fearless....

is it just me, or there moments in life where all of the lessons you learn in all unrelated facets of life seem to come together until you reach a great epiphany and go....DUH!!!! it all makes sense now...all of these separate entities have finally come together and i now realize what this lesson is that i am meant to be learning.

V for Vendetta did that for me tonight. i went and saw it with amy and fi, and let me tell you...it was great to see amy again ;) truly.

but, back to the lesson at hand....if you've seen it you know, or maybe if you've seen it you don't, or know something completely different...but here are some of the thoughts that were impressed upon me:

1. paradox. in effort to break free from the totalitarian governments credo of "unity" they were forced to be united.

2. fearlesness.  i won't give this away for those who have yet to see it...but, it honestly made me, with where i am in life, desire imprisonment as a result of religious persecution. i have been learning what it means to have true faith. to believe in the power of the trinity that i claim to follow. to trust it. to have true faith in it's power is a very humbling and fearless thing to do. i believe in an all powerful God, so why do i not act like it? why does my faith not reflect that in action, in feeling, and in prayer?

this movie honestly made me think. in combination with other lessons i have heard, and lessons God has laid on my heart it was used to seal and confirm some revealing truths about my character.

i am so inspired. i want to be fearless, and although it's scary to think of the tests that  i may go through to form this character, i am ready and willing.

BRING IT ON.

Currently listening: Lost and Gone Forever By Guster Release date: By 28 September, 1999

$50

Current mood: exhausted

fi and i had a great night. an early one, but great. she has to work at 8 a.m. so we played it low key.

we started at taco mac in the highlands: not quite what we wanted, but we didn't quite want anything else. our server was a total sweetheart. i love meeting genuinely nice people. she had beautiful hands. then we walked to get ice cream, and fell in love with "beth and blake" from ben & jerry's, then walked all around the highlands window shopping and such...

but, something really sad happened at taco mac. we noticed the manager speaking to a cop as we were sitting on the front patio. they talked for quite some time, until finally the cop went in and brought a guy, who'd been inside drinking, outside and handcuffed him. there wasn't a lot of comotion. people tried to mind their business, but they patted him down and put him in the back of the car. i noticed when he was walking outside with the cop, he looked a little wobbly, so i assumed he was on drugs or something.

come to find out, the man went in downed 10 beers or so, plus a few liquor drinks in an hour and a half, then told the server to call the cops because he didn't have any money.

when we found out this was why he was going to jail, we felt so bad for the guy. a couple of nights in jail for a fifty dollar tab. can you think of the number of times when you've spent this plus some without a thought in mind? well, this guy took a shot at it, willing to go to jail! how absolutely heartbreaking...can you imagine having a problem so great or a life so meaningless that a couple of drinks are worth nights in jail?

if i'd had the money, i would've paid the guy's tab. seriously. if i was the manager, i would have comped it and told him i would do so if he promised never to do that in my establishment again.

i guess it's moments like these that i realize the great mercy and grace i've been shown in this life. and just how lucky i am.

maybe this is an act of God's mercy to this guy. maybe he's safer in jail during the storms that are supposed to come then he would have been wherever else he was staying?

all i know, is if i was that guy and i went knowingly into a situation that i wasn't going to pay i sure as heck would have gone nicer than taco mac, and i sure as heck woulda chowed down on some good food!

yippee!!!

so, i'm getting a bonus at work this month. cause they think i'm awesome. and i didn't know ANYTHING when i started. how cool is that?! probably cause fiona prayed for our daily bread on the way to work this morning. that excites me.

AND they are going to promote me after crazy march is over. i will be a closer. a lot more responsibility and a raise.

i had no idea.

happy valentines!

so.......you have $5 and want to make someone feel special.

what do you do?