i'm back.
i know it's been more than a month.
i've gotten back from germany with pneumonia.
after deciding whether to keep this site running or not,
i'm going to post and just give me some feedback.
let me know if you still want me around.

this post means a lot to me.

&!


these nights seem to last forever.
and maybe i’m wrong, but it feels like i’m so lost without you.




when is enough, when is too much?
you're too far away to touch.
inebriation's just a crutch, i can't stand up.
my belly aches and i lost my lunch.
please put down that cigarette,
these situations solve themselves.




it feels like sand between my toes.
this goes to show, what you can do if you just let go.




i’ve tried forgetting but that didn’t seem to work.
so i've come to terms with who you are and who you’ve been.
your past doesn’t make you or decide who you are.
and i know you’re not sorry, but i’ve forgiven you.




don’t hold onto your past.
there’s a reason that it’s not coming back.




"you’re the closest thing i have to bring up in conversation about love that didn’t last. but i could never call you mine, because i could never call myself yours. it’s not that our love died, it just never really bloomed. i can’t let go of you, though. you’re holding me back without even trying to. i can’t let go. i can’t move on from the past. without lifting a finger, you’re holding me back. we didn’t die; we just never had a chance to grow. it might not make much sense to you or to any of my friends, but somehow you still affect the things i do."




here's to the moment where we didn't think
about right and wrong, where we just lived,
crossed our fingers, and hoped for the best.




it's just another day picking up the pieces baby.
trying to find a reason not to go and give it all away.
cause every time you’re missing
well i'm feeling like i'm losing part of me.




you're onto me and all over me.




i'm falling away, away from your arms.
that kept me so close to the things that i love.
i'm holding it back, take me back to your heart.
a place to remember i'll always be yours.




wherever you are i hope that you're happy tonight.
and maybe you found someone who will love you right.
i'm desperate to say now i need you more than ever
but all i could say was goodnight.




call me a safe bet, i'm betting i'm not.
i'm glad that you can forgive.
i'm only hoping as time goes, you can forget.




i'm not sorry i met you, i'm not sorry it's over,
i'm not sorry there's nothing to save.




i know the timing isn't great
but these things you just can't plan.
i just need a little time so i can find myself again.




let's lock the door and hide the key.
i'll try to look like you if you'll dress up like me.
and you play dumb and i'll play too, nobody has to know.
i wanna see my heart's reflection in your eyes.




it's those unsaid goodbyes and the millions of lies
and the fact that you just don't care.
hurt and regret, i shouldn't let you get to me but you do.




drunk on shadows and lost in a lie.
killing ourselves a kiss at a time.




maybe it's time i walk away.
what's a month mean when i'm still lost inside the summer?
i could never stand the fall, sweatshirts and Christmas.
i need short skirts and kisses.




i'm still pretty but i feel like a car crash.
pull me over to the side of the road.
i dont need you but i hate that you feel like home.
if this is what you want to be then be it without me.




tonight we will re-ignite sparks that flew
but burned out and died then justified us to say goodbye,
but not tonight not this time.




we're not the same, as we used to be.
the seasons have changed and so have we.






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