Just driving along.. BANG! LOOOOOUD NOISE. Stop the car in the middle of the road. (you'd be suprised how many people don't stop -or even slow down- for a little blonde girl in a dress all alone in the middle of no where on a back road) Someone stopped and said it was not drivable. Got the run around from AAA, tow truck finally gets there hour and a half later. It will be expensive, and who knows how long til its fixed. How to get around, so busy right now, and even more broke.

Could have been worse of course, and I've been told I'm lucky it wasn't. I guess thats supposed to make me feel better, and it should, but it doesn't.

When life just slaps you in the face.

It has been one of those weeks where I dwell on something that happened in the past.

I know I shouldn't, but I still do.

I feel really stupid now. I'll feel even more stupid on Sunday, and I don't think I'm going to be able to change that.

I don't experience the stupid feeling in the area of my life often, so I think that makes it worse.

Ugh.

I'm excited.. And nervous. Thats probably dumb. Its just Vegas.. Still I feel pretty intimidated on many levels.

I had one of those dreams last night. I'm sure everyone has them, but it seems like I have them every once and a while when I'm defnatly not expecting it. You dream you are with a random person and you get all snuggly or you are in a relationship in the dream or something affectionate happens, and then you wake up, and you actually sort of have those feelings for that person just from having that dream. Even though that person might be totally random (you've never thought about liking them before), its really inappropriate (someone who is taken or obvously not an option, or you are taken), or its someone whom you have already had those feelings for in the past and have "moved on". Anyway, I had one of those last night. About two different people. I woke up this morning thinking about them. In a way, its not really a bad thing. Not like I could control my dreams (well, thats another blog in itself), and its not like anything will ever happen (well.... ?). But .... do I deep down have feelings for these people? Is that why I'm dreaming about them, and now I sort of have a longing to be close to them? Makes me wanna do something crazy and definatly inappropriate with probably not such a great outcome.. But then again, who knows?

Just more confusion I don't need. Ugh.