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Friday, August 11, 2006

Fri, 11 Aug 2006 20:44:43 GMT

Well lets see, its been like forever since i last wrote in here!!!

Summer has been great, work...boyfriend......work, and boyfriend. Now that im not a cheerleader it seems my summer time is more open. I miss it like hell but there is an up side to it like having time for my boyfriend and making money. Well i guess this entry is going to be about cheerleading. I went to regionals and for some reason i was just hopping they didnt make it to state cause then i wouldnt be missing out. But it turns out they did good and they are going to state. I was a little sad but now i get to go cheer Tina, Amanda, and Angela at state. Well i guess this is enough sobby stuff for me.

Wednesday, February 22, 2006

Wed, 22 Feb 2006 20:26:52 GMT

Wow, only one word can tell what this week has been like...Sadness!!

It hit me hard all of a sudden. She helped make me the person i am today. She always put people before herself just like me. It will be hard to over come and come to understand my grandma is not coming back. When i was little she would seat there and listen to me sing and dance infront of her to Titantic and Spice Girls. She would never get old of it. Its hard losing someone that meant the world to you. Now whos going to be the peace maker of our family?

Ruth Elsie Beach

March 24, 1927-Febuary 17, 2006

God look around his garden

And he found an empty place

He then looked down upon this earth,

And saw your tired face.

He put his arms around you

And lifted you to rest.

God's garden must be beautiful.

He always takes the best.

He knew that you were suffering,

He knew you were in pain.

He knew that you would never

Get well on earth again.

He saw the road was getting rough

And the hills were hard to climb.

So he closed your weary eyelids,

And whispered "Peace be thine."

It broke our hearts to lose you

But you didn't go alone,

For part of us went with you

The day God called you home.

Monday, February 06, 2006

Mon, 06 Feb 2006 19:37:03 GMT

I've come to the conclusion that there is no one out there like you. No one as crazy. No one as hard. But at the same time, there is no one who is loving and caring and would do anything for his girl. I've also come to the conclusion that there is no other girl that is crazier than me. Who is stubborn and won't let anyone get in her way. But at the same time, she's a good listener and cares about him and his past, and most importantly, cares where he's gonna go. There's no one else like her. She's obviously perfect for him. <3

Morgan is just to perfect for me....been waiting for this forever!!

Sunday, February 05, 2006

Sun, 05 Feb 2006 18:44:29 GMT

i`m the kind of girl
who`s constantly making mistakes
& having them shoved in my face

oh yes, the past can hurt, but the way i see it,
you can either run from it, or learn from it.
--The Lion King.

i don`t care about your past, All i wanna know is if there`s
a place for me in your future.
* Sweet Home Alabama

i am the author of my life.
unfortunatly, i am writing in pen
&& i can`t erase my mistakes.

Can't you tell im having a shitty day....why can't i just got a week without fucking up?

Friday, January 27, 2006

Fri, 27 Jan 2006 03:41:28 GMT

so it its deffently weird....For warrning you i might mis spell alot because im really drunk. But omg this guy Morgan treats me like a princess. He is is very thing i ever wished and dreamed for. He is the best and for some reason in know he wont lie to me. it is the weirdest shit...haha..so it is 10:30 at night at im the happest girl alive.

Drunk Fucked Up Heather

Wednesday, January 11, 2006

Wed, 11 Jan 2006 20:44:59 GMT

i wish i was a white crayon
so no one would use me *

So im feeling that this entry is going to be very random so here it goes.....

*I miss my old friends sometimes, but hey what can you do things change and people change.

*Almost over Dustin (VERY BIG thing)

*Met a guy that i work with Morgan. He is soo awesome! We are going to the Plaza this Friday..yah!!!!

*Been hanging out with Jessie and Chelsea (those are my hoes..lol)

* Hate people that blame everything on me cuz they think its better to blame me then other. Im getting sick of it, if you hate me soo much and say you want to be beat my ass then just do it. Its gettin pretty old. I have better things to do then talk about you and listen to you bitch. Do you honestly think i would waste my whole time on break trying to figure shit out about you and then tell everyone! Reality check- not everything is about you!

*Don't have a date for Sweetheart, guess im not going

Well that is enough..bye

Saturday, December 31, 2005

Sat, 31 Dec 2005 00:21:06 GMT

Ok so everyone wish me luck.

Im going to hang out with Blaine and Kenton. They are friends of Dustin's, hope i dont have to see Dustin and him girlfriend. That would not be good. But hopefully i get really fucked up. Well talk later, Heather

Tuesday, December 27, 2005

Tue, 27 Dec 2005 22:40:23 GMT

My birthday is tomorrow..everyone call me and wish me happy birthday 509*5879

Friday, December 23, 2005

Fri, 23 Dec 2005 20:49:38 GMT

Don't judge me based upon how I used to be. I've changed.

Sorry Hun. But Unlike You, I'm Not
A Doorknob Where Everyone Gets
A Turn. I'm More Of A Casino , Where
Only The Lucky Ones Win The J-a-c-k-p-o-t.

shes scared. scared to lose him.
shes scared she'll do something
wrong to make him want to leave.
shes scared that he'll find someone
else so much better then her. shes
scared because she finally realized
how much he means to her.

but when I look in the mirror
I see giirl a whose been through so much
and yet, still finds a way to smile at the past.
She still loves with all her heart
or whats left of it..
& when you see her walk down the hall
I can gaurantee you she'll have her head up high
faking a smile just one last time..
at all those who try & break her
but never will.

Wednesday, December 21, 2005

Wed, 21 Dec 2005 14:24:35 GMT

Its so weird how you can be mean to someone one minute and then the next they are gone.

I will be missing you Cory Bates

8 days till my b-day!!! What is everyone gettin me!!!