Monday, February 11, 2008

• Right, I'ma just put allll the quotes I have. No credit to me whatsoever.

   

  Promise me. That's all I want.
  Just a promise that you will never forget me.
  Tell me I changed you somehow
  Let me know I had an impact on your life.
  Promise me that you'll always remember me.
  Losing you was hard enough
  But, I don't want to go on knowing I meant
  Absolutely nothing to you.

  I know I'm made of mistakes, disappointments and failures
  But I promise you
  There is a part of me
  That is actually worth keeping.

  So wear me like a locket around your throat
  I'll weigh you down, I'll watch you choke
  You look so good in blue
  You look so good in blue

  & you're the one who makes me draw;;
  Those stupid little hearts on my paper.

  No matter how much you believe your best friend will never turn their back on you,
  They will.
  No matter how much you believe they will never lie to you,
  They will.
  No matter how much you believe they will never leave you,
  They will.
  Life is full of disappointments and fakes
  Sooner or later you find out that the only person you thought you could trust
  Will turn out to be the person you can never trust again.

  If you look inside my heart
  You'd see how much I really cry
  You'll find hidden secrets, best friends and lies.
  But what you'll see the most of is how hard it is to stay strong
  When nothing is right and everything is wrong.

  Don't tell me that you love me. Prove it.

  Life doesn't hurt
  Until you have time to yourself to think about how things have changed, who you've lost along the way
  And just how much of it is your fault.

  Well she's not bleeding on the ballroom floor just for the attention..

  Let's play truth or dare
  Or just dare
  Because nobody really tells the truth anymore..

  And she hates how she stays up half the night
  Analysing his every word
  Trying to find out if he's fallen for her
  As hard as she's fallen for him.

  Heartbroken and soft spoken.. So go on baby; walk right past me. I'm used to it.

  Runaway train, never coming back
  Wrong way on a one way track.

  Don't give up if you still want to try
  Don't wipe your tears if you still want to cry
  Don't stop asking questions if you still want to know
  And don't say you love him
  If you can't let him go.

  There is nothing more for me to lose..
  My heart is swollen, broken and bruised.

  For him, I'd smile when he's happy
  Kiss him when he's sad...
  Try to be the perfect girl and calm him when he's mad
  Hold his hand to make him strong
  And say he's right when I know he's wrong..

  Teardrops fall from those pretty little eyes
  Kind of hard to move on when you're only told lies..
  She's breaking down, everyone's fading
  It's been so long and she's tired of waiting <\3

  If, when you wake up in the morning
  & the hurting is so great
  You don't want to get out of bed
  & face a world of hate
  If everything in life goes wrong
  & nothing you do seems right
  You just try a little harder
  & soon you'll see the light
  For every person who has put you down
  & filled your life with pain
  You must strive to achieve greatness
  & show them you can win.

  Do you know what it's like to be me?
  To go through something not everyone can see?
  Do you know what it's like to walk in my shoes?
  Please stop judging me simply cause I'm not you.

  I may not be with him, but he's still my world
  He's still the one thing wirth holding onto.
  The true test of love is no matter how long you two go without talking
  He will always find a way back into your heart.
  No matter how hard you try to forget him
  You can't
  It's the little things that mean the most
  But break your heart all the same.
  It's those time when a song comes on
  And immediately you cry
  Missing him
  Wanting him
  Needing him.
  Just wishing he thinks about you
  And he has never forgot the memories you two have means everything.
  Just the small thought of maybe
  Just maybe
  There might be an 'us' gives you the strength
  To hold on that much longer.
  You never realise how much you love something until you lose it
  And you're one of the lucky ones if you get it back <3.

  Tell me what it is I need to do baby
  To be 'good enough' for you.
  I can pin it up
  And shorten my skirt
  And tighten my shirt
  *******
  Is that what you want?

  & just keep breaking my heart..
  It's not like I matter to you anyway.

  & please stop calling me beautiful;
  I'm just a teenage screwup.

  Her heart is heavy, she's got nothing to say
  Her eyes are so tired; she's slipping away.

  & now that you screwed up, it looks like I'll be happy again.

  Sticks and stones may break my bones, but your words, they kill me.

  I am nowhere near close to being perfect.
  My hair is almost always a mess
  I'm dangerous wearing white.
  Because most likely something will have stained it
  By the time I take it off.
  I'm one of the clumsiest people on this planet.
  I'm always the one that gets broken hearted
  I often start stupid fights at stupid times
  So maybe I'm not perfect.
  But at least I have the guts to be myself.

  She always wondered what it was she never had?
  An ego? Not enough confidence?
  Or maybe just that she wasn't another heartless whore.

  There's a difference between pretty and beautiful.
  When someone is pretty, they have a good appearance.
  & when someone's beautiful, they shine on the inside and out, and are also pretty.
  But never in my life have I ever been called beautiful...
  Just pretty.

  You're my right when everything is wrong
  You're always there to keep me strong
  You dry my tears when I wanted to cry
  You made my life worth living when I wanted to die.

  He gets her out of bed in the morning.
  Drags her to school, pulls her through classes.
  Brightens up her day, and doesn't even know he does it.

  Sometimes..
  You gotta b*r*e*a*k... the rules
  and  s t a n d  apart.
  Ignore your >head<
  And follow your h.e.a.r.t.

  I'll risk [e v e r y t h I n g] I have
  I'll fight till I bleed
  I'll give you my {life}
  If that's what you >need<

  |Someday| *someone will walk into your life*
  [And you'll realise why everyone else]
  {~Didn't work out for you~}

  You may not be perfect
  But you're perfect for [me]

  She sits in the corner, singing herself to sleep
  Wrapped around in promises that no one seems to keep </3

  It's eating at me like cancer
  & I need to know the answer
  It's simply [yes] or [no]
  Should I love you, or just let you go?

  You can find me underneath my sheets
  Silently crying myself to sleep.

  But I'm doing my best
  Everyday and every night
  Hanging on by a thread..
  That's stretched a little too tight.

  She's cut and bruised
  She feels so used
  The walls cave in..
  When did this begin?
  Her thoughts are so deep
  So alone she cries
  On the bathroom floor
  As blood drips down
  But she doesn't make a sound
  All alone she breaks
  She's so sick of everyone being fake.

  A broken mirror
  A bleeding fist
  A silver blade against her wrist
  As tears fall down to lips un-kissed
  Just ignore her and she won't exist
  She's not really the kind of girl you'll come to miss.

  People are always telling me to smile.
  Like smiling is going to take away all the hurt and all the pain.
  Well, I've  tried that.
  I've tried hiding my sorrows
  And covering the sadness in my smile
  And what I've  learned is when it hurts this much inside
  Your heart always has a way of showing it
  No matter how many masks you wear.

  She's trying desperately to survive;
  She's looking for a reason to stay alive.

  If the heart is one of the strongest muscles in the human body
  Then why is it so easy to break?

  I love you & deep down inside
  I think you love me too
  But you won't admit it because you're scared.
  You're scared of the fact you might love me too.

  The other night, she looked outside & saw the moon & said
  "I hope that somewhere, he's looking at the same moon"
  Little did she know that at that moment, he saw the stars
  Except in another girl's eyes.

  The smile on your face lets me know that you need me.
  There's a  t r u t h  in your eyes saying you'll never leave me.
  The touch of your hand says you'll catch me
  Wherever I fall.
  You say it best, when you say nothing at all.

  Well I thought you'd listen but I'm shattered like broken glass.
  Well I thought that we'd be different babe.
  Yeah, I thought we would last.

  You have to take the good with the bad
  Smile with the sad.
  Love what you do
  & remember what you had.
  Always forgive.. But never forget
  Learn from your mistakes. But never regret.
  People change.. Things go wrong
  But remember, life goes on.

  I'm a strong girl, keeping my shit in line
  & even with tears running down my face
  I still manage to say 'I'm fine'.

  I'm gonna smile when I wanna cry
  Act happy when I wanna die
  Laugh out loud when I'm feeling blue
  & I won't let it bother me
  When I see her with you.

  Call me a slut. Call me a whore.
  Call me whatever. I've  heard it before.
  Say that I'm fake. Say that I lie.
  Say what you want. You won't see me cry.
  Because I know none of it's true.
  But calling me all this shit, hah
  What the hell does that make you?

  So lets leave all the windows open tonight
  Leave us no choice but to cuddle close
  And cut off all the lights for a while
  & kiss me like you'll never see me again.

  Taste your kiss with my lips
  Slip your hands into the pockets of the jeans hugging my hips
  Unbottoning my shirt slowly with your free hand
  Whispering in my ear 'Baby, I want to be your man'

  Everytime we touch, I get this feeling
  Everytime we kiss, I swear I can fly <3

  We kinda have this relationship
  Where I can call her a bitch
  And she can call me a slut
  & we're still best friends

  I want to be the one he's scared to lose

  No matter how many times he hurts me
  I'll always forgive him
  Some call it stupid
  ... I call it love.

  See
  In the pictures
  Of when we were little
  Even if we were crying
  You could still see
  The smile in our eyes.
  That's changed though.
  As we grow older
  Even when we're smiling
  You can still see the sadness...
  Maybe that's what growing up is?

  I hate it when people ask me if I'm ok..
  It's just another reminder that I'm not.

  I know how it feels
  To be on the edge of your bed
  Your head buried in your hands
  Wishing everything would end.

  And even if they have to run away
  She's gonna marry that boy someday.

  My head is saying 'Who cares about him?'
  & my hearts is screaming 'I..D.o.'

  People are going to want you, need you
  Exceed you, take you, beat you, love you,
  Hate you, play you, rate you, save you & break you.
  But that's not what makes you.

  All those scars on her arms?
  Oh don't worry they're just there so she can keep track of how many times you broke her heart.

  I'm the girl that's always lost, the one with the fake smile, the girl who seems to be so strong but daily continues to break.
  The girl who's always there
  And seems to have no problems of her own.
  The one who holds back the tears until she's off the phone..

  My pain you'll never know
  My feelings I'll never show
  My past remains nameless
  And yet you think you fucking know

  I don't want to admit it.. It was easier to lie
  To hide the hurt
  To smile instead of cry.

  People hurt me.. Criticize me.. Tell me I'm always wrong..
  Lie to me.. Turn their backs on me time and time again..
  Kill me slowly.. And then they wonder what my fucking problem is?

  She refuses to add to the drama
  So she hides her pain and paints on a smile
  Not wanting to be a burden
  So she pretends to have it all together.

  Don't worry about me
  In the end I'll be fine.
  I'm just the girl forgotten
  The girl always left behind.

  She [[painted]] on a smile
  And learned how to p r e t e n d.

  But she's slowly running out of smiles & oh, so gracefully wasting away </3

  It's 2am and she's lying on her bed
  Staring at the ceiling
  All these thoughts in her head
  Just so confused
  Doesn't know what to do
  In need of someone to talk to
  But she doesn't know who
  So she just lies there
  Her eyes fixed on the ceiling
  With her headphones blaring
  But nothing, she's hearing
  And just for the record
  Just so you know
  I did not believe
  That you could sink so low.

  I'm the girl, the one who always loses
  The one with the fake smile
  & the girl who seems to be so strong
  But continues to break.
  That girl who's always there
  And seems to have no problems of her own.
  The one who holds back the tears
  Until she's off the phone
  That girl is in love
  With a guy who doesn't care at all. </3

  I'm sitting here with your name on my skin
  I can't believe I went and did this stupid shit again.

  A memory lasts forever and never does it die
  True friends stay together and never say goodbye.

  I belive in angels, the kind that heaven sends
  I'm surrounded by angels, but I call them my best friends.

  Cross your heart, hope to die
  Clothes and makeup;
  Boys and lies.
  Forever till the very end
  The definition of a true best friend.

  We may fight, we may cry
  But my love for you will never die
  I'll care for you till the very end
  Cause now and forever, you're my best friend.

  And there's an emptiness inside her
  That she'd do anything to fill.  x3

  If you really love something, set it free.
  If it comes back, it's yours
  If it doesn't
  It was never meant to be.

  One day you're going to ask me whose life is more important
  I'll say mine and you'll walk away
  Not knowing that you are my life. </3

  I'll be smiling when I see you, the tears will never show
  I know I'll always love you and yet you'll never know

  Love is rare, life is strange
  Nothing lasts and people  c h a n g e.

  As the days go by and you're not there
  It's like having wings with no air

  All good things must come to an end
  But among the rest, a broken heart is the hardest to mend </3

  Real eyes realise real lies.

  Would you catch me if I fall?
  Do you notice me.. at all?

  Don't tell me lies, they are hard to heal
  Just tell me how you really feel.

  No one can tell me what to do
  It's my life and I'll live it how I want to.

  Everyone who lives dies
  But not everyone who dies lives.

  Not all scars show
  Not all wounds heal
  Sometimes you can't always see
  The pain someone feels.

  It seems as though there's always someone looking in at me
  Well here I am for all of you to see
  But you'll never know the real me.

  Cutting is my life, cutting is my pride
  Cutting is the answer to all my pain inside.

  I'm drowning in my sorrow
  Drowning in my fears
  I'm drowning in my darkness
  Drowning in my tears

  See my soul is kinda grey
  See my heart you look away
  See my wrists, I feel the pain
  You know my cheeks aren't wet from rain.

  Please catch me... I'm falling for you

  I wanna tell you what I'm feeling
  But I don't know where to start
  I wanna tell you
  But I'm afraid you'll break my heart.

  If you don't know me, you've no right to judge me
  I've got a good heart but this heart can get ugly.

  I can't do it.. I won't say it
  My heart is breaking but I won't let you know </33

  A million words wouldn't bring you back
  I know because I've  tried
  Neither would a million tears
  I know because I've  cried.

  I don't care what they say anymore, this is my life
  Go ahead with your own life, leave me alone.

  I don't need you to worry for me cause I'm alright
  I don't want you to tell me it's time to come home.

  Sometimes I feel you're not listening
  Sometimes I feel you don't understand

  Cause I'm just a little girl you see
  But there's a hell of a lot more to me
  Don't ever underestimate what I can do
  Don't ever tell me how I'm meant to be.

  And he makes me feel like
  I'm a miracle to the world.

  Kissing is a habit
  Fucking is a game
  Guys get all the pleasure
  Girls get all the pain
  The guy says I love you
  You believe it's true
  But when your stomach starts to swell
  He says 'To hell with you.'
  10 minutes of pleasure
  9 months of pain
  3 days in hospital
  A baby without a name.
  The baby is a bastard
  The mother is a whore
  This never would have happened
  If the rubber wouldn't have torn.

  Tired of trying, sick of crying
  Yeah I'm smiling
  But inside I'm dying.

  Every day you find new ways to hurt me
  But I can't help it if I'm just a fool
  Always having my heart set on you.

  You're the reason I live, the reason I'd die
  The reason I smile and break down and cry
  The reason I keep going, the reason I fall
  But without you in my life
  I'm nothing at all.

  The truth is, you could slit my throat
  And with my one last gasping breath
  I'd apologize for bleeding on your shirt.

  Sometimes you meet someone
  And before you know their name
  Before you know where they're from
  You know that sometime in the future
  This person is going to
  Mean something to you.

  Even her friends don't understand her
  She's a question without answers
  Who feels like falling apart

  I felt like screaming "Look what you've done!"
  But then I realised it was me who did this and no one else.
  There is no one else to blame for the scars.
  It's all me doing it.

  I'm not the type of girl who would get up and leave you
  I would never mislead you
  Cause unlike other girls, baby I need you.

  My dream is to wake up in the middle of the night
  And to hear you throwing rocks at my window
  Just so you could say hello.

  So here's to late nights on the phone
  Sneaking kisses in the hallways
  Dancing in the rain
  And the sound of my heart breaking
  When you tell me this is g o o d b y e.

  It's the way my heart beats
  When I hear your name <3

  If you give me a *chocolate* I'll gie you a [kiss]
  Some people wait {forever} fror a moment like  t h I s.

  Eventually all the pieces will
  f a l l  I n t o  p l a c e
  But until then..
  Live for the moment
  Laugh at the confusion
  And know that
  Everything happens for a | r e a s o n |

  *Let's make it work
  And prove everyone wrong.

  Tell him that I don't even miss him and that I don't miss him anymore.
  Tell him that I've  moved on and that I don't care if he has a new girlfriend.
  But don't tell him I said this in between tears and with my fingers crossed.

  You have a good girl reputation for all your life and no one cares.
  One mistake and it feels like the whole world is watching.

  Everyone tells me that you're not worth it.
  That I just need to realize that I deserve so much better than you.
  But in my eyes, there is no one better.

  Tough people are not born. They're made when no one is there for them to wipe their >T.e.A.r.S< away.

  There's something about the look in your eyes
  Something I noticed when the light was just right
  It reminded me twice that I was alive
  And it reminded me that you're so worth the fight.

  Have you ever been lying in your bed [ ThInKiNg ] about >him<
  And your body starts to tingle
  And all of a sudden
  You want nothing more than to be in his |arms|

  If tears made you beautiful
  I'd be fucking gorgeous.

  Everyone cries, everyone weeps
  We all stay up late one night because we can't go to sleep
  Tears coming out, thoughts deep in your head
  So you sit and you lie there, and cry on your bed
  You can't help but think about all the things you had
  You can't help but wonder why they make you so sad
  You can't help to think where did you do wrong
  You can't help but listen to your old song
  You can't help but think about him day and night
  You can't help but wonder why this match wasn't right
  You can't help but smile every time you see his face
  You can't help but try and find someone to replace him
  So you're happy to see him
  It's been a long time
  You're happy to see him and you don't know why.
  Well don't suddenly forget
  He's the reason why you always cry.

  She sits in the corner, singing herself to sleep
  Wrapped around in promises that no one seems to keep.

  I can tell by the look in your eyes
  And the sound of your voice
  That you've already found a replacement
  For the spot I used to fill.

  Your perfect little girl dropped a grade on her report card
  Your perfect little girl yelled at you last night
  Your perfect little girl talked back to you again
  Your perfect little girl painted her nails black
  Your perfect little girl lied to you all her life
  Your perfect little girl cries herself to sleep
  Your perfect little girl slits her wrists until she bleeds
  Your perfect little girl dated before sixteen
  Your perfect little girl was broken by a boy
  Your perfect little girl doesn't go to church
  Your perfect little girl hates you
  Your perfect little girl has given up on life
  Your perfect little girl had a tantrum today
  Your perfect little girl wants to run away
  Your perfect little girl has no real friends
  Your perfect little girl thinks she's overweight
  Your perfect little girl hasn't let you dry her tears
  Your perfect little girl disobeys you
  Your perfect little girl hates the world
  Your perfect little girl is hated by the world
  Your perfect little girl says bad things about you
  Your perfect little girl is very unhappy
  Your perfect little girl tried to commit suicide
  Your perfect little girl has become a disgrace
  But at the end of the day, she's still your perfect little girl.

  Everyone says they understand how I feel
  So they must all know what it feels like to have nobody to talk to
  How nobody cares that you're so sad on the inside
  But you pretend to be happy on the outside so you don't get asked what's wrong
  Because it's too hard to explain.

  And that's what you get for falling again..
  You can never get him out your head.

  Don't call me obsessed when..
  I'm only scared of losing the best thing that ever happened to me.

  Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot
  Who calls you back when you hang up on him
  Who will stay awake just to watch you sleep.

  I'm nothing special.
  I've done nothing to be proud of.
  I haven't created a cure, broken a record or won an election.
  I've done nothing to be remembered worldwide by
  And the truth is, that's fine, because when I die,
  I'd rather be remembered by my friends as being a great shoulder to cry on
  Than by everyone as someone who was crying out for attention.

  So forget about the backstabbing, jealousy and lies
  Cause when I need a real friendship I turn to my guys.

  In your life you will meet
  [o n e  g u y] unlike any other.
  You can talk to him and never get bored.
  Tell him everything and never get judged
  Smile and get butterflies every time you see his face, hear his name, or voice.

  Never lie, cheat, steal or drink.
  But if you must lie, lie in the arms of the one you love
  If you must cheat, cheat death.
  If you must steal, steal away from bad company
  And if you must drink, drink to the moments that take your breath away.

  Wish I were as strong
  As you think I am.

  You've got the arms I wanna be wrapped in
  The eyes I want to lose myself in
  And the voice I could listen to for hours.

  Take chances.
  Tell the truth.
  Date someone totally wrong for you.
  Say no.
  Spend all of your money.
  Fall in love.
  Get to know someone random.
  Say I love you even though they might not say it back.
  Sing out loud.
  Laugh until your stomach hurts.
  Dance like nobody is watching.
  Cry.
  Apologize.
  Tell someone that they are your entire world.
  Let someone know what they are missing.
  Live life to the fullest.
  Live in the moment.
  And remember that life is all about taking chances so you might as well take them.

  I'm jealous of every girl who's ever hugged you
  Because for one moment
  She held my entire world.

  When he holds me close and I hear his heart beat
  And kiss his lips..
  I realize that this is where I wanna be
  And this is how I want to be. . | F o r e v e r |

  There's a place in my heart
  That will never belong to anyone
  But you <3

  If I was drop dead gorgeous, perfect
  And could have any guy in the world
  I would still pick [you]

  Be who you are and say what you feel
  Because those who mind don't matter
  And those who matter don't mind.

  What is love and what does it define? <3
  Who's to say and who's to draw the line?
  And within this [world] and all its fuss
  Who's to say if it's love or lust?

  There's millions of guys out there
  But in the end, it all comes down to one
  And when you find the right person;;
  Then all of a sudden
  Anything is possible ________ x3

  I was made this size
  So I could fit perfectly
  In his >>A r M s<<

  Well I'm a wreck, I really can't explain it.
  But I hear the music when I look at you
  I'm directing the scene that has you and me forever.
  Well [I'm so in love] with you
  And when memories fade
  We've got each other

  There's a certain feeling I get when I'm around you.
  I can't describe it
  But I know it has something to do with
  - . - . -> love <- . - . -

  I wish it didn't hurt
  Hurt like this
  To say these things to you
  I'll sacrifice one moment for one truth.

  Once again your eyes
  Make it hard to say goodbye
  So I'll just keep driving
  Where you want to go
  It doesn't really matter
  As long as you are here with me.

  Time to close my eyes, forget about this mess.
  And try to fix this tragic loss of innocence
  But how could I forget the things I have inside
  When everything is dead?

  Cause there's a fine fucking line between love and hate
  That we cross at least once of every goddamn day
  And while you say you fucking love me you still push me away
  You tie me at the wrists so that you can't be saved

  Live in notes and photographs
  And everything I'm holding back
  But you're the words that weren't enough
  You remind me of a song I used to love </3

  "Don't you wish?"
  "Don't you hope?"
  "Don't you dream?"
  And I reply
  "Yeah I used to, until I met someone who woke me up."

  I'm just having another one of those days..
  When thoughts of you fill my mind
  And I can't do anything but break down and cry.
  When you're around I'll put on a smile
  And pretend that I'm ok
  But in the end you should know
  That it's you who made me this way.

  Feelings I used to have aren't there
  And for the first time in a long time
  I  r e a l l y  d o n ' t  c a r e.

  Wipe a tear, crack a smile
  You've just commited
  The perfect crime
  Faked them all
  They don't know
  You're dying inside

  I swear I'd rip my heart out if you said you'd be impressed <//3

  When I refuse to take shit
  And speak up against it
  I'm defined as a bitch
  But if being a bitch means that
  I won't allow anyone to step all over me
  Then all I have to say is so be it.

  I keep silent
  Even when I'm screaming inside
  Cause the things that drive me crazy..
  I have no choice but to hide.

  If I had to [ choose ]
  Whether to breathe [or] to love you
  I'd use my last breath to tell you
  [{I love you}]

  It's that ..F.i.r.s.t..K.i.s.s..
  The one where your knees get weak
  And you forget how to speak
  When gravity fades away
  And suddenly you've got nothing to say
  It's that ..F.i.r.s.t..K.i.s.s..
  The one when you get butterflies in your tummy
  And the whole world seems funny
  It's that ..F.i.r.s.t..K.i.s.s..
  The one where you realize you're not supposed to kiss anyone else
  When the other person knows you better than yourself
  It's that ..F.i.r.s.t..K.i.s.s..<33

  The girl who seemed unbreakable.. Broke
  The girl who seemed so strong.. Crumbled
  The girl who always laughed it off.. Cried.

  When a guy tells you that you're hot he's looking at your body.
  When a guy tells you that you're beautiful he's looking at your face.
  When a guy tells you that you're beautiful he's looking at your heart.

  You may not always remember
  What a person did to you
  But you will always remember
  [How] they made you |feel|.

  Let's not say we 'hate' each other.
  Instead let's use the word 'despise'.
  Somehow it sounds less childish, more passionate
  And as if there's still something there to hang on to.

  Don't tell a girl she's hot..
  That's not what she wants to be.
  What she wants to hear is that she's
  [b][e][a][u][t][i][f][u][l].

  I wanna be his favourite hello
  And his h a r d e s t goodbye.

  So what if I'm different
  When you're all the same
  I tried to be like you and played your game
  But this is who I am
  This is what I'll be
  Who cares what you think
  I'm just me.

  Just because her eyes don't tear
  Doesn't mean her heart doesn't cry
  And just because she comes off strong
  Doesn't mean there's nothing wrong </3

  When we stop kissing
  You look a little bashful
  It's a cute, innocent, appealing expression
  That sometimes confuses me
  But still makes me want to kiss you
  Forever <3333

  As I look through these pictures I start to cry
  Cause I'm finally realizing times can fly by
  I can plan for the future but I can't change the past
  I just wish some of the moment's I'd had would last.

  Force a smile, blink away the tears
  I'm supposed to be strong.. supposed to have no fears
  But I'm finding it hard not to frown
  I'm such a strong person
  Why am I breaking down?

  I say "Oh I'm fine", and walk away
  But I'm waiting for someone to say "No, you aren't."

  Everyone asks me "How can you love him?"
  I don't want to tell them.. Because they'd love him too.

  Ever have one of those days where nothing really goes wrong
  Actually, good things happen to you
  But you still just feel like you hate the world
  And anything that happens
  Even dropping your pen in the hallway
  Makes you wanna break down right there & cry?

  she's a little crazy
  fake a smile baby,
  all eyes on you

  just another broken-hearted,
  overrated teenage love scene

  when you're still smiling about something that happened two days ago,
  you know there's something more to this

  I'm sorry
  I kindasorta accidentally fell in love

  If I kinda sorta hadda crush on you
  ...would you even care??

  & when you held me that one night
  things never felt so right

  Funny how a photograph
  can take you back in time
  to places and embraces that
  you thought you left behind

  Don’t be fooled by her pretty smile;;
  Inside she’s breaking.
  She is oh-so-fragile

  we're not sarcastic; we're hilarious
  we're not annoying; we're just cooler than you
  we`re not bitches; we just don't like you
                  we aren't concited; we speak the truth.
  and, babe            
      we're not obsessed; we're just best friends.

   I guess me getting upset over little things is a way of showing how much I care

  i hate it how I can not talk to you for about a month
  but then all of a sudden you talk to me again and
  it`s like as if nothing happened & I slowly
  start falling for you all over again                  </3

  we could be so bored at my house doing absoloutely nothing ;; just staring at each other & thinkin of what we should do.
  & all of a sudden we burst out into laughter for no apparent reason....x3

  I have a bad craving for the taste of your lips

  States that keep us far apart
  Track the beating of my heart
  Mark the places in my book
  With photographs we never took

  you always dissapoint me
  it's kinda like our inside joke
  except ; it's__not__funny

  flipped the cards over and saw hearts.
  i folded and said ..
  " I don't deal with love."

  People say I've  changed so much.
  Well, here's the honest truth ;; I grew up.

  The paramedics say;;
  Isn't it a shame?` Such a pretty girl
  did such an ugly thing <3.

  She's got bitemarks on her tongue, from all the things she never said....

  she cried all night, until the salt
  from her tears rusted her eyes.

  she's done dropping hints
  figure it out yourself
  p r e t t y  b o y

  Somebody asked me the other day --
  if you had a gun, and you had to choose
  to either shoot your boyfriend or bestfriend;
  who would you shoot?
  my answer was..I'd shoot myself
  because i'd take a bullet and die for the ones that I love <3

  with my pen and paper, I'm about
  to pour my heart out so you can
  see all the shit you've put me through
  but I don't think you can handle it

  Keep Your Head High Gorgeous
  There Are People That Would
  Kill To See You Fall<|3

  She said, "I've gotta be honest
  You're wasting your time if you're fishing round here"
  And I said, "You must be mistaken
  Cause I'm not fooling, this feeling is real"
  She said, "You gotta be crazy
  What do you take me for, some kind of easy mark?"
  "No, you've got wits, you've got looks
  You've got passion, but I swear that you've got me all wrong"

  I'M NOT PERFECT.
  I'm not the prettiest girl you'll meet.
  I'm not the smartest girl you'll meet.
  I don't have the best clothes in the world.
  I'm not the richest girl you'll meet.
  Sometimes I fight with my friends.
  Sometimes I cry.
  Sometimes I'll have a bad hair day.
  I spill things on my clothes.
  I'm too self consious at times. ?
  LOVE IT or HATE IT
            I do.

  x. so lets play
  romeo & juliet
  & fall in love
  .. just to die..x

   
  such a misfortune. <3

  it takes my pain away

  eventually well learn the differences
  between holding hands
  & seriously falling in love
  well learn that kisses
  wont always mean something
  promises will be broken
  just as fast as they were made
  & sometimes good-byes
  really are forever

  Broken and crying on the floor,
  she realizes she can't take this anymore.

  My hand is on the trigger,
  I'm ready to ignite
  Tomorrow might not make it,
  But everythings alright

  Cutting isn’t something you do for fun…
  It’s a relief when you have nowhere to run…
  She cuts more and more
  Her arm was full of lines
  Her artistic way of doing with
  Instead of complaints and whines

  Im broken hearted on the floor
  My tears seep through cracks under the door
  Where I’m locked in and shut down.
  I’m so tired of picking myself up off the ground.

  She's been hurt many times before this.
  You'd think it would be a routine by now.
  You'd think she wouldnt let it get to her,
  But the truth is, she t r u s t e d you.

  & she's a little scared
  to get close to anyone,
  because everyone that said
  "I'll be there" left.

  Though it's been awhile now,
  I can still feel so much pain
  Like the knife that cuts you, the wound heals
  But the scar, that scar remains.

  & She Cried For Many Hours, But None Understood,
  & That Night Her Eyes Told The The World That She Was In Pain.
  There Was No More Fooling The World.
  For Once In Her Life She Just Didn't Care.
  For Once In Her Life She Wanted The World To Know How She Felt.

  Tears streaming down her face, how did it come to this?
  Sitting there on on the floor, with the bloody razor, wrists a mess.
  She swore she would never do it, she promised herself. But she couldnt help it.
  The words beating down on her, replaying over and over again in her head.
  Just tell her what she did wrong, what she did to deserve this.
  Everythings caving in she can't take it anymore.
  Soon she won't be able to handle it, and then you'll get what you wanted.
  What you've always wanted. For her to be gone.<//3

  am I the only girl thats not impressed with -pick-up-lines-
  am I the only girl that doesnt respond to "Hey Sexy"
  am I the only girl that wants more than that?

  she sat with her friends in a movie
  a movie where a girl cuts
  her friends were disgusted
  while she sat and watched,
  knowing that's what's under her sleeve

  she needs someone to call her beautiful
  someone to put the light back in her eyes

  she's got a list of things she wants to
  change about herself
  because ever since she met you
  she's a mess of insecurities.

  she's not the kind of girl who tells the world how she feels about herself.

  I wanna love you longer. Baby, forever is over so quick these days.

  you're not the kind of guy that would
  ignore me when you're with your friends,
  but hold me tighter & kiss me a little
  harder, just to make them jealous

  I'm the kind of girl who will burst out laughing in dead silences
  because of something that happened the day before.

  Only she knows the answers
  But she'll never tell
  The reasons why her life's a living hell.

  My hands are at your throat
  And I think I hate you
  We made the same mistakes
  Mistakes like friends do.

  Too often we don't realize what we have till it's gone
  Too often we wait too long to say "I'm sorry, I was wrong."
  Sometimes it seems we hurt the ones we hold dearest to our hearts
  And we allow foolish things to t-e-a-r our lives a_p_a_r_t

  I'll fall asleep tonight
  Cause that brings me closer to you.

  There's something about him
  That just won't let me give up.

  Sh0t thr0ugh the heart and y0u're t0 blame
  Darlin' y0u give |l0ve| a bad name.

  She has everything and more
  Yet she still breaks down at night
  I guess there really is more
  Than meets the eye.

  He gets me smiling when it hurts.
  Nothing exactly measures what my baby is truly worth.

  She's scared.
  Scared to lose him
  She's scared she'll do something wrong to make him want to leave
  She's scared that he'll find someone else so much better than her
  She's scared because she's finally realised
  How much he means to her <3

  If this is what you want, then it's worth it all
  Forget the risks; and take the  f a l l

  When I cry at night
  The only thing I can think to myself about is
  How I can seem so perfectly fine in the morning
  Why do I smile like nothing is wrong?
  And how does not one single person notice
  That I'm not okay?

  I dreamed of a wedding.
  Elaborate elegance.
  A church filled with flowers and friends.
  I asked him what kind of wedding he wished for
  And he replied "One that would make you my wife."

  The best kind of kiss is the unexpected, unplanned ones.
  The ones that come naturally.
  Like in the middle of a sentence.

  My head is saying
  'Who c-a-r-e-s about him?"
  And my heart is screaming
  ["I  d o"]

  He's her  d r u g
  And she's addicted.

  And after everybody's told her to just give up and stop waiting for him
  She says the same thing every time.
  [ He's _ worth _ waiting _ for ]

  I am the author of my life.
  Unfortunately I'm writing in pen
  And can't erase my mistakes.

  All I need to know
  Is if I'm something you'll be
  m-i-s-s-i-n-g

  I need your arms around me
  I need to feel your touch
  God damnit I do.

  Sometimes the |pain| is too much to bear
  Sometimes if you don't watch your back it will cost you.
  Sometimes you wonder who the fuck would care
  [x] [I f  t h e y  l o s t  y o u] [x]

  If you're looking for perfection
  Don't look at me.
  I'll only let you down.

  Seeing you, it kills me now
  No I don't cry on the outside anymore </3

  Never forget what they did to you
  But never let them know you remember </3

  You've labelled your whole lifestyle
  And changed the way you dress.
  Now take a good look in the mirror
  And tell me who you're trying to impress.

  And all she wants is someone that will treat her right.
  Someone that will call her beautiful when she needs it the most.
  Someone that *will* love her for who she is. <3

  So push me up against the wall
  & kiss me like you mean it.

   can't stand him hurting me.
  i can't stand him using me.
  but unlike him, I just can't walk away.
  i can't forget what we had. it's not
  that easy for me to let go of something
  that was once in my life. I guess it
  actually mattered to me..

  I had no one to look up to.
  So I looked down on myself.

  Suicide had crossed her mind;
  he had broken her heart
  at the wrong time.

  don't come running to me  when
  that girl puts a hole through your heart
  because I'll just walk away & leave you stranded.
  Just like you left me when I needed you most.

  I'm so sick & tired of acting like I'm fine because truthfully, I'm not.
  I can't even talk to you without being so incredibly sad.
  You were the one person who was always supposed to be there for me.
  My best friend, my everything.
  And you ruined it all in that moment & I acted like it didn't hurt.
  For a while, I didn't think it did.
  But the tears are here & now I realize that it hurts more than anything in the world.

  you're talking to a girl who has had her heart broken,
  cried for continuous hours, yelled and screamed for
  help. a girl who turned her back on the world .. & a
  girl who did nothing but love someone who
  didn't love her back.

  I walked through the hallway
  Holding my wrists
  Hoping no one would see me like this.
  He looks at me, scared what he'll find
  He never thought I had these things in my mind
  He asks me "Is there any more?"
  Looking at him with tears in my eyes
  I whisper a simple reply
  "What did you think bracelets were for?"

  confession:
  sticks and stones
  have broken my bones
  but words have made me
  starve myself.

  i'm not picture perfect
  i'm not paper thin
  i'm not what you expect
  i'm not a prize you win
  i'm not some guilty pleasure
  i'm not some beauty scene
  i'm not what you'd prefer
  i'm nothing inbetween
  i'm not a granted guarantee
  but you still seem so unaware
  what I am you just can't see
  just can't see, or just don't care?

  & you colourblinded me with your killer crimson ::

  I hide a broken heart behind a
  laughing face. & even though
  i said i'm over you no one will
  ever . take . your . place

  But there's nothing wrong with me,
  This is how I'm supposed to be

  If You Lose The Key To My Heart,
  Just Knock. I'll Let You In.

  She's the kind of girl who you forget about
  as soon as you meet. she is the b-side
  to your favorite cassette tape ;; the crust on the bread.
  every face you've ever forgotten.
  she is the verse to that song on the radio
  the one you have to hum along with
  because you can't remember the words.
  yeah, she's that forgettable.

  I'm tired of [ smiling ] when I'm [ sad ]
  I'm tired of [ laughing ] when I'm [ mad ]
  I'm tired of [ hiding ] the real me; but I'm
  too [ scared ] of what [ others ] will see

  And she sat...
  She sat for hours
  Wondering what she had done to deserve any of this pain she was feeling.
  Wondering what she had done to make him go away.
  Wondering what she had done to make him break her heart in two.
  And as she started to cry
  She began asking herself why she ever said "I love you".

  [ Truth Is ]
  I never got over you.
  Wish I was standing in her shoes
  And when it's all said and done
  * Guess I'm still in love with you *

  A lonely girl sits in her room
  The thoughts and memories are still in her head
  The very last words to her he said
  "I think we're better off friends."
  While she's thinking
  "I think I'm better off dead."

  A priceless moment is when the person // you have fallen in love with
  Looks you right in the eyes
  And tells you they have //FallenInLoveWithYou\\

  A whore is like
  A bowling ball.
  Gets picked up.
  Fingered.
  Thrown into the gutter.
  Then fuckin' comes
  Back for more.

  I've tried to go on like I never knew you.
  I'm awake but my world is half asleep.
  I pray for this heart to be unbroken
  But without you all I'm going to be is ::Incomplete::

  She's not the kind of girl who likes to tell the world
  About the way she feels about herself.

  This is the place where I sit
  This is the part where I love you so much
  And this is as hard as it gets
  I'm getting tired of pretending I'm -tough-

  You're not my friend.
  Friends don't look at each other
  The way we do now <3

  I can't sleep tonight.
  I'm too busy thinking about you, about us.
  I really care about you
  And I'm so terrified that if I told you my true feelings about you
  That I would scare you away.
  So I hold my feelings in
  And I write them down
  And I hope that one day
  You'll feel the same way too.

  I just want to stare at your beautiful eyes
  And fall asleep in your arms
  Because I know that I'm always going to be happy with you
  <3

  They can love us
  Hate us
  Jock us
  But they can never seperate us.

  Everything is just right.
  You holding me tight.
  Praying this was reality
  But it's just a dream
  And I'll just have to let it be.
  [(_</3 )]

  If you think he's the one you want
  The one you love
  And the one that can make you happy
  No matter how long you've liked him
  And no matter what other people say
  You should keep
  T r y I n g  and  w a I t I n g .

  Love is like standing on wet cement.
  The longer you stay ;; the harder it is to leave
  And you can never let go
  Without leaving your footprints behind... <3

  Flatter me and I may not believe you.
  Criticize me and I may not like you.
  Ignore me and I may not forgive you.
  But love me and I'll never forget you.

  I'm not taken but my [ ? ] is taken.

  And I lost the only thing worth
  </3 [( F I g h t I n g  f o r )] </3

  Alright I'll admit it.. I need him now <3

  She's the girl with her middle finger in the air
  Because for the first time
  She just doesn't care.

  I'm here without you baby
  But you're still on my lonely mind

  The only thing wrong with our relationship
  Is the distance ____</3

  I wonder what you'd say if you knew that I wake up every morning with you on my mind.
  Showering and thinking of you.
  Getting dressed and thinking of you.
  Listening to music and thinking of you.
  Putting on my make up and fixing my hair for you.
  Lying in the sand to be tanned for you.
  Walking in the halls looking for you.
  Talking on the phone about you.
  Lying in bed at night thinking about you.
  Falling asleep only to dream about you.
  If only you knew you send my heart spinning every time you look into my eyes until we pass.
  If only you knew how much you meant to me, I wonder what you'd say..

  It's one of those days.
  One of those days when you wish that you could be the girl standing right next to him.

  A heart.
  Once loved
  Once broken
  Once torn
  Once taken
  Once trusted
  Once exposed
  Once opened
  Never closed.

  Teardrops fall from those pretty little eyes.
  Kind of hard to move on when you're only told lies.
  She's breaking down, everyone's [f a d I n g]
  It's been so long and she's tired of w.a.i.t.i.n.g

  I have slowly started to realise this is never going to end.
  And when you start to talk to me, I think
  'Oh here we go again.'

  I know he doesn't want to be with me;
  He wants to be with her.
  So I'm not going to interfere.
  I'm just going to sit back
  And watch my whole world disappear </3

  You hug him goodbye like it's nothing
  While all you wanna do is hold on forever.. <3

  It may seem like the wrong thing to do,
  but you have to forget about the guy
  who  f o r g o t  about you

  It was imagination that brought us
  together
  and reality that will tear us
  apart.

  Have you ever heard the _expression
  you break it you buy it...?
  honey, you better pay up </3

  Those rambling conversation where we'd talk about nothing.
  baby that was something

  p.s. I never changed, I just got tired of pretending to be happy.

  Love me without fear.
  Trust me without questioning.
  Need me without demanding.
  Want me without restrictions.
  Accept me without change.
  Desire me without inhibitions.
  For a love so free.

  She buries her head in her pillow
  trying to forget every mistake that she made

  I’ve got him..hook, line, & sinker..
  That boy is [wrapped] around my little finger.
  But you know what makes our love so great?
  He’s got me..the exact same way

  we fall for boys
  who give us pretty words
  & false hopes

  empty another bottle and let
  me tear you to pieces,
  this is me wishing you into the
  worst of situations

  you know just what to say ..
  so my whole day is ruined <3

  You say I have a perfect life.
  I say you have a great imagination.

  You don't realize how strong someone is until you see them in their weakest moment

  I've spent too much time on the side lines.
  I've spent too much time saying "Don't, we're gonna get in trouble"
  I've spent too much time being the good girl.
  I've spent too much time keeping all my feeling inside.
  I've spent too much time wanting the love like in the movies.
  I've spent too much time second guessing myself.
  But now, I'm going to be the girl that other girls spend too much time wishing they were me

  [.x. I got a hole in me now. Yeah I got a scar I can __t a l k __ about .x.]

  Her grades are dropping
  & shes falling behind
  Shes always thinking
  All because shes in love

  Some of us think holding on makes us strong ;;
  but sometimes it is letting go

  I keep praying and praying
  That one day I will just pop into your head
  And you will say
  "God, I made a mistake"..

  If she could show you how much you hurt her;
  You'd never be able to look her in the eyes again </3

  Do you ever just wish you could hear the sirens of the ambulance,
  Wake up in the emergency room
  And hear the doctors say "She isn't going to make it."
  Just so you could find out
  Who really [c a r e s  a b o u t  y o u]

  There's this girl in the mirror
  I wonder who she is
  Sometimes I think I know her
  And sometimes I wish I did.
  There is a story in her eyes
  Lullabies and goodbyes
  When she's looking back at me I can tell
  x__________________x She's hurting inside.

  I don't know what he's after
  But he's so beautiful
  He's such a beautiful disaster
  And if I could [hold on]
  Through the tears and the laughter
  Would it be beautiful?
  Or just a  b.e.a.u.t.i.f.u.l...d.i.s.a.s.t.e.r.?

  She was the kind of ([girl])
  Who always fell in ((love))
  With the wrong person
  And never seemed to be able
  To get out of it. </3

  And when you kissed me.. Everything just felt so right <33

  You should love me for me. Not who I pretend to be.

  ~~**~~[I'm holding on to a dream that won't come true]~~**~~

  Every time she laughs
  She hopes he's watching.
  Not so he sees that she's happy
  But so that maybe... Just maybe
  He'll fall for her smile
  Just as hard as she fell for his. <3

  Be careful. ->  <3  <- It's fragile.

  Every girl wants 'Prince Charming'
  And while he may be nice and all
  I'm thinking I'd rather have the guy that's going to call at 4am just to say "I love you".
  Or someone who'll stop by my house after just hanging up the phone
  Because he wants to see how I'm really doing.
  Because I said I was fine but we both know I'm lying.
  Or the guy who'll stay home on a Saturday night with me because I'm sick
  And bring me my favourite kind of candy
  even though I can't eat it because my stomach flips at the idea.
  That guy. That one guy.
  He may not be 'Prince Charming' to anyone else
  But he'd be my hero.
  My 'knight in shining armour'
  Anyone who'd rather stay home on a Saturday night and lay with me while I sleep just to watch me..
  |T h a t ' s  M y  H e r o|

  And I don't know if it's the things you're saying
  Or if it's the way you're looking at me
  But I think it's the feeling in my ->knees-<
  I can't seem to keep them from going
  [w][e][a][k]

  I hate it when I think about you at night
  Because then I can never get to sleep <3

  Somewhere between all of our
  Laughs
  Long talks
  Stupid little fights
  And all of our jokes
  I fell in love.

  You can't hurt someone
  Unless you really mean something to them.

  You know that [feeling] you get
  When you're going a little too high on a swing
  Or you hit a bump on the road
  And your stomach kinda  f l I p s?
  That's how I feel when I'm around
  [[. You .]]

  We were all [in love]
  And we all got hurt </3

  what do you do?
  What do you say?
  When a time can't be replaced
  Moments so real
  I wish I was still living in yesterday
  Where do I go?
  What do I do?
  When everything has changed
  I know that it's real
  The way that I feel
  I'll carry this now with me
  - - > a l w a y s.

  I love you and don't want that to change.
  I need you and I want you to feel the same.
  I don't ask for much.. And I don't need much.
  But I can't give everything I've  got
  When I'm not getting anything back at all __</3

  What if I said it never mattered
  That I never lost a moment of sleep
  What if I crushed all your dreams
  Broke all the promises I swore to keep
  Tell me how your life would be
  If I did to you
  What you did to me.

  I don't want another pretty face
  I don't want just anyone to hold
  I don't want my love to go to waste
  I want you and your beautiful soul.

  It's always times like these
  When I think of you
  And wonder if you ever think of me.
  Cause everything's so wrong and I don't belong
  Living in your precious memory.

  MAKEYOURMOVEBOY©
  B E F O R E  S H E  M O V E S  O N

  Just everything about her
  screams fake.

  & everytime I talk to you
  I fall a little harder

  they began to talk a lot more
  and laugh a lot more
  and found themselves falling in love

  She thought of her (life) and fell ---- >> to the {floor}.
  She thought of all the bad times, and knew there would be more.
  She -thought* of all the :times: she had gone through' and then she knew___life was hard for some, harder for her.
  When no one can help you, and you're never sure.
  When no one understands what |you’re| trying to say~and sometimes you can barely make it through the day.
  When you never feel like your home is ~a home~.
  When even in a crowded room, you still feel… alone.
  And when, no matter what, you just aren't good enough.
  Well, she wipes the tears and puts on a smile, waits for someone to really see her, but she might have to _wait_ a w h I l e

  If you dress nicely, he says you’re a snob.
  If you dress sexy, he says you’re a slut.
  If you argue with him, he says you're stubborn.
  If you're quiet, he says you’re stupid.
  If you call him, he says you’re needy and clingy.
  If he calls you, he says you should be grateful.
  If you don’t love him, he’ll try to win you.
  If you love him, he’ll leave you.
  If you don’t ---- him, he’ll say you don’t love him.
  If you do, he’ll say you’re easy.
  If you tell him your problems, he’ll say you’re irritating.
  If you don’t, he’ll say you don’t trust him.
  If you lecture him, he’ll say you’re bitchy.
  If he lectures you, it’s because he "cares".
  If you break a promise, you can’t be trusted.
  If he breaks it, he had to.
  If you cheat, he’ll expect it to be over.
  If he cheats, he expects to be given another chance either way...

  I want someone who won't care that
  I never wear shoes,
  that I'm incapable of staying still,
  that I can't grasp the concept of cleaning
  & I refuse to be lady-like.
  Someone who realizes that half the decisions I make, I'll regret and
  I have the right to over-react at any given moment.
  I want someone who knows I'm completely insane and they wouldn't want me any other way

  & of course I try to resist you.
  But sometimes I know
  That's completely impossible.

  Maybe you're just scared,
  Because for once
  Someone actually wants to be with you.

  You know you had a good time...
  When you can't tell your parents what you did.

  Can't you see I want you by the way I push you away?

  I'm always the --> [friend] never the --> [girl]

  I don't think I'm that good at telling time
  Cause you told me you'd love me forever
  And I thought forever was a lot longer.

  Saturday morning 'toons
  Who liked who
  And sleeping till noon
  What was 'in'
  And what was 'out'
  What that guy was all about
  Laughing over absolutely nothing
  Giggling
  Screaming
  Poking
  Sticking your tongue out
  Telling the teacher
  Hiding computer screens
  Chatting  f o r e v e r
  So live for the moment
  And enjoy these days
  Cuz someday
  ---->> They'll all go  a w a y .

  He gets her out of bed in the morning.
  Drags her to school, pulls her through classes.
  Brightens up her day
  And doesn't even know he does it.

  Eventually
  You realise that life sucks
  Love isn't always real
  Happiness is only for a limited time
  You learn who [real] friends are
  You learn to hold back tears
  And you learn how to
  Act like you don't care.

  I'm just a fucked up girl
  Living in a fucked up life
  In a fucked up world
  With a fucking knife
  Welcome to my world
  Where being me isn't enough.

  It's hard to wait around for something that you know might never happen
  But it's even harder to give up
  When you know it's everything you want.

  No matter how much I'm crying
  Or how depressed I am
  Or how much I don't want to be here
  I can always smile for you.

  The worst thing about being lied to
  Is knowing you're not worth the truth.

  You're my right when everything is wrong.
  You're always there to keep me strong.
  You dry my tears when I want to cry.
  You made my life worth living when I wanted to die.

  It's like once you've been hurt
  You're so scared to get attached again
  Like you have this fear that every person you start to fall for
  Is gonna break your heart.

  Alone? I'm beside you.
  Afraid? I'll comfort you.
  Need a hug? My arms are yours.
  Hurt? You can cry on my shoulder.
  I don't promise to slove your problems.
  But at least I'll cry with you.
  Why? Simply because I care and I love you.

  There will always be people
  You can't believe you were friends with---

  There's a difference between pretty and beautiful.
  When someone is pretty, they have a good appearance.
  when someone is beautiful, they shine on the inside and out.
  They are also pretty.
  But never in my life have I ever been called beautiful.
  Just pretty.

  She always wondered what it was she never had?
  An ego? Not enough confidence?
  Or maybe just that she wasn't another heartless whore.

  It's amazing the things you realise when you lose someone.
  You get mad at yourself
  For not saying the things you could have a million times.
  You take for granted the days spent doing nothing when you could have been with them.
  Anyone can be taken, at any time in our lives
  But we always wait until they're gone
  To say the things we never had the courage to before.

  The boy that I thought I was going to be with for the rest of my life
  The boy that made me smile every time I laid my eyes on him
  That boy that promised me that I'll forever be his
  The boy that made me nervous when we first kissed
  The boy that made me feel so secure about myself.
  I gave up on that boy.

  I am nowhere near close to being perfect.
  My hair is almost always a mess,
  I'm dangerous wearing white,
  Because most likely something will have stained it by the time I take it off.
  I'm one of the clumsiest people on this planet
  I'm always the one who gets  b r o k e n    h e a r t e d
  I often start stupid fights at stupid times.
  So maybe I'm not perfect.
  But at least I have the guts to be myself.

  I'm not stupid. I just lack common sense.
  I'm not a poser. I just like music.
  I'm not Miss Popularity. I just have a lot of friends.
  I don't like my boyfriend. I love him.
  I don't ignore you. I just don't give a shit.
  I'm not a bitch. I'm just honest.
  I'm not mean. I just have jokes.
  I'm not insecure. I just don't trust people.

  Listen, I know I may screw up at times
  And that I may hurt you just a little bit
  But please know that I love you
  And as long as you keep loving me
  I will never let you down.

  Last night while we were lying together
  I used my fingers to spell out the words
  "I L o v e Y o u" on your back, thinking you weren't paying attention
  Until you turned around, kissed me
  Looked me in the eyes and whispered
  "I love you too."

  When I tell you I love you
  I don't say it out of habit.
  Or to make conversation.
  I say it to remind you that
  You're the best thing
  That's ever happened to me.

  It's been too long and I'm lost without you.
  Is your heart still mine?

  Sometimes I look at the night sky and think of you.
  I start to wonder if you're looking at the same night sky
  Thinking of me.

  You know that boy you can never get out of your head?
  The one that seems to relate to everything you do, every song, every word?
  The one that at the mention of his name
  Your entire face lights up?
  Yeah.. That's you.

  Ask anyone.
  When your name comes up in conversation
  My eyes sparkle and my smile shines.

  She's scared.
  Scared to lose him.
  She's scared she'll do something wrong to make him want to leave.
  She's scared that he'll find someone else so much better than her.
  She's scared because she finally realised
  How much he means to her.

  Let's slow dance
  And be the couple everyone wishes they could be.
  Let's look at the starts
  And kiss all night long.

  And I would be the one to hold you down
  Kiss you so hard I'll take your breath away.

  Most girls say they want a fairytale
  But you taught me that it's not really what I want.
  I want someone who will make fun of me
  And laugh at my jokes even if they aren't funny.
  Someone who wrestles me and doesn't let me win
  Just because I'm a girl.
  Yeah... Riding off into the sunset on a white horse would be nice
  But playing thumb war with you seems so much better.

  If only he could understand
  How much shit he puts me
     [ t h r o u g h  ] </3

  I don't want your fake smiles
  Or your stupid lies.
  Or your [{ empty }] sympathy
  I just want you to be yourself
  For a change.

  I saw you today and realised how far apart we've grown.
  I know I should talk to you and ask how you've been doing
  And I really wish I could
  But it's just occurred to me that we're strangers now.
  You don't know me anymore, much less want to.
  It's okay that you've moved on.
  I know that everything is different now..
  I've been staying strong.

  All I wanted to do today
  Was collapse in someone's arms and cry.
  But there wasn't anyone to catch me.

  She's {licking} her lips as she wait for her r e a l, f.i.r.s.t   ..x..passionate..x.. kiss.
  && luckily she :still: can't STAND the sight of a boy
  His hair dances in the --wind--, &&; he's wondering what [l][o][v][e] is.
  &&;; he can't understand how.e.v.e.r.y.o.n.e. goes on [[BreathinG]] when true [<3]love[<3] ends.
  {_xx_Heaven's} not a place that you go when you die, it's that moment in life when you actually feel alive.
  Love is just a -h-o-a-x- so forget anything that you have ever heard.
  He p0nders his life, and he skips his r0cks.
  &&;; He wonders when his father will return, but he's not coming back.

  && If you ->die<- right now, you know that I [d I e] too.
  As :years: go by, I race the c.l.o.c.k with [y][o][u]
  We'll make the <s a m e> mistakes, I'll take thex___xfall for you.
  Should ii biite my t0ngue untiil bl00d s0aks my shiirt?
  [We'llNeverFallApart...TellMeWhyThisHurtsSoMuch]
  MY HANDS ARE AT YOU THR0AT && ii TiNK ii HATE Y0U...
  .::.We make the same mistakes..::.
  Until the_x0_ day I die, I'll spill my heart for [you]

  & I know I'm hard to love
  but can you do me a favor & just try?

  I’m just a girl standing in front of a boy asking him to love me.

  I want you in my life <3

  & He whispered to her,
  The only way I could ever hurt you
  Is by holding your hand too tight.

  You don't understand me, and you never will.
  So don't start that shit about knowing how I feel.

  Here I'm sitting [all alone]
  Waiting for someone to call my phone.
  And now I'll cry myself to sleep
  And wish that someone was thinking of me.. </3

  Doesn't it hurt to realise
  That everyone is out having fun
  While you're stuck at home
  And when Monday comes
  You know they'll all be talking about
  All the fun they had without you. </3

  She just wants to be loved <33

  Just because I smile*
  Doesn't mean I'm happy.*

  Do you ever get that feeling where you don't know?
  Where you don't wanna talk to anyone or don't wanna smile
  And don't wanna fake being happy
  But all at the same time you really don't know what's exactly wrong either?

  There's always gonna be that one thing you hate but can't change.
  That one mistake you can't take back
  And that one memory you'd do anything to have again.

  I'm alone in a crowded room
  I pretend to laugh when really, I'm crying inside.
  I hide the pain in a disguise
  But if you look closely
  You'll see it in my eyes..
  [I'm falling  a p a r t]

  Sick of people - No one's real.
  Sick of trying - What's the point?
  Sick of talking - No one listens.
  Sick of listening - It's all just lies.
  Sick of thinking - Just end up confused.
  Sick and tired - No one cares.

  Yeah I know there is always someone suffering more than you
  But that doesn't mean your pain doesn't count.

  Sexy is you pushing me up against your car in the pouring rain;
  And kissing me with the intentions of [[never]] stopping.

  I will be your accident if you will be my ambulance.
  I will be your screech and crash if you will be my crutch and cast.
  I will be your one more time if you will be my one last chance. <3

  You hug me close, I shut my eyes tight.
  You tell me it's gonna be alright
  You hug me closer, kiss my cheek
  Then my tears start to leak
  I open my eyes then realise it's true -
  I've fallen for -y o u-

  I want a boy:
  Who can wrestle with me
  And let me win.
  Who I can talk to about anything
  Who laughs at my jokes.
  A boy who puts my cold hands
  In his warm hoodie pockets.
  Who lets me use his sweatshirt
  For a pillow.
  Who buys me 25 cent rings,
  And sticky hands.
  Who says I love you & means it.
  Who will kiss me in the rain,
  In the sunshine, and in the snow.
  Who calls unexpectedly.
  Who will have many inside jokes
  With and me remember each one.
  A boy who notices girls haircuts.
  Who realizes that girls say things
  But don't always mean them.
  Who shows up at my games,
  Slipping in the door.
  Who I can go swimming with
  On hot days.
  Who can tell me his problems
  And let me help.
  Who will listen to me talk--
  About the new nail polish I got.
  Who will let me beat him up
  When I get angry.
  Who writes love letters to me,
  But doesnt send them.
  Who draws pictures and slips them
  Gently into my locker slot.
  Who saves his genuine, big smiles for me.
  A boy with deep eyes,
  That can see through faces into depths.
  Who gives me his t-shirt to change into
  And not expect to get it back.
  Who knows my favorite color, song,
  Car, vegetable, perfume and
  The color of my toothbrush.
  A boy who will shake my dads hand
  And look my mother in the eye.
  Who will call me by my full name--
  First, middle and last.
  A boy who will kiss me and
  Tell me I'm beautiful...
  A boy who will let me cry to him.
  Who will squeeze my hips just right.
  Who suprises me and compliments
  My manicure and plays with my hair.
  Who knows when I have a math test
  Or when I fail one.
  A boy who smells like
  He just stepped out of the shower.
  Who wears cologne that I can
  Smell when I'm leaning on his shoulder.
  Who tells me I have a nice laugh
  And a smile that lights up the room
  And simply be mine to hold...

  I don't want a "fling" or a two-week affair
  I want months of two people getting to know each other
  And falling completely in love <3

  can somebody show me
  the kind of affection that you
  only see in movies?

  she yells because she cares
  she cries because she's frustrated
  she wants to fix the problem
  she randomly smiles because she's thinking of you,
  even if you're already there.
  she scrunches her face because she's about
  to explode, not because she's constipated
  she hits you because she wants to touch you.
  she's flirting.
  she stares at you because she's fascinated
  she calls every half hour because she misses you
  she lectures you because she's boss, not mom
  she kisses you because she just wants to
  she asks you questions because she's curious,
  not to be annoying.
  she wants to know where you are to be with you
  she calls just to hear your voice
  she walks beside you to hold your hand
  she sits close to you to lean on your shoulder
  she stands in front of you because she wants a hug

  <3 So don't go worrying about me.. It's not like I think about you x__constantly___. Well maybe I do

  Through the wind & the rain
  Through the laughter & pain
  -----> count on me <-----
  And when life isn't fair
  And there's nobody there
  ------> I will be <------

  Let's go dancing
  And fall in love

  At least we can say we tried.
  And take comfort in knowing that
  If we both die alone tomorrow
  It's just the way that the stars aligned.
  I hope we both learned our lesson.

  And my heart,
  It is close enough to breaking
  That it hurts just listening to your song.
  It's been awhile now since you left
  And I can't seem to shake this lonely mood
  When the time comes I'll try my best
  Not to tell you
  "Please don't leave again.."

  I'm not saying I love him,
  I'm just saying that lately
  He's the only thing I can
  Think about

  The way you look at me
  makes me wonder if
  we could ever be ..

  Lately I'm alright
  and lately I'm not scared
  I've figured out,
  that what you do to me feels like
  I'm floating on air.

  I'm tugging at my hair..
  I'm pulling at my clothes..
  I'm trying to keep my cool I know it shows..
  I'm staring at my feet, my cheeks are turning red..
  I'm searching for the words inside my head
  Cause I'm feeling nervous
  Trying to be so perfect
  Cause I know you're worth it
  You're worth it ..

  I told him I loved him
  And the feeling was mutal
  He loved himself too

  & everyone knows
  I'm in over my head

  Maybe I'm a little bit over my head,
  I come undone at the words he says.

  oh,and for the record
  you mean the world to me

  don't take life too seriously ..
  no one gets out alive anyway.

  Life is about [ass]; we're either covering it, laughing it off, kickin' it, kissing it,
  busting it or just simply trying to get a [piece] of it.

  The best things in life are unseen. That's why we close our eyes when we [kiss].

  They all wanted to be her.
  Thinking her life was just perfect.
  She was pretty, popular and had everything.
  But what they didn't know
  Is she would give it all up
  For one peaceful night
  Where here dreams weren't haunted
  With memories of [h I m]

  How would you know if he really loves you?
  It's when you scream, he's calm.
  When you slap him, he kisses you.
  When you cry, he hugs you.
  When you tell him you hate him
  He tells you he loves you. <33

  Never doubt that I love you.
  I need you more than you know.
  I wish I could hold you forever and never let go.
  You prove it more everyday that we were meant to be.
  So believe me when I say "You're the one for me."

  The only thing better than the kiss itself
  Is the moment right before it
  When the look in his eyes leaves you breathless.

  I have slowly started to realise this is never going to end
  And when you start to talk to me, I think
  'Oh, here we go again.'

  And something has to be right about us being together
  Because if it wasn't, I don't think I would feel the way I do
  When you kiss me.

  Inspire me from the heart
  May nothing tear us [a p a r t]
  You're all I want in a man
  I put my life in your hands <33

  The world is going to throw us a million reasons
  Why this isn't going to work out between me and you.
  But what the world doesn't know is that I'm armed with the one reason why it will.
  I love you.

  It's okay to kiss a fool
  It's okay to let a fool kiss you.
  But never let a kiss fool you.

  It gets hard to trust anyone when everyone you ever opened your heart to has let you down </3

  I'll wait for you. But I won't wait forever </3

  --When you smile-- I melt inside
  I'm not worthy for a minute of your time
  I really wish it were only me and you
  I'm jealous of everybody in the room.
  Please don't look at me with those eyes
  Please don't hint that you're capable of * l I e s *
  I dread the thought of our very first___kiss
  A  t a r g e t that I'm probably_________gonna  m I s s.

  Wrote your name on a bullet...
  So everyone would know
  You were the last thing going ->through<- my head

  Behind my smile is a hurting heart
  Behind my laugh I'm [falling] apart.
  Look closely at me and you will see
  The girl [I am] isn't me.

  The girl who seemed unbreakable --> b r o k e
  The girl who seemed so strong --> c r u m b l e d
  The girl who always laughed it off --> c r I e d
  And the girl who would never stop trying --> F I n a l l y G a v e U p

  Teardrops fall from those pretty little eyes
  Kind of hard to move on when you're only told lies.
  She's breaking down, everyone's [f a d I n g]
  It's been so long and she's tired of w-a-i-t-i-n-g <//3

  Cry your hearts out, let it go
  Because after every tear comes a rainbow.

  She's sitting on a bridge
  Gazing at the water.
  She's too afraid to jump
  Yet so afraid to stay.

  Can't take it any more.
  Everyone thinks I'm indestructible
  The girl who never flinches
  The girl who always has a smile on her face
  The girl who's gone through nothing
  The girl who has no scars
  And I'm so tired of it
  I don't want to live behind a wall of laughter and smiles anymore.
  I want people to understand me
  I want people to understand how hard it is to be me
  And have to deal with all this crap
  And still be expected to be happy
  It's not fair.
  Why can everyone else just fall apart
  But I have to keep it together?

  She says "Don't worry, I'll be fine"
  As she fights back the tears one last time.

  Wanting him - Hard to forget
  Loving him - Hard to regret
  Losing him - Hard to accept
  Even with all the hurt I've  felt
  Letting go is the most painful yet.

  Just kill me already.
  That's what you're good at
  Everytime you don't look at me
  Everytime you don't smile at me
  Everytime you don't talk to me
  Yeah, you kill me.
  And you do it really well.

  She wipes the r u n n I n g [[mascara]] from her eyes
  As she whispers to herself
  I ' m N e v e r G o n n a B e G o o d E n o u g h </3

  The truth is
  We hide so we can be found
  We walk away to see who will follow
  We cry to see who will wipe away our tears
  And we let our hearts get broken to see who will come and fix them.

  So I took a ride to the city, had to get outta this place
  Because I just can't stand the looks of pity
  When they say your name and tears roll down my face.

  I'm so tired but I can't sleep
  Standing on the edge of something much too deep
  It's funny how I feel so much but can't say a word
  I'm screaming inside but I can't be heard.

  The pistol's shaking in my hands
  And all I hear is the sound
  I love you, I hate you
  I can't get around you
  I breathe you, I taste you
  I can't live without you.

  And she's just a stupid little girl
  With her hopes too high
  And feelings much too strong
  Especially for a boy like him.

  And it's not a cry that you hear at night
  It's not somebody who's seen the light
  It's a cold and it's a b r o k e n hallelujah.

  Maybe you would know how I feel
  If someone hurt you
  As much as you hurt me.

  Put the weight on my shoulders
  And the pain in my heart
  Tie the knots in my stomach
  And you'll let it tear me apart
  So tear me apart
  So I could be everything you need.

  The thing she hates most
  Is her own reflection.

  There's something about the look in your eyes
  Something I noticed when the light was just right
  It reminded me twice that I was alive
  And it reminded me that you're so worth the fight.

  I know I'm not perfect
  And I know I'm not gorgeous
  So deal with it.
  [[[Because I do everyday.]]]

  The way I feel about you
  I just can't explain
  It's the way my heart beats
  When I hear your name <3

  Here's to the nights that turned into mornings
  And the friends that turned into family.

  There's always a little [truth]
  Behind every 'Just kidding'

  Me without you
  Is like a nerd without b r a c e s
  A shoe without [laces]
  ASentenceWithoutSpaces.

  You grab my attention when you walk into view
  It could be past midnight but I'm still thinking of you
  I can't control the feelings you got me going through
  I want to be your baby... But that's all up to you <33

  >You just have to learn to >f.o.r.g.e.t< about the people
  Who f/o/r/g/o/t  about [y][o][u]<

  And when you hold me
  I don't feel so lonely anymore.

  And she really doesn't care what everyone else thinks about her
  Because she knows that her friends are the ones that really know her.

  He placed his head to hear her heart
  And whispered "This is my new favourite song" <3

  So bring on this hurt, I deserve this pain.
  Let me drown in my sorrow and die in my shame. </3

  You put on makeup to hide the tears
  You put on a smile to hide the fears
  You close your mouth to hide the pain
  And wish for it to go away.

  * What's the point of me being here
  If being me is what I fear? *

  Another sleepless night, turns colour black and white.

  That's where she lies. Broken inside.

  I cry myself to sleep, it's my lullaby </3

  I know I'm made of mistakes, disappointments and failures
  But I promise you
  There's actually a part of me worth keeping.

  Goodbyes hurt more than anything
  Especially when deep down you know
  You will never say hello again.

  He's the kind of guy who makes you love your name
  Just because of the way he says it.

  So tell me when you're gonna let me in
  I'm getting t I r e d and I need s|o|m|e|w|h|e|r|e to b*e*g*i*n

  Lovesick, bitter and hardened heart.
  Aching, w~a~i~t~i~n~g for life to s t a r t

  The bang in my head is my heart just trying to keep me a-l-i-v-e

  Sorry if I ain't perfect
  Sorry I don't give a -what-
  Sorry I ain't a diva
  Sorry, just know what I want
  Sorry I'm not a virgin
  Sorry I'm not a slut
  I won't let you break me
  Think what you want.

  I just don't understand why you won't talk to me, it hurts </3

  I'm not perfect. I'll annoy you, tick you off
  say stupid things, and then take them back
  But put all of that aside, you'll never find a
  girl who cares more about you than me

  Just once, I want to be hard to leave.
  i want someone to stay up all night
  thinking about me

  We met & I knew at first glance that you'd be hard to forget.

  I'm not a little girl anymore.
  I've learned who to trust and who to ignore.
  Some girls don't know a thing
  And a suitcase of drama is all they bring.

  It's weird how you say
  You hate the boy who broke your heart
  But when he runs back to you
  Your arms are wide open.

  You're dead and gone
  And there's nothing I can do about it.
  My whole life's gone wrong
  I'm going through some crazy shit.

  Oh, don't worry about her.
  She's always upset.
  She's always in love with someone who doesn't love her back.
  She's always heartbroken so she's fine.
  She's  u s e d  to it by now.

  The worst feeling isn't being lonely;
  It's being forgotten about someone you oculd never forget.

  So when the rest of the world turns their back on him
  Let him know that you're still there and that you always will be.
  And that your love for him will never change.

  These foolish games tear me apart
  Your thoughtless words are breaking my heart </3.

  My eyes burn from these tears
  I should have learned over these years;;
  Good things don't last forever.

  & it doesn't hurt to dream. It hurts more to wake up.

  & you think I'm so tough.. But I just never let you see me cry.

  & we are afraid to live, but scared to die.

  & everyone is dying to live, but living to die.

  Blood of crimson, wrists of red
  Will you miss me when I'm dead?

  Love is suicide..
  Suicide is a sin..
  Sins are forgiven..
  So push that knife in.

  & "I love you" doesn't have to be said to be understood.

  You'd never guess a girl
  So happy on the outside
  Is breaking down on the inside
  A girl who laughs her head of everyday in school
  You'd never guess she's covering up
  The million tears behind her smile. </3

  "Am I getting better or am I just used to the pain?"
  This is the way I'll pay back every last fucking tear you made me cry.

  I keep closing my eyes but I can't block you out.

  I'm so stupid to think that ever for a second that you cared.

  So together, but so broken up inside.

  Just because her eyes don't tear
  Doesn't mean her heart doesn't cry;;
  & just because she comes off strong
  Doesn't mean there's nothing w r o n g x3

  & I'm not gonna lie.
  I really like you. x3

  A teenager is a person who can't remember to walk the dog
  But never forgets a phone number.
  A weight watcher who goes on a diet
  By giving up candy bars before breakfast.
  A youngster who receives her allowance on a Monday
  Spends it on Tuesday
  And borrows it from her best friend on a Wednesday.
  Someone who can hear her favourite singer three blocks away
  But not her mother calling from the next room.
  A whiz who can operate the latest computer without a lesson
  But can't make a bed.
  A student who spends twelve minutes studying history
  And twelve hours studying for her driver's license.
  An enthusiast who has the energy to bike four miles
  But is usually too tired to dry the dishes.
  A young woman who loves the cat and tolerates the brother.
  A romantic who never falls in love more than once a week.
  A budding beauty who never smiles until her braces come off.
  A boy who can sleep till noon on any Saturday he suspects the lawn needs mowing.
  And an original thinker who is positive that her mother was never a teenager.

  There's nothing you can confess
  That could make me love you less.

  I can feel myself falling for someone new
  And it scares me, a lot.
  Because look what happened with you.

  Ten bucks says you'll be crawling into bed with me
  Putting your hands where they don't belong
  And ten bucks says you'll be putting your lips where they don't belong either.
  But ten bucks says I won't say no.

  Sometimes you gotta smile and walk away
  Hold your tears in and pretend you're okay.

  If one day you realise that I haven't talked to you in a while
  It's not because I don't care anymore.
  It's because you pushed me away.

  & it really starts to hurt
  When I start pretending that it doesn't.

  Stay strong my darling
  And hold on tight
  Never give up, and
  Brace yourself for tonight.

  It's a tragedy how they believe her lies
  All those fake smiles
  And every utterance of "I'll be fine."

  You think I'm happy but I'm really not
  My smile must be the best lie I've  got.

  Another ((C.u.T.T.e.R)) another  f|r|e|a|k
  Another DoRK another [g e e k]
  Another {{p r e p}} another --j o c k--
  Another whore & (*m 0 r e  PuNK RoCK*)
  Another <hater> another "G"
  Another  s c a r  they [put oN me]
  Another (l a b e l) that happens to [f . a . l . l]
  When (n o  o n e) really knows the person {{at all}}.

  Emotion is my middle name
  I lie in bed and listen to the rain
  Put happy thoughts inside my head
  But I find instead the hurting words you said.