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Interests: "Your gonna waste you time,your life will soon be mine,You're definitley one of a kind, and You're suffering 'cause of me, it's divine." -Korn "Would like to seacrh inside for all the things that you will hide What's the problem? Can't You seem to seacrh through the problems that haunt &taunt you I smile, while your afraid You run,while you're so in pain."-Korn
Expertise: "Im the Pariah(Break me) I am the liar(Save me) I can take anything(Make me) Accuse me of everything(Kill me) Cut off the System(Shape me) Deny my existance(Waste me) I won't be afraid(try me) I wont be unmade(Deny me)." -Slipknot


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Sunday, October 24, 2004

NEW XANGA- im_angry_for_today

haha took me a while to put this up...ok bye.


Saturday, September 11, 2004

ok so today is sept.11.....3rd anniversary...i remember everything like it was yesterday....

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i cant tell u how much i love this country...i was watching this movie on remembering sept.11 ive been watching it every year...i cried the whole time...its so sad...none of the families and the people deserved this....i will never forget that day...i just remember going into my room after the south tower collapsed and praying for all the ppl that died and the families and the firefighters,police people...ambulances and everyone that was helping out. then i prayed there would be no more attacks i was scared for my life 2 i didnt know if anything esle with be stuck by a plane...i swear its so sad hearing people talk about someone they lost...it just makes me break down and cry...

 

 
 
 
 
 
 

firemen Image this had to be complete chaos i cant even image what was going through everyones heads during the attacks and after.

ash Image

 

The memorial has grown so big that the cement near the street is slick from 
candlewax. It

the messages of unity, peace and community are even stronger than in tompkins sq.

 

It was overwhelming. The whole thing was still unreal.

 

 . . . .

this letter was the first private message I saw, and the first thing to make me cry all day.

pictures like that just break my heart.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

International Pledge

Pledge of Allegiance

 

 

that makes me wanna fucking cry...

 

 

 

 

see photo caption

 

This Day

and These

People...

9-11-01

 

 

The World Trade Center

The Pentagon

American Airlines Flt 11

United Airlines Flt 175

United Airlines Flt 93

New York City Fire Department

Port Authority Police Department

New York City Police Department

 

For anyone experiencing a personal loss;

this day will never be far

from our thoughts and memories.

This is to honor the brave, gifted and precious

lives that were lost.

Click here!

http://www.werismyki.com/main/images.html

got some of these images from there...just dont wanna be sued for stupid shit.


Saturday, September 04, 2004

well hmm let me see here...im in nj right now...lets see what ahppend this week...well on monday i had school u all know that...lets skip to thursday...me n jess stayed after school with christina then christina went home nad me n jess went to my house and then we went to jess' house...and sean was there...ahah in herbedroom...hahahha it was soo funny..but anyway i stayed for 2 hours...and then my mom called saying that my aunt colleen was there to see me...so i weny home and she took me out to eat...we talked about alot of stuff...it was like a threapy session...i loved it...then i got home called jess and then i slept over her house...she got in like 5 fights when i was over.,..one weith sean cuz he wouldnt tell her if he liked her or not...then becca of course...then tricia...and then i dont member....but its fucked up man...FoamyCardCult566: can we talk here then?
NoSeatBelt49: yeah sure
FoamyCardCult566: i dont know where all of this iscomingfrom...but if u dont want tomy friend nomore...then just tell me cuz i dont want to fight it if ur minds made up
NoSeatBelt49: im really sorry i have to get ready....il ttyl
FoamyCardCult566: bye
NoSeatBelt49 signed off at 6:57:58 PM.

i called tricia...and ask her why shes not iming me and she goes i dont know i have to think about our friendship and stuff. and then i go wait u dont want to be friends with me no more...and she goesi dont know...i dont member everything she said but i asked her if she got this from becca and she said no but i find that very hard 2 believe...like im losing two best friends...in a very short amount of time...gos it hurts so much...i dotn think ppl realize it though...like tricia when i asked u on monday if u were gonna do what becca did to me u said no....and u said u we were gonna be friends so why now are u changing ur mind...ahh and on top of that im supossed to be getting a "phone call" from beccas mom...saying that if we dotn stop tlaking to becca shes gonna call the police...and becca has the fuckin nerve to sit there and call me dramatic...pppl if u dont believe me u dont have 2 but ive been about 24 clean...and these 2 ppl dont believe me and they r gonna act like im still doing it anf thats a good reasont od ump me...argggggggggg ppl are so full of shit.....

|"The stress is rising and I can't seem to get away from you
You're always trying and the lying always shines right thru
My God I hate this
Always take shit
Can I let this go on?
Why can't I break this
I just take this
As this goes on and on."

"Feeling so lost and betrayed
why does this happen to me everytime
Stuck in this place, where I can't escape
Screaming and clawing from deep inside."

"I can't stand to let you win.
I'm just watching you.
And I don't know what to do.
Feeling like a fool inside.
Feeling all the hurt you hide.
Thought you were my friend.
Seems it never ends.
I need somebody someone.
Can't somebody help me.
All I need is to be.
Loved just for me.

Giving you this and that.
Giving gave nothing back.
It's all related to.
All the things I do.
Feeling like a fool inside.
Seeing all the things you tried.
I am nothing.

I look I sign.
I need someone.
Inside to help me out.
With what I'm trying.
I'm crying, I'm frying.
In a pile of shit.
I'm dying.
I'm dying.
I'm dying."

"Pounding, it starts again
Hurting, oh where do I begin?
Screaming, they dance around my head
Hoping, they'll maybe end up dead

Feeling it grab hold, what can I say?
Really fucked up again (I gotta do this right)
I can't fucking given in (I feel that I can fight)
Can't I ever win (I'll keep it on my mind)
Here it comes again!

Silent it goes away
Patient, oh really should I stay?
Trying so hard to get ahead
Failure, is often where I'm lead."

"What really do I have to follow?
Nothing makes sense at all.
Taking something for nothing
Watch me as I fall."

iguess u can say this is how i feel. bye. no actually it is


Wednesday, September 01, 2004

looktwice 82 K: kelly get me the fuck out of ur profile i

dont care how u feel i am not a part of ur life JUST LET

ME GO

looktwice 82 K: we will NEVER be friends again MOVE THE

FUCK ON

FoamyCardCult566: ill FUCKIN OUT U IN MY GODDAMN

PROFIEL IF I FUCKIN WANT 2...IM NOT GONNA LET

U LHURT ME LIKE THIS AND GET AWAY WITH IT...I

DOTN CARE...I CAN DO WHATEVER THE FUCK I

FUCKIN WANT...

FoamyCardCult566: put*

looktwice 82 K: what r u gonna do about it kelly?

looktwice 82 K: HUH??? I SAID WHAT THE FUCK ARE U

GONNA DO?

looktwice 82 K: CRY TO UR XANGA

looktwice 82 K: I DO NOT FEEL GUILTY NO MATTER

WHAT U SAY

FoamyCardCult566: oh god...yeah thats what im gonna

do...im not gonna do jack shit...becca because im gonna

say it im a better person....u not as strong as u think u

are...im tired of u fuckin saying shit on me and me not

being able 2 say bk cuz u get hurt BUT WHAT THE FUCK

ABOUT ME

FoamyCardCult566: WHAT MADE U FUCKIN HATE ME

SO FUCKIN MUCH

looktwice 82 K: i dont give a fuck about u

looktwice 82 K: because ur a bitch kelly

FoamyCardCult566: beside the comment cuz i know thats

not all of it

looktwice 82 K: a little drama queen

FoamyCardCult566: oh yeah...and what thwe fuck do u

think u r...

FoamyCardCult566: u started this shit

looktwice 82 K: uve always been an attention seeker and a

drama queen

looktwice 82 K: i tried to do it quietly

looktwice 82 K: but u guys wanted the drama

looktwice 82 K: heres ur fucking drama kelly

looktwice 82 K: does it feel as good as it always does?

FoamyCardCult566: I DOTN WNAT THIS...U WERE THE

ONE WHO WAS ALWAYS THE CENTER OF ATTENTION

looktwice 82 K: heres ur excuse to go smoke or cut or

whatever u do, so u can blame it on me

looktwice 82 K: but u were the one who always craved it

FoamyCardCult566: i dont do it anymore...and u cant make

me do it im stronger than that.....

looktwice 82 K: im not trying to make u do it

looktwice 82 K: i dont give a shit what u do to urself

looktwice 82 K: im not like jess womer to tell someone to

kill themselves

FoamyCardCult566: and im not like u and treat ur used 2

be friends like shit..and u never answered the question

stop avoiding it...why do u hate me

looktwice 82 K: BECAUSE UR A LITTLE ATTENTION

SEEKING BITCH

looktwice 82 K: i did not hate u until u left me those

comments

looktwice 82 K: i tolerated u

looktwice 82 K: u pushed me to hatred kelly

looktwice 82 K: u wanted me to hate u cause it gave u

even more attention

FoamyCardCult566: ok becca cuz i was always in the fuckin

attention right...no it was u....u always were talking about

ur shit...u couldnt be anymore wrong...dont act like u no

me becca...i dont need attetnion

looktwice 82 K: well u got it now

looktwice 82 K: everyones eyes are on u

looktwice 82 K: oh really?

looktwice 82 K: then why did u complain when u didnt get

to talk about u?

looktwice 82 K: i never gave a fuck what any of u thought,

thats why i did whatever the fuck i wanted

looktwice 82 K: i can treat u like shit because ur worth

nothing to me

FoamyCardCult566: well lets see im done playing this

fucking game becca we better never see eahc other i dont

let ppkl tlak 2 me like this and get away with it just

remember that the enxt time u see me

looktwice 82 K: r u threatening me? GO AHEAD KELLY

looktwice 82 K: TRY SOMETHING

looktwice 82 K: i garuntee that if u touch me u will not get

away with it

FoamyCardCult566: no that wanst threat

looktwice 82 K: OH IT WAS A PROMISE

looktwice 82 K: i see kelly

looktwice 82 K: u wont make it out if u even try

FoamyCardCult566: see you woundlt be able to handle it so

u would get ur mommy to put a lawsuit on me...becca i

ghave way 2 much angry and iw ould beat u fuckin down

FoamyCardCult566: anger*

looktwice 82 K: whos the one with the family that cares?

the family that calls u all the dark girls and is dying for an

excuse to beat the living shit outa u

looktwice 82 K: im not low enough to even want to touch

scum like u

looktwice 82 K: ur not worth fighting

looktwice 82 K: why try to hurt u when i can get u so

much worse

FoamyCardCult566: like how?

looktwice 82 K: just think about it when ur lying in ur little

bed tonight trying to sleep
looktwice 82 K:
looktwice 82 K signed off at 9:39:49 PM.

but then she goes and puts us in her profile.none of the shit she saif is true...she thinks she knows it all...it sad...u go to a fuckin hospital and comes out thinking she got the whole fuckin world figure out...shes fuckin wrong...ooo and ic ant wait to see her fail again....oo wait i think she already has....she gotten what shes wanted....she wanted me to hate her now i do...will never forgive her for that shit she said to me last night.NEVER....she could go fuck herself for all i care. im done...i should of stopped when she told us....shes changed way to fuckin much...she calls me a drama queen btu look at what she started she imed me...and she calls me a attention seeker but she was ALWAYS In the fuckin attention i didnt care...she described everything about herself...the truth hurts becca get over it like u said..STOP TAKING UR ANGER OUT ON US...cuz i know how hard ur life is...god her mom does everything for her and always wants 2 hangout with her and she treats he r like shit and she did that before she turned into a bitch....but anyway...i know what she was trying to do...trying to break me trying to prove her point right...but i can tell u i DIDNT! Cut last night...i wasnt even gonna give that bitch the fuckin satisfaction....and i can get better all by myself this just proves it...,unlike weak motherfuckers like becca....bye.


Tuesday, August 31, 2004

Everything Ends
You are wrong, fucked, and overrated
I think I'm gonna be sick and it's your fault
This is the end of EVERYTHING
You are the end of EVERYTHING
I haven't slept since I woke up
And found my whole life was a lie, motherfucker
This is the end of EVERYTHING
You are the end of EVERYTHING

Shallow skin, I can paint with pain
I mark the trails on my arms with your disdain
Everyday it's the same - I LOVE, YOU HATE
But I guess I don't care any more...
Fix my problems with the blade
While my eyes turn from blue to gray
God, the worst thing happened to me today
But I guess I don't care anymore...

You are wrong, fucked, and overrated
I think I'm gonna be sick and it's your fault
This is the end of EVERYTHING
You are the end of EVERYTHING
I haven't slept cince I woke up
And found my whole life was a lie, motherfucker
This is the end of EVERYTHING
You are the end of EVERYTHING

My flaws are the only thing left that's pure
Can't really live, can't really endure
Everything I see reminds me of her
God I wish I didn't care anymore
The more I touch, the less I feel
I'm lying to myself that it's not real
Why is everybody making such a big fucking deal?
I'm never gonna care anymore

What the hell am I doing?
Is there anyone left in my life?
What the fuck was I thinking?
Anybody want to tell me I'm fine?
Where the hell am I going?
Do I even need a reason to hide?
I am only betrayed
I am only conditioned to die

-slipknot

 

school started 2 days ago...it wasnt bad i actually liked it...i

got ppl in all my classes except english but i dotn mind and i

have ppl at lunch 2...so im really happy about that....i think

thats the only thing that was stressing me....but i swear some

of the juniors and seniors look like their fuckin like

25....haha....i still havent found my locker...and that fucking

shouldar bag is already givin me shouldar problem...its so

fuckin heavy....i havent cut in 3 weeks 2day whoo hoo for

me...i really wnat 2 get something pierced though...so i dont

cut...haha and i did smoke a cigarette at christinas like the

thursday before school started...regret it yes i do...but im done

with that...ive been taking a lot of shit from ppl and just being

stressed and anxiety...but im proud i havent....its really hard

though...it would be nice to go back but not only do i want to

prove to myself but to others that i can help myself....also im

tired of feeling weak..i know im so much stronger than

this...but i just got caught up in the addiction....but ok....i got

my shoes...i love them....i think i might want a new xanga...but

not sure...well im gonna go. bye.

 

"Despise!
Truth hurts when it's in your face
Are you afraid of it?"

"1, 2, Look out behind you
Bitch, gonna be on all you
Peace suffocates their freedom
This'll better me, a part of me
You were a par and a nag
Thinkin' that you lost, my friend
It doesn't matter what price, you win
Blood, sweat, and bastard-size
Stare into the killer in your eyes!"



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