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Sunday, February 12, 2006

Sun, 12 Feb 2006 15:15:14 GMT

Alright, so i was obviously pretty upset the last time i wrote in this thing. Let's see if things are going a little better this time. . .

So, there isn't a whole lot going on right now. I found a really awesome church down here in portsmouth since i live down here. It's Christ Community Center. Although, i don't believe it's the church itself, but more the awesome friends and bible study that we have on wednesdays. I've grown so much closer to God since i've been down here. It's Awesome! Let's see, i'm still in search for a job down here so i picked up an application for Praises. Hopefully that'll work out, because it'd be awesome to work in a christian atmosphere for once. . . Hmm, let's see, i'm still single. I've been single for like 9 months and it sux, but i've learned to realize that i don't need a relationship. Though i'm not exactly 'looking and searching' for a relationship. I wouldn't turn down an opportunity if it presents itself, ya know what i mean :) . . . In the middle of winter quarter right now and this Chemistry class is about to kill me. I didn't think it was going to be this hard, so hopefully i'll survive it. Ya never know though. . lol . . So i'll try to keep this updated a little more often. Take Care Ya'll

Friday, January 13, 2006

Fri, 13 Jan 2006 02:11:06 GMT

Needless to say i'm shocked and appauled. . . but should i be. I mean, should i actually expect for someone to say they're different, act like they are different, but to truly be different. Nah, i don't think so. Especially someone who just kinda hops into your life like a train passing from station to station, then without warning hop off and wonder into the next town. Yes, i agree, i should've known better and i shouldn't have been so blind. Nieve i think would be the better word. Yet, i am/was/did,. . . whatever. So, now i realize that it was another chance for god to say, "Adam, are you truly focused on me like you say you are . . .? Let's find out, shall we." Once again i found myself putting just a lil too much faith into human, as opposed to it all for my God. I seem to be good at taking nose-dives off of those mountains i'm standing on, kind of unconsciously i suppose because i sure don't do it on purpose. That's for sure, haha. So here i stand, right smack dab in the middle of my next valley and i realize that i have started to set up camp here. This, of course, not a good idea either. So i'm going to set fire to everything keeping me here, do my best to start walking in faith. Only not so easily distracted this time.

Special Thanks to God for not giving up on me as i stumble(once again), big ups to my friends allison and jessica for helping me through this. Also, my homeboy colter, sorry i didn't let you know sooner bro.

Sunday, January 08, 2006

Sun, 08 Jan 2006 19:32:45 GMT

WoW! i don't think words exist that can be put together to describe how unbelieveably awesome my weekend has been. I am so thankful to God. Moving to portsmouth and transferring schools to shawnee has been the best thing that has ever happened. I have grown so much closer to God, and have made so many awesome christian friends. Not to mention meeting Stephie. She is, by far, the coolest person i ever did meet ;) Ya know how people always say that when you meet that person, you just know. I used to call that a bunch of crap. But as irrational as it sounds, It's True! And, for all of you that haven't experienced that yet, you are in for one heck of a treat. Tis pimp!

Tuesday, December 20, 2005

Tue, 20 Dec 2005 05:39:57 GMT

As always it's been quite a while since i have written on here. So here goes . . .

First thing first, i just want to thank god for all that he does for me everyday. . . recently i had stumbled in my christian walk . . . nothing big just a little out of focus, so any of my friends that happened to see . . . Please forgive me, because i'm not perfect . . . just forgiven.

We had our christmas play at Mt Tabor this past sunday and it was awesome. Wasn't very long, but quite effective. Also, my brother brought his family so i was entirely thrilled about that . . . been praying for him for quite some time now. He'll be back, i just know it.

So, i'm still single. . . of course, who on earth would want a creature like me. Yet, one of my friends seems to have run across a certain individual that they think would make a great match with me. Naturally i was interested (i mean, i'm not getting any younger, c'mon, lol) so they showed me a picture and she was VERY attractive . . . More than likely she'll end up being out of my league because i simply don't have much to offer, but it sure is a nice thought and certainly something for me to pray about. Hopefully i'll get the chance to meet her some time soon . . . i know i'm looking forward to it.

Best for Last: Pray for Snow, all i want is for us to get snowed in just once. i mean we're talking a couple feet of snow. i love the winter. It's the best! I feel like a lil kid when i see those big snow flakes a flyin. Good Stuff! . . . i mean, winter is basketball season, Christmas(and all the great things that go with christmas, such as: Plays, Songs, Nativities ...), New Years, SNOW!!!! i love it, i mean what's not to like.

Monday, November 28, 2005

Mon, 28 Nov 2005 04:18:54 GMT

so here i am again . . . an endless amount of space to write whatever my heart desires. this could include my deepest wishes, my darkest secrets, or even those words that i would never dream of speaking out loud. here i can talk about where i want my life to lead me in the next five years, two years, or week. i could mention every star i've wished upon and every mistake i've regretfully been a part of. there are so many things out there that i don't know about and so many questions that i cannot even begin to fathom because of the chasm of knowledge the seperates me from them. where do i begin to speak of the endless capabilities that present itself in a lifetime, including every opportunity that i've unmistakenably past up. i could talk about every fork of every road that i've come across in life. though choices whether they be good or bad come with a consequence. it's amazing how great of an opportunity this could be for me to finally reach those vessles that has aimlessly wondered for so long. . . but yet. . . i have nothing to say. . .

KATIE IS MY BEST FRIEND EVER FROM BURG- if it wasn't for this individual, my page would never be updated, thanx katie jo ;) you my girl

Tuesday, November 22, 2005

Tue, 22 Nov 2005 17:38:21 GMT

wow i haven't been on here for quite a while . . . and as you may be able to see from my comments i had some people upset with me, lol. . . oops.

so what's been goin on you ask. . .? where do i begin. . . i certainly do not have a relationship stories to tell you because i simply do not have a girlfriend. And i'm ok with that, i used to let it bother me pretty bad because i'm the kind of person who rather enjoys having someone there, but now i'm just waiting on god to provide. I mean, that's what it's all about anyways, god should come first and then everything else down the list. . . moving on. . . Monday has probably been one of my most intersting days since my last post. Started the day off waking up at seven because i have a class at eight. So i just closed my eyes for a few minutes and i look back at the clock and it's past nine. Generally i would've been a little upset, but it's been the first class i have missed in two quarters so i guess it'll be ok. From there i got ready and i traveled down to portsmouth to meet two of my closest friends, colt harrington and allison adams. At this point you may think that i was just going to hang out with them for the day since i skipped class, but no, it's better than just that. They directed me toward the admissions office where i began my transfer process. After walking back and forth across the campus from office to office, within a couple of hours i was officially going to be a Shawnee State Bear for winter quarter! I am excited because me and most of my friends that i graduated with will once again be Reunited!

Also. . . Last week we had an amazing revival at Mt. Tabor Church. Dare i say the best i've ever been a part of! Truly it was an amazing experience and if anybody out there is reading this and they don't have a church in the chillicothe/waverly/beaver/piketon area. . . then you need to check us out because we would love to have you! so that's it for now and i am going to do my best to continually keep this updated.

Wednesday, November 02, 2005

Wed, 02 Nov 2005 01:34:38 GMT

I can't be losing sleep over this, No i can't and i cannot stop pacing. Give me a few hours and i'll have this all sorted out. If my mind would just stop racing. I cannot stand still. I can't be this unsturdy. This cannot be happening. This is over my head, but underneath my feet, because by tomorrow morning i'll have this thing beat. I wish that it was just that easy. I am waiting for tonight then waiting for tomorrow and i am somewhere in between what is real and just a dream. Would you catch me if i fall out of what i fell in. Don't be surprised if i collapse down at your feet again. I don't want to run away from this. I know that i just don't need this. . .

Monday, October 31, 2005

Mon, 31 Oct 2005 19:44:41 GMT

Since the moment I spotted you
Like walking round with little wings on my shoes
My stomach's filled with the butterflies... and it's alright
Bouncing round from cloud to cloud
I got the feeling like I'm never going to come down
If I said I didn't like it then you know I lied

Every time I try to talk to you
I get tongue-tied
Seems like everything I say to you
Comes out wrong and never comes out right

So I'll say 'why don't you and I get togehter and take on the world
and be together forever
Heads we will and tails we'll try again'
So I say 'why don't you and I hold each other and fly to the moon
and straight on to heaven
Cause without you they're never going to let me in'
And slowly I begin to realize this is never going to end
Right about the same you walk by
And I say 'Oh here we go again'

When's this ever going to break?
I think I've handled more than any man can take
I'm like a love-sick puppy chasing you around
And it's alright
Bouncing round from cloud to cloud
I got the feeling like I'm never going to come down
If said I didn't like it then you know I lied

What a great song, reminds me of so much, lol. . .

Monday, October 31, 2005

Mon, 31 Oct 2005 11:49:01 GMT

So i haven't wrote anything since wednesday, so this will probably be rather long, especially with the awesome weekend that i've had. All i can say, is that god truly answers prayers. . . Let me begin:

Thursday of last week while i was here by myself at my apartment, i broke-down, mentally and emotionally. It was like my spirit had ripped itself in two pieces. I cried out to god because i couldn't handle being alone anymore. So i prayed that if it be his will, then to send me somebody because i couldn't keep going and fooling myself like i was doing fine by myself. Though i know i was never truly alone, because he is always with me, but i reached a point where i needed someone here on this earth to love me. This went on for a few hours and then i believe out of physical weakness i just fell asleep.

i wake up the next morning and go through the motions and head off to classes. That night i travel back home from my apartment here in Nelsonville to meet up with two of my closest friends, Colt Harrington and his g/f Allison Adams to go to a football game at Huntington High School. Those of you that know me, know that i don't completely think things through most times and just keep going. Well, if you were out doors on friday night then you know that it was pretty stinkin cold. So, stupid me don't even bring a coat with me to the game and i'm sittin up in the stands with a long-sleeve thermal shirt and a t-shirt over top of that. Brilliant, i know. So, we decide to go get hot chocolate to possibly help get rid of some of the cold and we run into, Hollie Engelman. I've met hollie before and though she was a sweetheart before and all of us stood there and talked for a few minutes and then got our hot chocolate and colt, allison and myself returned to our seats in the stands. The longer i sit there, the colder i get and then i begin to shake, so i tell them that i am going to have to make a friend or something because i'm going to freeze to death here at the football game. Allison says, go get hollie to come up here. So i thought about it a second and realized that that was a great idea. so i downed the hot chocolate i had left and headed back to the concessions hoping that she would still be standing down there. . .

I get there and she's still there, (Thanks God), so i motion for her to come over and we stand and talk a few minutes and i ask her if she would like to come up there and sit with me because i am about to freeze. Seemed like a good idea to her so she comes back to the seats with me. (Grining from ear to ear now), . . . and this is only the beginning. So, as we are sitting there i slide close to here and wrap an arm around hers and stick my hand in her coat pocket where her hand already is because my fingers are seriously about to fall off! It was at this moment that i seen her through different eyes. Suddenly everthing was different from that point on. It was like i was sitting next someone completely different than a few minutes ago. As she was getting up to leave i asked her if i would see her tomorrow(saturday) because i was going to be at her aunt and uncles house. She said that i would and she and i both parted with smiles on our faces.

Short Intermission story now: So that night, colt harrington and myself, being the avid ghost hunters that we are, pitched a tent in a cemetary. We had talked about it about a month earlier and were just joking but then everyone began to doubt our courage, so we had to save our pride so we pitched a tent and stayed the night in it. The temperature that night got down into the 20's and we froze our tails off, but we stayed there all night long. Got some pretty cool pictures with us, the tent, and head stones all around. The cemetary we stayed in is the one behind "Hollie"'s aunt and uncle's house.

Back to the original broadcast: So Saturday we(colt, myself, kirsti, and kirk) are all hanging out in the house watching tv and i had about givin up hope that hollie was going to call or better yet come over, so we were getting ready to leave and no sooner than we headed for the door, low and behold hollie calls. so i made myself comfortable again, lol. I got to talk to her some and she said that she would be over there later that evening and that i should come back over. So i did, Of course i did, i'd be stupid not too!

So once i get back we(myself, kirsti, kirk, krysta, and hollie)(kirsti, kirk, and krysta are all hollie's cousins and friends of mine at church) all goofed off most of the evening, we took a walk in the cemetary, had a huge marker fight, and then played car tag/hide-n-seek. We had so much fun and me and hollie really seemed to get close. When we were together it was like we had known each other forever. it was amazing, truly. So, that night as i walked her back out to her car, we stood there and talked a few minutes and exchanged phone number, then she gave me a big hug and we left. So as i'm driving down the road thinking about how awesome that this is and just reflecting on how great my weekend has been so far, guess who calls. That's right, you guessed it, Hollie! So we get to talk on the way home and i am just having so much fun getting to know her.

It really never hit me what god had done until sunday morning when i got up in service and testified about how god had picked me up when i broke down this past thursday. As soon as i sat back down, i realized that god had answered my prayer. Now, i'm not saying that hollie is the answered prayer, but i'd sure like to think that someday. Right now i am just having a blast getting to know her. I am so amazed because this girl is Beautiful, a blast to be around, and a christian. Three aspects that is almost impossible to find anymore. So right now i am prayin that god's will be done and not my own. A very hard thing to do, but that's how it should be and if this is god's will then all i can say is "HALELUJAH!!"

sorry for such a long post, but i just had to put it on here. It's been the best thing that has happened to me a in LONG time. Keep it real, but Keep it God!

Wednesday, October 26, 2005

Wed, 26 Oct 2005 20:23:41 GMT

After certain research, i think that all emily and i are going to end up being are friends. Which is cool, because nobody can have too many friends, at least that's how i feel.

So, college is going great. I love the classes and the new friends i've made, because most of them are about as goofy as i am. Well i really don't have anything that important to say, so i'll just leave you with that. . .