I have no motivation to live anymore....well, at least no positive motivation anyway.  I've never wanted to die as much as I want to die right now.  I have no life.  I wake up, read a little, go to work, come back from work, read a little more, go to sleep, wake up, read a little, go to work, etc.....I have no friends.  I have nothing to motivate me.  I have nothing in the future to look forward to.  Getting back into college is pretty much a lost cause.  I might as well forget about ever getting married, cuz no one wants to marry someone who's gonna be forever stuck in minimum wage jobs for the rest of their life with no future.  I absolutely HATE where i live.  I hate all these cocksucking Bible-beating, Protestant, George W. Bush-worshiping, inbred, ignorant fucking hillbillies.  I wish with all my heart to give up my belief in the Apokatastasis for the sake of such people cuz i truly wish these people to spend an eternity in utter hell, CUZ THAT'S WHERE THEY'RE GOING.  I want to die.  I truly want to fucking die.  I'm so fucking sick of life.  I have nothing to look forward to.  The only reason I am still alive is because of fear: the fear of hell.  That's the ONLY thing that keeps me going....that and my insecurity complex which drives me to keep "trying" in life so that I can defeat my insecurity complex by going to college.  If I go to college, THEN a woman will want me, and then I can get married.  But right now I'm a fucking stupid worthless piece of no-good shit.  I can't make ends meet.  No matter how hard I try or how hard I work, I cannot make enough to get my own place or to get a decent car or even to see a psychiatrist.  It's a completely meaningless existence.  There's absolutely no end or raison d'etre in sight.  NONE...whatsoever.  I just make enough to maintain my own meaningless existence (and that even hardly).  I CAN'T EVEN SEE A FUCKING PSYCHIATRIST!!!  Look what these worthless white-trash, Fascist, "Christian", patriotic hicks are doing to our country!!  Poor people can't even see a fucking doctor!!  Now look what your stupid fucking "laissez faire" economic policy has done to our nation!!  We are the most backwards nation on the planet.  I truly hope al-Qaida comes and takes over America.  I hope they take all these rich "Christian" mother-fuckers and slit their fucking throats and let them flop around having seizures...I would grin at the sight of their tremendous torment.  I would just love to see how these people would finally feel actually BEING POOR.....

fuck this shit...I'm outta here.

there's a guy at work I want to kill....tonight I am going to bring a knife with me and sink it into his fucking throat......cocksucking faggot.

I want to slit my fucking wrists....I'm so fucking sick of life.  I hate God....Jesus doesn't give a flying fuck about me and neither does anyone else.  I'm worthless....I'm ugly...I'm stupid...I'm boring and have no sense of humor....I'm the most worthless person on the mother-fuckin' planet.

I want to renounce my faith in Christ cuz Christ doesn't, has never, and never will do shit for me cuz he doesn't care about me......fuck Christianity...fuck Christians.....fuck all ya'll hypocrites.....i'm done.

MR. BOSS-MAN

Mr. Boss man's always eyein' me

Mr. Boss man, why don't you let me be

Mr. Boss man won't let me go

Mr. Boss man has my throat

Mr. Boss man is everywhere

Mr. Boss man says, "Don't you dare"

Mr. Boss man is in the mirror

Mr. Boss man is the desire in my fear

Mr. Boss man takes all I got

Mr. Boss man sure has a lot

Mr. Boss man on the shelf

I fear Mr. Boss man more than God Himself

Mr. Boss man's always eyein' me

Mr. Boss man, why don't you let me be

Mr. Boss man in the fire

Mr. Boss man is the fear in my desire

Who is Mr. Boss man?

Mr. Boss man could be the wavelenght band

Mr. Boss man inhibits my making

Mr. Boss man's got me breaking

Mr. Boss man is the cold

Mr. Boss man's been there since I was old

Mr. Boss man's always eyein' me

Mr. Boss man, why don't you let me be

Mr. Boss man is perpetually there

Mr. Boss man hears no prayer

Mr. Boss man is out in the streets

Mr. Boss man's got me beat

Who is Mr. Boss man?

I think Mr. Boss man is the Ku Klux Klan

Mr. Boss man might be a Guelph

I fear Mr. Boss man more than God Himself