One last post

Dear Mr. Asshole,

You do not deserve her what so ever! I've tried and tried again to believe that you were better than what I've heard about. But as the truth comes out you were never the person we thought you were. You were a fake person and you are a horrible boyfriend. I have tried many times to help you and yet you still act like the biggest dumbass anyone has ever seen. She will be the god damn greatest thing you ever threw away! And dont you forget that. She is an amazing person! You act like you care but actually you dont its just another of you dumb acts. "Oh baby im sorry I was busy" Save it cuz its getting to damn old. As many times I forgave her for ditching me for you....you werent even worth a damn look. All you ever do now is lie or have people lie for you. Well its getting old fast! So as you sit all alone dont forget we gave you many chances to change your ways. But you never took one of them.

Sigend,
The bestfriend.

Ah okay....so today got a little bit better....was still really pissed this morning...but things got better as the day went on. Vocal was stupid today....o.m.g! Ugh my teacher is dumb but still kewl if that makes any sense to any of you. Umm but yaaa Algebra came around and that was pretty fun. Lauren is awesome to hang with and Bethany too. I guess im the only gurl Jess calls a Dick....lol cuz shes mean to me n so im mean t her bak lol but we <3 eachother. Ashley n me got into trouble in Science. oppps.....=) oh wel. Jeff the new kid is prettty kewl and he is into the same music I am. But totally not gonna happen....dont like him like that. After school went to Bethany's and schooled her and my sis in basketball w/ lauren on my team lol. Have to do that tomorrow tooo.....uh I might go to sweetheart.....People want me to but ya I dont know =\ So yea....Uh sorry for the last entry...was a little idk how bout we say depressed? Sarah called me like 10 mins after I fell asleep....which was awesome but it was on vibrate so I didnt hear it. Oh the fones got shut off completly today.....and my internet...just my interenet might get shut off too. So ya no way of contacting people.

Katt.....Omg! I LOVE YOU. I gotta talk to you tonight. Wow that was like the longest comment I have ever seen....lol! But it meant a lot. A lot of the stuff you said is verrrrrry true! Ah man I <3 you to death too! You are one amazing person....and oh yea...like you would come kick my ass.....ya riiiiight =)

<3

Shot me now cuz if you dont then I will

Ah okay today was horrible...kinda. Well i got there n me and becca (the one i dont like) were aguring just kidding around...well tara was sitting by us n she was all like "Do u always have to do this...we were like umm ya..." then she went off calling us bitches n shit. Like come on I know her cuz died last night but jesus christ all she had to do was ask for us to stop not fucking bitch at us! But ya Vocal was p.i.m.p as usual. But ya........It was just totally gay! I hate school. But I gotta do better! I know I do....and honestly im trying really hard...but if I tell my parents that I am. they will just say "ur not trying hard enough" which then im just gonna give up. They dont understand that some stuff comes harder to different people which makes me angry cuz they compare me to renae....and i effing HATE it! Ugh okay im done

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Okay i fucking h.a.t.e my life! And I h.a.t.e how I cant do a fucking thing about it. I cant do anything cuz I made stupid promises....and I have already broken one and she got mad at me....which isnt fair cuz she has done the same damn thing when she promised me the same thing! If you knew the whole damn story right now you would say you hated your life too. But no one does...and its most likely gonna stay that way cuz I dont wanna tell anyone. I have to go to the ghetto ortho on march 6. then sweetheart is this friday not going. I got progress report. Computers-F Science-D English-D.....UGH I hate it I HATE IT. If I had the guts to pack my bag and pick up and leave I would....and I wouldnt say word to anyone til I got to where I wanted to. But im gone so goodbye

....someone needs to call me to calm me down....cuz im thinking of running away tonight.....