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| False alarm number #2Oh boy oh boy am I sure pregnant!! I have never been prego in the summer before so this is a bit challenging. In fact this whole pregnancy has been so dramatic. On Monday I went in for routine check up , and I am swelling like a balloon. They hook me up for routine monitor and yep there it is contractions. Only at 33 weeks. I really think they have my due date off , because with my other pregnancies I started having false labor at 36 weeks, not 33 three. Any way they check me and nothing is rocking in rolling so they send me home . Then last night hit . Around 2:30 in the morning I wake up feeling a bit sick to my stomach check my sugar. My lower back and tummy cramp all the way up to 4 in the morning. I wake John to go and get me a glass of water , and he was up in a second. Funny ,,,, whenever Lizzie or Rachel have nightmare or need that extra bit of water in the night , he sleeps through it ,,, but maybe labor he was up like it was Christmas. I tell him to go back to sleep and we will just wait and see , if my water breaks or they continue into the day then we know . I prayed to the Lord for his will. A baby born now has a 95 percent chance of survival and there are no worries except a tiny baby which is really not that tiny . She is almost 6 lbs now and real due date is 5 weeks away . Looks like we've got another 11lbdr on the way ! Needless to say , after tossing and turning , around 5 am I fell asleep and woke up feeling fine. Just another false alarm. My first false alarm was at 25 weeks , so lets just see . This whole year , the Lord has really taken me on a Journey. I prayed so hard for Sarah which is the definite name now. I remember one time sitting on the bed about 4 years ago , wailing out to God to provide a way for anther child .Now it is finally here. It made me stop and realize how much expectations we put on him . I pray to him for so many things, especially in a trial . When I don;t always get the answer I want, it makes me feel sadden, but sometimes I forget to look at the blessings he has given me . This baby is a gift, and even though this road carrying her is not what I anticipated, I still am having a miracle child. It makes me think all the time how children are a Joy from heaven. I believe here on earth , life is meant to be rocky , tried and hard. But God gives us little windows into heaven to make our stay here more worth it . My children are one of those. So even if my back is hurting and my feet are swollen, and as I type my hands are very numb, I wait with anticipation for the day our gift arrives, and when she does, it will make all of this year , and all of the things we have gone through as a family , worth it. | | |
| FlawedSo a couple of days ago, I posted a not so nice piece about a colleage not telling us about a funeral. I said some really trite things. A lot out of anger , and I hurt some feelings. I regret this deeply. Some times it seems my wit gets the best of me. Especially in moments of personal frustrations. After I posted this , many peple saw the site , and held me accountable for my words. Sometimes , even a Pastor can be flawed. I am still just trying to figure it all out . | | |
| Back So , I am back from a long week at the hospital ... my sugars about a monday ago spiked up into the 200-300 and we just could not get them down. I had to stay at the hospital for a week with nurses checking me every two hours and making med changes. Finally they were down by Rachel's Birthday . Rachel now is 8! I can not believe it! It still seems like yesterday she was a little butterball turkey resting in my arms. I took out some pics and saw how young I was when I had her. I think I was 22 ! Most women these days are not even thinking about marriage at this age let alone having children. The whole mother thing came so natural to me though. I couldn't;t do the breast feeding , but I took to Motherhood like a fish in water. Over the last few years Rachel has made us laugh incredibly ! She is our Joy. She finds humor in all things and has a wit I have no idea where it came from. It amazes me how a child could come up with some of the things she does. Most of her moments are usually innocent , but sometimes her humor is well thought out and are at just the most impropriate of times. ! Here are some of the great Rachel moments this year .. Mom ,,,, My nuts hurt! ( This one might be the greatest of all time ) Mom I know what kind of breed my bunny is ( her stuffed toy she has had since 2 and her BFF) , He is a FierceMeerkatRabbidDog . I know what the Baseball pledge is ,,, OH Say Can you SEE Rachel took the camera one day and went around and took pictures of litter everywhere and was going to send it to "The Officials of No more litter ever" We have a roll of pics of only trash . She means to send it . "Dear God thank you for this food, and I pray for all the smokers ,that they will not choke and die" (Prayer at dinner table . ) "I know how much toilet paper Dad uses .. he uses a whole roll" "Especially when it's a number 2 " "Grandma , I know Chinese people chop off Duck heads at the dinner table" " Abort , Abort exit the vehicle on left now " ( When in the car pool line while Mommy was experiencing morning sickness' "My Ears are hurting I think it is hormones" And the list could go on and on. Happy Birthday to my little Rachel Ray ! 
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After Daddy has left to go fishing Lizzie says " That's his thing" I say " Yeah that's his thing" Lizzie then says " I wonder what my thing is , I don't know". I say " Well when you get older you will probably have figured it out" . Lizzie say's " Yeah cz when you are older you have a bigger brain, cz you have a bigger head. When you are little you have a little head so you must have a little brain" !  Thought I would give a brief update. It has been a while since I have updated. Things seem to be good. We took out teens to a youth retreat last weekend . It was amazing. My prayer for all of our young peeps this year has been that they will learn they can do something or have them experience Christ on a new level , one where it isn't;t just all about them , it is about doing something for him. Well the weekend proved to be on the same level as my prayer as all weekend the youth of our division were challenge to Dance on Injustice. I knew the weekend had some good outcomes with one of our dudes coming to know Christ, and the other girls realizing Christ is more than how great he makes you feel , but that we have to fight for his cause. It was a great time. We had a small group this year , but sometimes a strength can be found in smaller numbers. Today in church the girls gave a very moving presentation. It was a breakthrough ! I think it fired up my husband , cause in his sermon today he laid it out to the whole church about how it is time for us to not sit around and stand against all injustice even in our community. In fact after he was done preaching , He grabbed the Army flag and waved it around and called all of the congregation to stand up and march around the church waving it to show the Lord we were all going to fight the battle for him! Now for those of you who know John, this is really truly way out of his comfort zone. He usually is quiet and humble when he brings the message. He pulled and Erin , up there today. I think William Booth would be proud! In other news.. I am now 30 weeks prego ! My sugars are starting to mellow significantly since the Doc has put me on Maternity leave well, light duty anyway. I don;t think I truly could ever just sit still and not be involved in our ministry, yet I have scaled back a lot and delegated out a lot of my Corps responsibilities to some very capable soliders,.... Thanks Dee, Theresa , Libby , and the rest you know who you are. Sometimes we as officers forget that we are not the only ones , whom can do things. This year has taught me a lot on this ,with my procedure ,and the baby. The Docs just want to get me to 36 weeks, of course they really want me to go for 39weeks, but at this point I am in Akron 2 days a week now. It is ok . We knew it would be a rough go , with having this miracle child, but all of the stress and Drama , leads to a beautiful story . One I will share with the world when she arrives! Kids have only 5 more weeks of school left, then the summer . Then we say hello to Julia .. . It think that is the name , still not sure . We will see what she looks like. So now I am off to rest more and watch a Princess movies with my little Princess's Oh yeah and the Namesake was ok ......  | | |
| Lizzie Lizzie decided to have a pet slug. This was a couple of weeks ago. She put it in a gladware and left it out in the sun all day . When she came home to see him, he was toast. This didn;t really bother her to much . She said " Oh well , he is in slug heaven. " She then asked me , "Mom what do you think slugs do in slug heaven" Rachel "I know, the say " WErrrrrr gooooinggg tooooo seeeee JEESSSUUS " Real slowly " We were cracking up . Lizzie "Mom I know how the baby eats , through the Ungillelacle Cord! " This weekend we are taken our youth from church to a youth conference. It should be good , I am looking forward to some time of fellowship. The meetings are usually a huge blessing for me , seeing all of God's future worship and live for him. I have taken Early Maternity leave. This has been extremely hard for me to do , but ,, I have been to the Hospital almost twice now with false labor and the Doctors demanded I take some time to relax. I have about only 12 more weeks to go, wich seems so far away but yet so close. The real issue is not my diabetese during the morning. I have a distinct form of Type 1 Diabetese called Dawn Phenomon. Somewhere between the hours of 4 to 7 in the morning , my body produces it's own sugar causing it to begin to rise until I am awake. To make a long story short, the sugars are too high in the morning for baby so if they do not begin to level out through medicines I might have to stay in hospital for a few days where they can monitor me . We shall see, the doctors gave me some more med changes and tommorrow I will go and see what they suggest . I hope I will be well enough for the weekend. So we do the whole netflick thing and the next movie in our Q is the Namesake . I am looking forward to it . | | |
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