Wow...The last....I guess month.... has really been a blur. I've been really busy and I haven't talked to a lot of people in a long time. I guess I'm happy... I can't really remember. This is getting ridiculous, I think I should stop drowning my sorrows in vodka.....Maybe not.

In other news...I found a new hobby. Aside from drawing I attempt to skateboard sometimes. I was trying an ollie and I fell on something and hurt my leg. Owwwwiiee!

No HFS for me. I'm too busy using my tiny brain to make all the wrong decisions I can. I always end up screwing myself into the ground. Like last week I actually got caught stealing. It sucked. It's actually a funny story though because the guy who caught me was mean so I was a real smart ass. I told him he needed a serious daily dosage of aderol. Then I asked him if he was married. Then I told him if he doesn't get the key to the handcuffs out right now I am going to rip them out of his crusty old jeans. Theres more stuff I said but it's a lot to type. He just called me a dumbass the whole time. Now I owe them lots of money! Wee!

*final thought*I miss you guys...You know who you are.

how bout getting off these antibiotics
how bout stopping eating when I'm full up
how bout them transparent dangling carrots
how bout that ever elusive kudo

thank you india
thank you terror
thank you disillusionment
thank you frailty
thank you consequence
thank you thank you silence

how bout me not blaming you for everything
how bout me enjoying the moment for once
how bout how good it feels to finally forgive you
how bout grieving it all one at a time

thank you india
thank you terror
thank you disillusionment
thank you frailty
thank you consequence
thank you thank you silence

the moment I let go of it was the moment
I got more than I could handle
the moment I jumped off of it
was the moment I touched down

how bout no longer being masochistic
how bout remembering your divinity
how bout unabashedly bawling your eyes out
how bout not equating death with stopping

thank you india
thank you providence
thank you disillusionment
thank you nothingness
thank you clarity
thank you thank you silence

..... I have been thiking about a lot of things lately. Some make me sad and others make me happy.... but regaurdless I think this world is so fucked up. Ifeels very out of place at the moment...like I don't know where I belong. I'm just confused.

Today was fun...I went car shopping with the madre and got to test drive a mustang...I loved it. Navy blue with a silver stripe...It was very hot.

I finally got a web cam and took some new pics. They're posted on my dilly. Yay!

I want to thank Ariane for fixing up my Xanga...I love it!

Well I don't have to much to say...except for I am in MAJOR need of about 5 or 6 medications....