is AMAZING! she is going to be my roommate next year, and i am so excited! she is such a joy to be around, and when we are together we just laugh and laugh and laugh and...... you get the idea! she was definitely an answered prayer!!

so thats all people!

-lindsay b

Sunday, April 16, 2006

Sun, 16 Apr 2006 23:11:04 GMT

well guys.... its been a while. and i have been convicted by some (clears throat) daniel and caty... but it was much needed. i mean- what is accountability for

let me try to sum up the last 4 months if my life... well crazy is a good word.

I pledged for 6 weeks to the greatest organization ever!! DELTA CHI RHO! it was so so much fun- but oh so draining. BUT totally worth it.
God has blessed me with more than i could ever have asked for. He has been so faithful and so fulfilling during times this semester when i really needed his grace and love..... which was too many to count or name.

i've dealt with a lot of internal struggles this semester. i've been so unsatisfied with so many areas of my life... especially the whole boy situation. like i liked this guy- and i thought it was a good idea- but i never really got a complete peace about the whole situation. and it really frustrated me- because all around he seemed like such a good guy- and he totally is. i guess he's just not for me- well i know he's not for me.
i think i jumped into things way to quickly and wasn't really asking the Lord's guidance one the whole situation.... we'll just pray about it...
that's another thing... i say that all the time.... "we'll pray about it"... like its probably sacrilegious... we'll pray about it <- SEE!!! all the time!!!

the fam is good- this is just such a busy time of year. i'm ready for summer- even though i really don't know what i'm reall doing.... i know i'm taking a may-term here at eastfield. i think i am going to take US govt..... how much fun does that sound.... tons i know

oh my! how could i forget! so basically- i'm like in charge of the committee for banquet.... when is banquet?? next saturday!!!! holy cow!!! so much to do! not enough time- and i'm REAL afraid some people aren't even going to like the decorations!!!! AHHHHHHH!!! its controlling my mind!!!!
..... and i don't have a date.... it's next week people! ga-lee... i'm really ready for this weekend to get here- that will be nice.

well i think thats all i can write- and i'm pretty sure thats all you guys can handle :) i hope things are going great for you guys! school is almost over! finish strong!!

-lindsay

Friday, December 23, 2005

Fri, 23 Dec 2005 22:08:23 GMT

hmmmmm update time

life is so good right now. i have no reason to complain what-so-ever. i love being home. i hung out with some AWESOME girls last night that i have missed so much! it was sooooo much fun! girls are great! boys stink.... not gonna lie. all you need is your girls to have a good time.
Christmas is almost here..... CRAZY! the malls are insane. like it makes my head hurt. me and my mom had to go up there today and i thought i was going to shoot myself. i guess people aren't happy that its Christmas or something. and if they are- they sure aren't acting like it. people are shoving, pushing, screaming, cussing. it made me so frustrated. how easily we forget what we are really celebrating... cheesy i know- but oh so true. ya know? but i get caught up in the same thing. i lose sight of the bigness (is that a word??) of this holiday. i wish so badly that things weren't like that. i wish we could keep our focus on what really matters. but we're human... and selfish... thankfully God knows that :)
i miss my hp friends REAL bad! you all should come to dallas and we'll hang out and have mucho fun.... no seriously.... come to dallas. fast!

i hope you guys are enjoying your break from school and enjoying time with your fam and friends!

MERRY CHRISTMAS FRIENDS!!

Wednesday, December 07, 2005

Wed, 07 Dec 2005 20:15:54 GMT

so it's like freezing in brownwood... right now... not kidding. i complained about the hot weather but GALEE IT IS COLD HERE! and we just kind of jumped right into it. there was no smoooooooooth transition with a couple of 60s days. i am not lying to you when i say it got to 87* on saturday in brownwood and sunday it dropped to like 50* and it just keeps getting colder! IT'S CRAZY!!! and i keep saying "buurrrrrrr rabbit!" and obviously NO ONE here has ever said that before because i get made fun of nearly every time i say it!

let's see. what else is going on...

oh yea- FINALS! and can i just say that i have NEVER taken a final in my life. darn high school sheltered me from this torture. curses. although it is stressful, it is not near as bad as i had ever imagined. but they just keep coming- ya know? i'm like- when is this madness going to end?!?!?!?! it's crazy! but i am real excited because both of my classes are canceled tomorrow! thank you Jesus for the possibility of snow. my friend Ricky made an interesting point today. LoL he said that when it snows here in texas everyone just totally freaks out and shuts everything down! LoL and that is so true! we're like "oh no!!!! it's snow!!! what do we do? what do we do? what do we do?" LoL- i'm not complaining at all- thank you professors! :)

oh and how could i forget!!! season 4 of 24 came out yesterday and i am a proud owner of it!!! my mom surprised me and got it for me!! it was GREAT- yesterday was just a great day! thanks mom :)

overall i can't complain about life. life is good. God is "gooder" :) He has blessed me so much lately and i don't deserve it at all. it amazes me how big his forgiveness and mercy are. i wrote this song about a week ago called "i want" and this is the chorus

and i want a hope like yours
i want a faith like yours
i want to love like you
i want to forgive like you do

i think this should be our attitude and our focus at all times. just striving to be like Jesus in all that we do. so many people have such a hard time loving and forgiving these days. it's crazy and it makes me think- who am i?? i am nothing. i have no superiority. no greatness. no power. i am nothing. why is our world having such a hard time loving one another? is it because we are too selfish? are we too prideful? arrogant? what is it?? why is it so easy to judge? but yet so hard to forgive and see people for who they are and not what they were? i don't get it guys.. the idea just frustrates the heck outta me!
thankfully- we have a Father is is too forgiving and too loving and merciful and great for us to even begin to imagine. phew! now that is a relief my friends! :)

hope you guys are having an amazing week!!

YaY for Christmas almost being here!!!

-lindsay

Thursday, December 01, 2005

Thu, 01 Dec 2005 01:41:40 GMT

So I usually don't do these things, but I found this one... and I'm bored. So here are my results

You scored as Choir. You are a choir member. Sing your heart out.

Choir

100%

Dancer

67%

Actor

63%

Costume Design

63%

The Almighty Stage Manager

58%

Spot

33%

Set

25%

Pit member

21%

Sound

17%

Lights

13%

Ropes

What part of the theatre world are you?
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funny huh??? I thought so.
So today was Monica's b-day and we threw her a little surprise party. I think me and kate lied to her a totaly of about 2 billion times in the past three weeks about her b-day. We made her this music video sort of thing. It's really funny, and she really liked it- so that's all that matters right? :) It made me happy that she enjoyed it.
So hmmm... life is ok now. I was sharing with a friend recently some feleings I have been having. Man- I feel empty. Like dried out empty. I can't explain it. I wish I could just say that it is because of school, and I am just burnt out from these classes, but I can't honestly say that. I don't know what it is. I've been writing a lot of songs recently- like about these feelings. It's weird, you guys. I can't even begin to explain it.

So I guess I am just asking you guys for prayer. It would be much appreciated! :)

And hey... the week is almost over- so cheer up

OH- thats another thing.... I'm not a cheerleader anymore, so that is a huge burden off my shoulder. Details another time.

Until then.....

-lindsay

Wednesday, November 23, 2005

Wed, 23 Nov 2005 19:54:48 GMT

So here we go...

-Yea for being home for a while. Last night Daniel, Ricky, and Hailey had the MARVELOUS opportunity to stop in Mesquite and eat at TINO'S. And I think they liked it.. which means they passed the test and now they are OFFICIALLY my friends. :) jk guys
After that a BUNCH of people came to my house and it was sooo much fun! I miss these people so much. But it's crazy to see how everyone has changed and to hear about how and what everyone is doing. It was funny- the boys talked about football and the girls sat there and made faces of confusion at one another. It was fun. Overall everyone seems to be doing pretty well though. And that makes me happy
- Ya know what else made me happy today- I got to see RENT with my mom and and mamaw. You guys- it was amazing! Long, but so so good. I'll probably see it at least two more times while it's in theatres. It was so great. Made me really want to do theatre/ broadway crap. But who knows if I'll ever get to do that stuff again. I just get so excited when I see a musical or play. I love it. I love the fact that you can be someone else for a few hours and forget about your problems. It just seems like it would be so much fun!
-So me and my dad are running this "Turkey Trot" tomorrow. And I was really excited about it until I found it was like a 3 mile course.... I don't even think I can walk 3 miles... No- I can probably do that. :)
-And now my day is about to get even better, because I am about to go shopping with my mom. YEA!! And we're going to the BIGGER AND BETTER Northpark mall! YEA!! I haven't been to a good and decent mall in forever, so I am REALLY excited!

Hey- but you guys have a great Thanksgiving!!!

-lindsay

Wednesday, November 09, 2005

Wed, 09 Nov 2005 19:04:17 GMT

Can someone please explain to me why it is November 9 and it was 86* outside today?? Hmmm.. CAN ANYONE DO THAT???

I am soooo ready for sweater weather. When I went home for fall break I came back with all of these hoodies and sweaters, and I haven't had the chance to wear them yet!! Blah!

I can't really complain too much about life right now. I have had worse days, but I have also had much better. God is faithful and good, so I am just trusting Him to deliver me from this crap. I am so thankful for the people at this school. They put a huge smile on my face where I am constantly laughing and can't stop. And I love these people's passion for the Lord. They hold me accountable on so many levels. They are AmAzInG!!!

One of my biggest struggles has been having a desire to read my Bible or to talk to Jesus. I feel like it is a routine- like I read my Bible at this time of the day.. I don't know- it just feels routine, ya know? I don't want it to be like that. I want a burning desire to know Him to where I can't disguise my feelings. I wonder if people that I randomly meet see the joy of the Lord inside of me. I mean I hope they do, but I really don't know.
That is one thing I have been confronted about lately- not being positive and joyful. Like there are some things that I am just NOT enthusiastic about (some of you know EXACTLY what I am talking about). It's funny- I always thought that was one of my strenghts. Ya know- being positive and what not. So- that is my goal- to be positive and joyful no matter the situation.
Bethany Dillon has this amazing song on her new cd (TIm, have you heard it?? LoL) and it's called "Hallelujah." Dang- it is amazing. The chorus has a line in it that syas "Whatever's infront of me, I choose to sing hallelujah" Oh- how I want a faith like that. When my life falls to pieces, I want to be able to thank God for all the blessings in my life rather than complain about the bad stuff. So... yea... I got nothin.
Anywho- I hope you guys have had an AMAZING week! And think- only like 2 more weeks till Thanksgiving!! YEA!!!! I'm real excited!!

-linds