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Monday, March 24, 2008
 

It's funny.

So the other day, i slipped on snow and fell on my butt, mostly the left side. It stills pains me. More recently, I slipped on ice, a tiny patch, which caused me to land on my back.

So now my neck, upper and lower back hurt along with the rest of my butt. It's pretty bad.

Anyway, I'm not so upset it happened. Amanda slipped on ice the other day and her hand got beat up a good one since she landed on cement and scraped it up.

Remember that friend I was just talking about? She recently tried hinting quite a bit she wanted to hang out last night. I was in pain and cranky so I didn't want to but i felt bad about missing this chance to. Later I found out she refused to hang out with someone she normally does. They begged her, but she begged me. Never saw that coming. I'm glad i did go though. We had fun. We also decided to go shopping today.

Now she's at work and I'm doing laundry while fighting with my boyfriend. I hate that word, but that's besides the point.

I don't know why I do half the shit I do, but when I try to think of why, it only makes things worse. So to sit and ask me why i'm doing this to you... well way to go to make things alot worse. I don't care what anyone says, I can't control depression. It's just too hard to fight sometimes so what else can i do but let it take over? It's not like I'm just hurting you, you just don't seem to realize how much it kills me.

(I made like two different points in that last paragraph, my bad)

I just feel like people don't realize how bad it is. I'm sorry, but sometimes taking a 30 minute break doesn't help at all.

Amanda and me were talking about relationships earlier. She recently broke up with her boyfriend because it seemed he wasn't very good at being one. Now he misses her like crazy. She's hurt too, but she doesn't want to have to change who he is so they can date again. It's not fair of her to do that.

And I guess that's kinda why I'm in a fight now. Just because I don't necessarily like the way you spend your life doesn't make it ok for me to change that for you.

I don't know, maybe some changes are good? It's just hard to tell.

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Every relationship will change those involved in some way, and change is good.  I am completely different than I was before Justin, but he didn't change me, I did.  I changed me to fit better with him, and vice versa.  People aren't changed by the other person, they can only be changed by them selves.  Make sense?  Basically, you are together because you liked each other the way you were, but you will continue to like each other through the changes, and overlook the things you might not like. 

And depression is something you have to just work on.  Figure out what makes you upset, and try to figure out a way to keep that from happening.  Try looking on the bright side of everything, and maybe you will start to see things aren't so bad.  I don't know if you know much about my battle with depression/anxiety, but I have done a pretty good job conquering it myself, and I am much happier.  Doctors put me on pills, and they made me feel horrible.  I wasn't sad anymore, but I was never happy either.  If you need to talk, you know where to find me.  Just don't let anyone go over a fight.  Fights make you stronger in your relationships.  Believe me, we have had many! 

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