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Friday, July 07, 2006

Fri, 07 Jul 2006 02:23:34 GMT

You guys can still comment me. And I will comment you back on here. But I am not going to blog on this anymore. TTYL. Bye!!!!!!!!

~*! Hi-D !*~

Monday, June 26, 2006

Mon, 26 Jun 2006 20:30:47 GMT

Hello everyone! I am tired of xanga. I never get any comments and there is no point in it. I have no time with work, youth group, and a lot of other stuff. Well I will talk to everyone later, BYE!

Tuesday, June 13, 2006

Tue, 13 Jun 2006 03:28:16 GMT

GREAT! I get home from a long week of working, and what happens?!?!!!!? I HAVE TO WORK SOME MORE!!!!!!!! Give me a break, I am only 13.

OMG! Have you ever had a dream that seemed so real that when you wake up you are in shock, trembling, cant speak, crying, and cant move? And even when you realize that it was only a bad dream, you are still in shock and crying? Well that just happened to me. My parents always go on roadtrips, even if their destination is only about 2-3 hours away, I still call them roadtrips. Well...

     I dreamed that they went on a roadtrip for vacation, just the two of them. They promised to call every day while they were gone. A few days passed and we hadn't heard from them. My mom always keeps her promises. After repeatedly calling both of their cells, we heard on the news that a couple had been driving on an offramp, heading toward the highway. When they got to the highway, everything was fine, that was until a drunk driver ran head-on into them, killing both of them and totalling their white mini-van. The victums names were Julie Ann P., and Jeffrey Charles P.
     I was scared! I was balling, and I just didn't know what to do. I knew that the only way I was going to be able to keep the computers, TVs, phones, my cell phone, but most importantly, how was I going to pay for college? And how was I going to pay all of the bills? All of my siblings lived on their own, and the rest of my family was dead. I knew my sibling didn't want me to live with them, or at least I didn't want to live with them. So I came to the conclusion that I was just going to have to mature into an adult, an dtake over the business my mother and step-father left me. The business made a lot of money, but that was when they were running it. Would the business still go well, even with me working it? I would have to hope and pray.
     Then.. I went into my mom's old room just to take a look around at what was not with me anymore. As I stepped into the doorway, my mother was standing there, writing down a will, and looking at her room, and at me. I started balling when I saw her sitting there. She said, "Stay strong, Heidi. I am leaving the business with you, along with some co-workers to help. I have made it so that no matter what, they can never get too powerful to take over the business and leave you stranded. I am splitting my fine china and Carnival Glass with you and your sister. The house is yours, along with the sunfire, and the BMW. I have set aside enough money for you to go to the finest college in the U.S. and I want to spend the money I am leaving you wisely. I am paying off my mother's, Chad's, Liza's, Brad's, and my sister's bills off, including their cars, houses, and whatever else. But I left you the most because you are the youngest, and still have to make it in this world, and you are still young. So I have hired you a special accountant, along with a team of people that will hepl run your money so that they can't rob you."
     Then she said, "I love you, Heidi. Please stay in touch. And heaven is great! Jesus is more than what I expected Him to be! And I just know that you will love it. I love you, and don't get depressed, I am always here for you. I would love to chat, but the angels are saying that my time has come, Good-Bye."

Then I woke up, and I thought that that dream was real, and when I realized it wasn't, I was releaved. And it made me just want to go see if my parents were in their bedrooms sleeping. They were. And now I am finished typing this.

OKAY EVERYONE! MY MOM SAYS I AM ON MY COMPUTER TOO MUCH. I WILL CHECK BOTH OF MY SITES AND EMAILS AND STUFF LIKE THAT EVERYOTHER DAY (at the most). BUT I WANT EVERYONE TO CALL ME! CALL MY CELL OR MY HOME PHONE!!!! IF YOU CANT GET AHOLD OF ME ON MY HOME PHONE, CALL MY CELL!!!!!!! THANK YOU EVERYONE, BYE!!!!

AND WHEN I GET BACK, I EXPECT A LOT OF COMMENTS!!!!!!!!!!!! (at least 300!)

Leave lots of comments for the ones who work hard, never rest, never get to just sit down, and never get any sleep!!!!! And I expect more than 7 comments! Otherwise I am shutting my site down! I expect at least 150 that dont all say the same thing either!

Saturday, June 03, 2006

Sat, 03 Jun 2006 05:24:35 GMT

Hey everyone!!! I know I haven't updated in a LONG time! But trust me, I know people who don't update for like... YEARS! lol. Well I just wanna say that I am going to miss seeing all of your faces every day at school! I will miss all the good times we have spent together, and all the bad, all the sad, and all the mad. So keep in touch this summer, or else I will be heart-broken, once again!

Well there goes the jerk that helped create me breaking my heart again. All I want is to have a father to be there, to give me hugs & kisses, to be shoulder to cry on, to play catch with, I just need a father. I know that God is a father, to the fatherless, but lately that hasn't changed my mind. I guess I get a bit too personal on here sometimes, but I have to express how I fell somehow. How else am I supposed to let my feelings out without exploding into tears? Well if you could, just please pray for me, THANKS, BYE!!!!!!!!!

p.s. I want at least 50 comments before I update again!

Thursday, May 18, 2006

Thu, 18 May 2006 22:08:42 GMT

Most of you know that I am going on a missions trip this summer to the Dominican Republic. The trip costs $1,350 and we are to bring $100 spending money. This willl take awhile to raise. I am only 13 years old so I can't get a real job. My mother is allowing me help sell puppies for her, and for every puppy I sell, I get $50. These puppies are sooo cute! You wouldn't even imagine! I have another xanga site but it has puppies on it that are for sell. So if you are looing for a puppy or you know somebody that is looking for a puppy, please go to http://www.xanga.com/phippyspuppies we have many many cute puppies that are for sell. Please support me so that I may be a blessing to those I run into there, and along the way to the Dominican Republic. Please check this site out, I know you will just fall in love with these puppies just by looking at their pictures!!We are going to have many fundraisers to try and raise money and since I am not very old I can't help with all of them. Thank you for your time!

Saturday, May 13, 2006

Sat, 13 May 2006 00:52:28 GMT

I found another icon I like! Here it is:

It is soo true! Well leave lots of comments!!!

EVERBODY!!!

MAY I PLEASE

HAVE YOUR

ATTENTION?

EVERYONE,

LEAVE LOTS

OF COMMENTS!!

I LOVE ALL

WHO LEAVE

COMMENTS!!!!

Thanks!

BYEZZZ!!!!!! All

who comment

me, I will be

sure to

comment back!

Okay! What Patrick did on his site sounded and looked really cool so I thought I might do the same! Here it goes:
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Jodi: Great friend, encourager, redeemer, forgiver, and like a mother

Shane: Awesome friend, christian, like a father, and so much more. Thanks for bringing me to the Lord Shane! I love you!!!

Jaime: Encourager, friend, makes me laugh, easy to talk to, always there for me!

Sam: I can tell Sam anything and all she does is help me get through things! Stay strong on your walk with the Lord Sam!

Steff: Awesome because she follows the Lord with her whole life! And even though I pick on her sometimes she still loves me.

Sarah: I love this little girl soo much! She is Jaime's little sister! And I just love her to death!

Shayna: My hero! Even though I hadn't talked to her for years and I was afraid she would have changed in a horribl eway, but when I saw her for the first time, she had changed into just what I had. So thank you for not going the ways of the world Shayz, I love you!!!!!!

Dakotah: You are awesome! And no matter what I will love you like a brother!!!

Morgen: Thank you for following the Lord!!!! I love you like a sista gurly!!!!!!!!

Jennifer: Even though we have not stayed the closest friends all the time, or when we get in fights, you are ALWAYS there!!!!!!!!! Thank you Jen, I luv u!!!!!

Marisa: We didn't talk much at the beginning of the year, but now we are like the best of friends!! I love you!!!!!

Tara: We got off at a rocky start at the beginning of the year, and ever since the day we ran into eachother at the mall we have been like.. SO CLOSE!!!!! Tara is MY gurl!

Chriscenda: Makes me laugh, and is a great friend!

Jacie: Crazy girl but I love her to death, plus she makes me laugh.

Aaryn: Quiet, smart, and too quiet.

Ally: Ally, are there any words to describe this girl? lol. I love her so much! I would trade her for my sister any day!

Liz: This girl, she is just straight up CRAZY!!! She is soo hyper, but she makes me laugh and I love her.

Levi: Levi, you're a trip, but if somebody isn't already making me laugh, you do.

Patrick: We don't talk much but you're pretty cool and I hope to get to know you more!

Carsen: Carsen is just plain stupid! lol. jk. But seriously... he does have his blonde moments.

Kody: Kody is always making me laugh, and we kicked off as great friends just like that! and you're like a brother to me, and if you ever moved I would be so sad! You are a great friend and no matter how many people ask us if we're going out or if you like me or if I like you, we will always be the best of buds! Thanks for helping me in Math class, and I am sorry about your friends moving away! But don't worry because you have many people here that love you just the same! Don't be sad, get GLAD!!!! lol.

Monday, May 08, 2006

Mon, 08 May 2006 21:16:12 GMT

Believe it or not? These ALL describe me in some way!

People who don't know me
think I'm quiet; people that
do know me, wish I was.

Girls
are like apples
on trees. The best ones
are at the top of the tree.
The boys dont want to reach
for the good ones because they
are afraid of falling and getting hurt.
Instead, they just get the rotten apples
from the ground that aren't as good
but easy. So the apples at the top, think
something is wrong with them, when in
reality, they're amazing. They just
have to wait for the right boy to
come along, the one who's
brave enough to
climb all
the way
to the top
of the tree.

¢¾HeartBroken Once Again¢¾

I was heartbroken now I'm dying.
I don't know what to do,
all I know is that I want to be with you.
You've meant an ocean to me,
that ocean is becoming a landfill, filled
with laughs, meaningly talks, great times,
and only the memories that let me
remember what you look like, it is
becoming a landfill for in no time at all,
the one who made it rain shall be leaving,
and no one can take her place.

How you've helped me,
how I'll miss you,
how I'll miss your beautiful face.

This sinful life I lead here in this dark world
won't be the same without you.
Your smile always seemed to lighten
the darkened room.

In case I don't see you again before you and I die,
stay strong on your walk with the Lord.

Jaime,
I love you.

~*! Hi-D !*~

Sunday, May 07, 2006

Sun, 07 May 2006 20:23:09 GMT

my mom wouldnt let me go to the volley ball game firday. it stunk!!! i really wanted to go! she wouldnt let me go because it was outside and i still had a bit of the flu. well.. anyways.. ally spent the night that night. and saturday (yesterday) we went to the mall and we ran into marissa minton and kara, and so then we went to debs (all four of us) and tried on like... 100 DRESSES!!!!!!!!! omg, it was soo fun! well we picked out a whole bunch of REALLY cute dresses, then we started trying them on and on the count of three we would all come out of our dressing rooms and show eachother what we looked like and everything, and then we went back in to try on some more and when we came back out with a different dress on, there were a whole bunch of guys and girls, and peoples outside our dressing rooms starring at us! it was soo fun, (and funny!) well i have to go, i'll talk to you at school tomorrow!

~*! Hi-D !*~

Friday, May 05, 2006

Fri, 05 May 2006 21:59:38 GMT

Check Out my MySpace!!!!!!!! Click On Me!!!!! Also, leave me comments, kudos, become my friend, email me, and just chat with me! Well, lately, I have gotten a bit better with the father situation. It still hurts when I hear the word or when that day flashes before my eyes, and the agony starts all over again. I don't cry every night anymore, and my friends have tried to help me and has helped a little. So I want to give a shout-out to all of my wonderful friends that have and still are helping me get through this. Well thats all for now! And my schedule is surprisingly empty this weekend! lol.

Shout-Outs:

Requested: *
Call Me: #
Rhiannan#- Best Cousin Ever!!!!
Jaime#- an awesome encourager
Sam#- Always there for me, and I can trust here with anything
Steff#- Encourager and Friend
Shayna#- Bestest Friend EVA!!!!!!
Ally- Gives Hugs Without Being asked To and Magically Makes You Happy Again
Trinity- Great Friend
Levi- Tizwhite Bud (lol. jk.)
Chriscenda#- Always sticks up for me and is a great friend
Jacee#- Makes me laugh
Patrick*- Amazing Bud (wasn't requested, was forgotten by a forgetful person, lol.)
Bryson*- An Old Friend From A Long Time Ago
Rylee#- Friend and Goof
Chelsey#- Great Listener and Friend
Iesha#- Hyper Friend
Brian#- Yes It Is
Kody#- Best Friend, Like a Brother
Carsen- Makes me laugh, crazy, friend
Liz#- Hyper Midget
Marissa- Old Bud
Tara#- Budd and MY Gurl!!!
Marissa#- My other gurl
Savannah#- 2nd Best Cousin Ever!!!!!!
J.C.#- Great Friend and Good Listener
Dakotah S.#- Rootbeer Budd
Morgan#- Great Christian Friend

And EVERYONE has to spend time with me this Summer!!!!

Otherwise I will have to hunt you down! lol. not joking.

Ok I am pretty sure that I got everyone but if I forgot you then just tell me and I'll update it and put you on the shout-out list.

BYEZZZ!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Wednesday, May 03, 2006

Wed, 03 May 2006 00:35:39 GMT

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Translated as:
Hey everybody!!! My life lately has been alright I guess. Today in gym I beat the girls record!! We had to take the pacer, and the record was 74 for the girls, but today that has all changed! I almost fainted like 2-4 times, and I had to stay in the nurse's office, which was alright, considering I didn't have to go to pretty much all of 3rd hour! As you can tell by the entry above, my life has all been just been one big mess with pieces of the puzzle missing, this a way of me telling you, that there are holes in my heart, where people have lied to me, hurt me, stabbed me in my heart and left me there to suffer on my own. And now, I am here hurting, and no matter what, I will always be skared by the wounds. I act like I'm fine and have gotten over it, but deep down inside I am hurt and bleeding, and I have great pain and sorrow. I am gradually getting over it, but it is taking longer than I could have ever imagined.

I just have to remember that Jesus Loves me (and you) As well as many other people in my life do adn not get too upset about it!!!