as i become older, when's become if's.

and my dreams become dimmer. i regret only one thing in my life. i miss you. i miss you and i go to sleep hoping i will dream about you. i wish there was a way to change what happened, i wish there was time to make it right. who am i kidding, there was. 

life used to be so simple. such a short time ago.

i never want to be a hypocrite. i'm sorry for caring too much about what people thought. i never hated you. anything but. i always thought about you. i miss you.

this one was for you. our temporary escape.

so i'm taking the SATs march 10th????????

FUUCCCKKKKK

I ate chinese food for dinner. there goes all my hard work from track.

i'm soo busy all the time now. i really just wish i had more time to do the things i love than my priorities(is that the righrt work to use?) taking up every minute of every day. i love the holiday season though. i wish i had more time to just enjoy it. i want a day to just bake christmas treats and i need time to shop and decorate and omg where the fuck is the snow?????? i am so mad about how warm it is....ahhhhhh and i suck at physics. i dont try at all so i guess its my fault, but im failing it terribly. my mom is going to be piiiisssssedddddd. im also pretty sure im failing ap bio. im seriously not motivated at all this year to do any school work. it's definately showing. i really dont study at all...im so scared for report cards. oh god i cant wait for break.its exactly a week until chrsitmas eve!! ok love you all.