Currently Playing Planets By Adema see related

Wow today I layed out in the sun to work on my tan.  Well... I am really dark pretty much everywhere, but I happened to burn my face a little.  ouchie.  I usually wear makeup when I swim that has some sunblock in it and I didn't have any makeup on today.  oops.  Other than that, today went real well.   Work wasn't stressful at all and we actually got out on time and everything!

I am excited to hear that my trip is looking pretty good right now.  Things seem to be going well for the moment.  I just hope that everything works out for the best.  My older brother and his family are moving out June 24 and I am going to be house sitting next week and then my trip.  My parents are going to be so excited because the only person they will have left at home while I am gone is my little brother Caleb.  Well I think I'm going to go dunk my head under some cold water and then put the fan on and watch a movie before bed.  (the Rundown hehe)  Love to all and goodnight.

Currently Playing Jars of Clay By Jars of Clay see related

This Sunday we had a guest speaker who spoke on spreading the Word of God.  It was amazing because I realized that if we saw the face of every lost person in this world per second, it would take over 37 years and if we slowed it down to one face every few seconds it would take over 170 years.  This means that we have a lot of work to do.  For every Christian there is about another 5 lost souls.

To think of how people can think that they can make it through this world on their own is a great task within itself because I know there is no way I could do it on my own.  Without God I am nothing, but with him I am everything.  With this I want to post my recent poem.

Broken In Your Arms

They cut me like a knife
Killing me with their words
They play with the emotions of my heart
Play with the shadows of reality
I try to liberate my mind
Release the anxiety of my stress
Blocking all unhappiness
My tear-stained smile is my plead
My heart laments like a flute
Crying out to be heard
Take my worlds apart
Bring me to my knees
I long for this place of rest
Broken in your arms

I was inspired by this poem when I was thinking about how people stab you in the back and how no human being could possibly ever make you 100% happy.  People are going to leave you hurt and upset, but there is someone who is never going to let you down and His arms are where I turn to run when I have no place else to go.

"Then I asked have you ever felt abandoned, felt so lost that you were stranded.  Just like all the walls were closing in and you were left inside.  Have you ever felt like your days were numbered, stuck under a tree in thunder.  Seems to be no way out, but there is one when in doubt."

This song is so true.  Often when I am at a low, I try to do everything I can and then when I have come to the edge then I finally turn to God.  Why is that?  I should know to count on him to work things out for the best even before I try to solve the problem myself. 

Anyway I'm struggling with some decisions I need to make.  I had planned to fly to Wisconsin and drive to Ohio with a friend, but as of right now it doesn't look like Ohio is in the question, but I am going to try my best to find a way.  There are some other "life" decisions I will have to make after vacation, but I'm hoping God will reveal His plan for my life.  Right now I feel like I'm the puppet hanging by the string waiting for the puppet master to pick me up and put me on the set.

Currently Playing Avril Live Acoustic by Avril Lavinge By Avril Lavinge see related

Today was kind of blah again.  Well I worked like usual and then swam in the pool for awhile.  Then I worked on the stupid computer for awhile and afterwards I went and sang at church (I joined the worship team!)  Anyway tomorrow is girl's night out.  I'm quite excited!  Gonna stay up all night and then go out for breakfast.  It's silly cuz we are all like between the ages of 18-24 but I'm excited.  Most of us haven't had a sleepover party in awhile. hehe.  Then of course Saturday and Sunday are same ol' same ol'.  Can you believe it just a little over a month before I head up north.  I'm excited.

"and I wanna believe you when you tell me that it will be okay.  Yeah I try to believe you but I don't.  I don't know how I feel, tomorrow tomorrow.  I don't know what to say, tomorrow tomorrow is a different day."