i'm back.
i know it's been more than a month.
i've gotten back from germany with pneumonia.
after deciding whether to keep this site running or not,
i'm going to post and just give me some feedback.
let me know if you still want me around.

this post means a lot to me.

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these nights seem to last forever.
and maybe i’m wrong, but it feels like i’m so lost without you.




when is enough, when is too much?
you're too far away to touch.
inebriation's just a crutch, i can't stand up.
my belly aches and i lost my lunch.
please put down that cigarette,
these situations solve themselves.




it feels like sand between my toes.
this goes to show, what you can do if you just let go.




i’ve tried forgetting but that didn’t seem to work.
so i've come to terms with who you are and who you’ve been.
your past doesn’t make you or decide who you are.
and i know you’re not sorry, but i’ve forgiven you.




don’t hold onto your past.
there’s a reason that it’s not coming back.




"you’re the closest thing i have to bring up in conversation about love that didn’t last. but i could never call you mine, because i could never call myself yours. it’s not that our love died, it just never really bloomed. i can’t let go of you, though. you’re holding me back without even trying to. i can’t let go. i can’t move on from the past. without lifting a finger, you’re holding me back. we didn’t die; we just never had a chance to grow. it might not make much sense to you or to any of my friends, but somehow you still affect the things i do."




here's to the moment where we didn't think
about right and wrong, where we just lived,
crossed our fingers, and hoped for the best.




it's just another day picking up the pieces baby.
trying to find a reason not to go and give it all away.
cause every time you’re missing
well i'm feeling like i'm losing part of me.




you're onto me and all over me.




i'm falling away, away from your arms.
that kept me so close to the things that i love.
i'm holding it back, take me back to your heart.
a place to remember i'll always be yours.




wherever you are i hope that you're happy tonight.
and maybe you found someone who will love you right.
i'm desperate to say now i need you more than ever
but all i could say was goodnight.




call me a safe bet, i'm betting i'm not.
i'm glad that you can forgive.
i'm only hoping as time goes, you can forget.




i'm not sorry i met you, i'm not sorry it's over,
i'm not sorry there's nothing to save.




i know the timing isn't great
but these things you just can't plan.
i just need a little time so i can find myself again.




let's lock the door and hide the key.
i'll try to look like you if you'll dress up like me.
and you play dumb and i'll play too, nobody has to know.
i wanna see my heart's reflection in your eyes.




it's those unsaid goodbyes and the millions of lies
and the fact that you just don't care.
hurt and regret, i shouldn't let you get to me but you do.




drunk on shadows and lost in a lie.
killing ourselves a kiss at a time.




maybe it's time i walk away.
what's a month mean when i'm still lost inside the summer?
i could never stand the fall, sweatshirts and Christmas.
i need short skirts and kisses.




i'm still pretty but i feel like a car crash.
pull me over to the side of the road.
i dont need you but i hate that you feel like home.
if this is what you want to be then be it without me.




tonight we will re-ignite sparks that flew
but burned out and died then justified us to say goodbye,
but not tonight not this time.




we're not the same, as we used to be.
the seasons have changed and so have we.






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the posts get longer cause i'm leaving soon.
and i won't be able to update in germany.
so let's have more feedback on these.



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a disease of the mind, it can control you.
i gotta get out or figure this shit out.
it's too close for comfort.




after this, you'll never touch me again.
so get what you can out of this last night.




it seems that every word i say don't mean a thing.
tonight we're gonna make all the headlines.
it's so damn hard to push my pride to the side.




so we talk for hours, and awkward leave.
to say goodbye without a kiss would be the end of me.
someday when we have gone too far
not saying what our intentions are.




i wish i could just keep turning back time.
forgive me, i can't try any harder.
you make it seem like everything i do means nothing at all.
as complications go this can't get any sweeter.




we're gonna pull myself together, bring me back to you.
let me know that you're still the one that i hold onto.
i know it wont be long but i can't go on without you.




it’s so old but it’s not easy to say good-bye to all this heartache.
to just say no, to run away, endure pain.
and suffocate every desire that hurts you.




you feel like heaven when we touch.
i guess for me this is enough.
we're one mistake from being together.
but let's not ask why it's not right.




you see the longer that we wait,
the more time things will take.




i'm getting unsure with my eyes on yours.
everything starts to shake, i can't wait for love.
i can't shake this feeling, i'm letting go of everything.




(long, but i can completely relate)

left your t-shirt in my room, still smells of you.
and the picture you hung on the door lay smashed,
picture perfect, explains now clearly - nothing left but a memory.
we only made out, you never kissed me.
that's how I learned to hold back all feeling.
wait, please don't go, i won't stay, all these words on replay.
i'm okay, it's alright, good to know that you're fine.
pretending everything is right to make it better.
i'll line my make-up smeared eyes to show that i tried.
somehow you have managed to get under my skin, more than anyone ever did.
and if every hole makes a scar and every scar marks its place,
then i will never live freely without your trace, and it'll never be fair.
i wrote my songs for you and you never even cared.
so i'll forget you, i'll wash your t-shirt, kill the pillow and cut you out of pictures.
wait, please don't go, i won't stay, all these words on replay.
and this drama-filled fest, all my fault i guess.
but you told me pretending is for the best.
and i held out as far as I could go - do you miss me?
i'd really like to know, if you're left with a feeling i let go.
you are just a feeling i let go.



if you tell me yours i'll tell you mine.
and we will clean the cobwebs out of one another’s minds.
don't ever say you've tried to leave me in this life,
and don't ever say you've tried for the last time.




i was just living in the moment,
and the moment was all about you.




i’ve been oh so scared to lose you and holding on too tight.
you forgive me in a heartbeat of this heart that beats for you.
well tomorrow’s a new day and i can’t wait to prove myself to you.




you're running through my veins.
you feel like a freight train.
i'm trying everything to keep my hands off of you.





and every move you make, makes a difference.




wearing inside-out underwear and an outside-in smile.
i'm just waiting for my heart attack but it could take a while.
it's too early for the day to break and too late to try again.
my make-up makes a different face but the mirror's not my friend.




i'll pull on your hair if you'll pull on my hips.
bring me closer because i need to feel you all over.




when i forgive your mistakes you won't have a clue.
it's true we both flew fast to meet for being just human.
so things are gonna get bumpy but even mountains do.
you're good for me and i'm too good for you.




you're so good at stretching the truth into a sugar coated lie.
everyone takes a bite, i've been dining with the enemy.
it was a wolf in sheep's clothing now it's so clear to me.




lately, you make me weaker in the knees.
race through my veins everytime you're close to me.
take me away to places i haven't seen.
they say you've got a hold on me and i won't disagree.





comments please :)

i'm ready for summer to come.
i'm ready to just get the hell out of here.
hope you all are enjoying the quotes.



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don't ever part your lips just follow my lead,
and focus on the rhythm of my hips.
fingertips say more than i ever could.





this feels so right but you're all wrong.
the lights are off but you're turned on.




i hope you know you've made a lasting impression.
these thoughts of you tonight are well worth the mention.
i'll stay up again i can leave the lights on for you.
you'll find your way back home.




this town will never see it coming.
dressed like that you’d get away with murder.
ditch the car and hit the ground running.
this is just a taste of summer.




drink this down and drown your hopeless mood
and for once in your life breathe in and tell the truth
these drunken words are sober thoughts.




i think of you and it's alright.
well it's this sort of thing that gets me to lose my mind.
and it's the flash, flashy eyes that make it worthwhile.
every time when we get together we just fall in love again.




i throw away everything i've written you.
anything, just keep my mind from thinking.
how i had you once, no i can't forget that.
sometimes i wish i could lose you again.




i was the one who said things have changed,
but you were the one who showed me how much they really had.




fighting back the impulse to turn my head and close my eyes.
spending these nights awake and cold and paralyzed.
and i know you're hurt, but i can help you if you can help me.




i know i've been a liar and i know i've been a fool.
i hope we didn't break yet, but i'm glad we broke the rules.
my cave is deep now, yet your light is shining through.
i cover my eyes still all i see is you.




kindly unspoken you showed your emotion,
and silence speaks louder than words.
i'm lucky i'm clever, cause if i didn't know better,
i'd go by only that which i'd heard.




so teach me the rules,
and i'll teach you how to break them.




your love just kept me wondering.
well maybe i'm just tired of never knowing.
i know i'm not good enough for you.




i can't seem to stop this now even if it's not clear.
i'll take what i can get if you want me here.
when you whisper you want this, your eyes tell the same.
we are gaining speed, i can barely breathe.




i wish i could rip out a page of my memory.
cause i put too much energy into him and me.
can't wait until i get through this phase cause it's killing me.




such a mystery when hes here with me.
it's hard to believe i'm still lonely.
chances fading now, patience running out.
this isn't how its supposed to be.




put on your break lights you're in the city of wonder.
ain't gonna play it nice watch out you might just go under.
better think twice they're trained to follow the alter.
so if you must falter be wise.



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feedback isn't doing so good lately.
and for the people who wonder, i'm better.
oh and i updated a new profile picture.


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just stay we both know you want a taste.
and i just don’t have the time to waste.
it's true, i'll stay if you ask me to.
i'm not going to lie to you.




you're exactly what i need.
not like it matters anyway.




reduce it down to good intentions that lost their meaning
now you're sleeping sound,
there's not a million reasons to leave me.




another drink or three,
Jack Daniels is the only friend i've got tonight.
don't blame it all on me.
it seems wrong to end this with another fight.




now we can’t stop i think i like it.
we could take it all off and i don’t want to fight it.
because you know we can’t stop even if we wanted.
we could take it all off and finish what we started.




how can you just give up, is it that easy?




what the hell is going on tonight?
it seems i'm stuck in game mode
the settings are hit it and quit it,
don't go home alone tonight.




and so i'm leaving this message on your phone.
were you just too busy or just not home?
and i'll leave a message after the tone.
and i'll hope for the best but prepare for the worst.




she's the air you try to breathe, the happy ending you try to see.
and she's the reasons you make up to try to get over me.




how dare you say it's nothing to me?
baby, you were the only light i ever saw.
i'll make the most all the sadness,
you'll be a bitch because you can.




none of that was true, leaving was easy.
it was everything else that was so damn hard.




i dare you to forget the marks you left across my neck.
from those nights when we were both found at our best.
i could make this obvious, you could deny me in a breath.




i’m not coming back i'm closing the door.
i used to be trippin’ over missing you but i’m not anymore.




so cut me down again we’ll call it perfect then.
and you might know how it begins
but you’ll never guess just how this one ends.





you could shrug me off your shoulders.
and i don't think you know what you've been missing.
just forget me. it's that simple.




another chance and i'll bet you waste it.
one line and it erased the last good thing about you.
so here's just another phrase i'll never repeat.
punctuated by the rhythm of your heartbeat.




our hands touch as the record plays.
my heart stalls as you call me name.
you touch your hair and i do the same.
we’re both nervous that they’re on to us.




comments please.

sorry it's been such a while.
i haven't been on my computer to update.
all i ever post anymore is quotes that relate to me.
i apologize, they're never very happy quotes at that.


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this is too much, don't call it love.
you are the reason it's so hard to trust.
this isn't what i wanted and now its got to stop.




i laugh to laugh for once so you notice i'm gone.
i dream to make sleep less boring, until there was you.
i feel in the absence of heart and plug my eyes to cry.
i'm a hopeless romantic and kicking the habit.




after all this while,
i really expected things to go back to normal.
and i wanted things to get better,
but you never really left my mind all this time.




i would give away my sweetest memories
if i could just be with you again.
i have been holding my breath for too many nights in a row.




so one last touch and then you'll go,
and we'll pretend that it meant something so much more.
but it was vile, and it was cheap.
and you are beautiful, but you don't mean a thing to me.




sleep with your head against the sky tonight.
i can't count how many times you have made me cry.
i marvel at the way your hair glows in the light.




we spent most of our time talking about nothing,
but i just want to let you know that all of these nothings
have meant so much more to me than so many somethings.




so since i'm not your everything, how about i'll be nothing.




i'm cuddling close to blankets and sheets.
but you're not alone, and you're not discreet.
make sure i know who's taking you home.




so many nights, legs tangled tight.
wrap me up in a dream with you.
close up these eyes, try not to cry.
all that i've got to pull me through is memories of you.




i forgot to mention the way i feel.
the way i’ll always remember this.
when we’re young we have nothing to lose.




face to face fumbling all the words to say,
hiding feelings that Iidon't want showing now.
i was useless and stupid for thinking i’d get over you.




wherever you are i hope that you're happy tonight.
and maybe you found someone to love you right.
i'm desperate to say now i need you more than ever.
but all i could say was goodnight.




last night i dreamt you were with me,
and finally i could breathe.





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