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I'm just a kid and LiFe is a NIGHTMARE!

'nough said... that is about all i can say when it comes down to my life.  People talk it, I take it.... nothing new.

((except for Jeffery, Shelbi, Tiffany, and Becca... that is about all.. because everyone else i found out does it all secretly.))

that was then, this is now... the date is 4/30/05 as i am writing this. And i know that Hannah, Shelbi, Tiffany, Becca, and everyone else who doesnt talk shit. Are my True friends that would never do anything ever close to that. Like Chelsea Lotz I love her to death because she is the sweetes thing. Annie Harris too... I love you both!

I guess things can only last for so long. The people that mean the most to me will always stand beside me.

Yesterday, On the bus... My Best Friend, Jeffery McMillen... he asked me out. I said yes. So I am dating the guy that means the most to me. He is the only thing that can brighten my day.

Other things are going very well... i feel that to some of my friends, I dont mean that much. Shelbi Thomas, Is My Best Friend! She is sooo sweet! She means so much to me! She is always there to help me.

Guys Are So Two-Faced!

And it isnt just one, it is the whole lot of em'. It is really starting to make me mad! Okay.. and these are some of the stories...

A Guy did something to another Girl, and I ((obviously)) got mad about it, but then this guy said that "he still loved me"... hahaha... now do you all think that i would really fall for that? And then... When I was still mad... he finally "gave up on me" and he goes back to the girl that he was messing around with. Oh yeah... and did i tell you he claimed this girl a "hit and run"....

Then we have another one, but this one was a little more sneaky about it all. This Guy tells me that he was been a complete jerk to me, ((which he was)) and he tells me he still likes me. So I forgave him for being a butt. And you know what, the very next day, he is hasseling this other guy that likes me to ask me out, and he is being a total punk to me AGAIN!

Now what is the point of a guy opening his feelings to someone, if everything they say is lies?!?

There are worse things I could do... than go with a boy or two. Even though the neighborhood thinks I am trashy and no good, I supose it could be true, But there are worse things I could do. I could flirt with all the guys.... smile at them, and batt my eyes... press against them when we dance, make them think they stand a chance. then refuse to see it through, thats a thing I'd never do...

I could stay home, every night... wait around, for mister right. Take cold showers everyday, and through my life away on a dream that wont come true.I could hurt someone like me... out of spite or jealousy. I dont steal, and i dont lie but i can feel, and i can cry a fact I'll bet you never knew... but to cry infront of you.... thats the worst thing, i could do....