haha, so how i got moved from my seat cuz i talked to much.  it fathoms me how anal a person can be. (there's a whole lot more than just this talking business, she anal about everything she can be anal about)

well i made a decision on what im going to do with the rest of my life.   1) take photography classes.  2) invest in a really good professional camera.  3)win a lifetime supply of flim.  4)have darkroom/studio located all over the world and just take pictures all day long.

if my lifetime supply of flim doesnt follow through...im gonna become a kickass CIA agent and reveal scandals of the goverment.  and i get too stress out...then...im gonna live up in the good 'ole clouds with some good 'ole new orleans jazz and just chill out.  and there will be unlimited resources of cotton candy, marshmellows and bagel w/cream cheese. 

or!! better yet, live under the sea and swim with the dolphins and check out what its really like in a whale's stomach.  i'd throw parties everyday just like in the one in Little Mermaid.  making all sorts of music and having the time of my life.

tell me thas not da BOMBshit.  haha, i daydream a whole lot, can you tell?  yea, didnt think so.  anybody care to share some of theirs?? give me something do on my xanga site on the days when i have nothing to write about.

when you find yourself falling down/ your hopes in the sky but your heart like grape gum on the ground/and you try to scrape yourself up/ but you keep seeping out like cheap gin through a broken cup/ and you try to find yourself/in the the abstractions of religion and the cruelty of everyone else/ and you're standing in deep water/ and your bailing in deep water/ and you wake up making love to a wall/ well it's these little times that help to remind/ it's nothing without love/ when you realize your only friend/ has never been yourself or anyone who care in the end/ and you wake up to see all your dreams have been compromised/ our standard of living somehow got stuck on survive/ that's when suddenly everything fades or falls away/ cause the chains which once held us are only the chains which we've made/ we sacrifice our pride, sacrifice our health/ we must demand more, not of each other, but more from ourselves/ cause when you're standing in deep water/ and you're bailing yourself out with a straw/ when you're drowning in deep water/ and you wake up making love to a wall/ well it's these little times that help to remind/ it's nothing without love

deep water-jewel