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| hmwell, I havent written in here in a while--i thought they may have discontinued my "membership." But its a good way to release sometimes.
I've been thinking a lot lately. (what else is new?). I graduate in december...finally.
It's sort of weird being in kirksville still, being a student. I feel so much older than the other students...which, in some cases I am--the freshmen are itty bitty, and JUST graduated from high school. How crazy is that? Over 4 years ago I graduated from HS--wow. 4 years is a long time!
I don't know what I'm gonna do whenst I graduate. I'm not super worried about it, I mean I have options..I just have to make a decision.
I'm so sick and tired of guys that are all talk. Don't play games with me, I don't like them--and I don't play games with you. So if you could show me the common courtesy and be a GROWN-UP, and either put up or shut up, I'd really appreciate it, thanks.  Actions speak louder than words, and I'm really learning that lately, and believing it whole-heartedly. So either act like you speak or dont act at all and leave me alone so I quit wasting my time.
because time is precious, life is short, you only live once...and I've got too much living to do.
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yeah
so I haven't done xanga in months. clearly. But I still read
Jana's sometimes and Josh's and Andrew's and Alison's...anyway, the
point is she "tagged" me with this thing so I guess I have to do
it. (haha "I guess we HAVE to eat.")
Four jobs I've had: Soccer country, Culver's(haha i know right?it was super fun though), YMCA, Zelma's (BIG HEARTS!)
Four movies I can watch over and over: That Thing You Do, The Italian Job, Monster's Inc., anddddddd Ocean's 11
Four places I've lived: Malibu CA, Champaign IL, and Kirksville MO
Four foods I like: icecream, cereal, sandwhiches, chocolate
Four shows I like to watch: LOST, Friends, Sportscenter(during college bball season), andddddddd one tree hill
Four websites I visit daily: truview, facebook, nationalcity.com, espn
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things I want to do before I die: Get married and have a family, sing
in a rock band, get season tickets to IL bball for one season, be on
national tv
Four people i'm tagging: well nobody even reads this anymore but...Andrew, Alison, Josh, and yeah that about covers it.
OKAY NAY, YOU HAPPY?!?!
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| I feel like I should update. I havent done a real one in a while.
I have a lot to say but I dont know how to say it. School is so
stressful. Pretty much all the time. I just feel over
loaded in my brain. Almost like my professors expect too much
from me, and I can't give them what they want. It's a feeling of
extreme inadequacy. I don't like it.
I get to go home for thanksgiving soon (as do all of you! YAY!) and I
really can't wait. Im so excited to see my family. And I'll
hopefully get to work some which will be good (well...)...for the money
aspect anyway. Can't say much else about THAT. but you all
know how much I heart making money!
I really need to clean my room. Thats one of my big goals for
this weekend. Cleaning my room (and re arranging so I can FINALLY
set up my printer) and getting some actual studying for linguistics
done, AND lots of piano practicing. I want to WOW dr. mckamie on
tuesday. haha. Im such a huge dork. Well Its late and im tired and i
have to wake up early to study...so, goodnight.
i really miss you.
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| staring right back in the face
a memory cant be erased
i know
because i tried
start to feel the emptiness
and everything im gonna miss
i know
that i cant hide
all this time is passing by
i think its time to just move on
when you come back down
if you land on your feet
i hope you find a way to make it back to me
when you come around
ill be there for you
dont have to be alone with what youre going through
start to breathe and fake a smile
its all the same after awhile
i know
that you are tired
carrying the ones you lost
a picture frame with all the thoughts
i know
you hold inside
i hope that you can find your way
back to the place where you belong
when you come back down
if you land on your feet
i hope you find a way to make it back to me
when you come around
ill be there for you
dont have to be alone with what youre goin through
you're coming back down
you say you feel lost can i help you find it
when you come around
from time to time we all are blinded
you're coming back down
you don't have to tell me what you're feeling
I know what you're going through
I won't be the one that lets go of you
I think its time to just move on...
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