So if anyone realizes I might not be myself this week, Im about to explain why... so hold tight.
As most of you know you have I a great passion for The Cavaliers Drum and Bugle Corps. and color guard in general. I cant beleive that just a little over a year and a half ago I was one of those people who went to the football games to watch the game and see my friend in the marching band perform their show. I was introduced to color guard two summers ago by a good friend of mine... and I pretty much fell into love with it and I havent let go since. Color guard has definitely changed my life and a few was, some good and some bad, either way: Im happy.
This friend of mine also REintroduced me to the Cavaliers Drum and Bugle Corps. I grew up around the Cavaliers. I used to live in Mount Prospect, Illinois and I would see the Cavaliers in the parade on 4th of July in Park Ridge. I was little and I really didnt have much desire for them when I was small, because I didnt exactly know who they were or what they did. Now I know....
Thing have definitely changed, when this friend of mine introduced me to the color guard world he didnt hesitate to show me some of the Cavalier shows. As soon as saw them, there was a slight attachment I made again. They seemed so familiar to me...I didnt understand why, so I asked my parents. They explained to me I was around them a LOT when I was little. Through out the next couple of months I followed them closer, they won 2004 and I was like "WHOA! The Cavaliers win! ( alot)" and I was overly ammused with them ever since.
I dont enjoy the Cavaliers because they tend to win, I enjoy them because I have grown up with them and I think they have class, but thats my opinion. Thanksgiving is less than four days away and the Cavaliers auditions are five away... due to recent events I will NOT be attending the audition camp for the 2006 season. I wont be able to because of some money issues and what not at home.
As most of you know my mom had cancer and she is recovering, everything is recovering. The one thing that is recovering and is needed is money. Cancer is a VERY EXPENSIVE illness to get treated and it tends to take a toll on anyones bank account so thats given. I thank the Lord every day, multiple times, that my mother is still living and getting better. SO I have plenty to be thankful about.
I am depressed on the other hand that I wont be able to fullfill a goal that I set for myself last year. The goal: The join a D&B Corps, particularly the Cavaliers. Im not blaming that short coming on anyone but myself because it isnt anyone problem but my own.
Overall, I think this weekend will be hard for me because I personally have counted down the months, weeks and days to til the day after Thanksgiving and to partake in something I despirately want for myself. I want to be at those Audition and I want to be a part of the Cavalier color guard. and for me this year... it simply wont happen.
So now you know, if I am a little down on myself this weekend, you all know why.
Have a great Thanksgiving everyone!
~Luke |