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Sunday, September 07, 2003

Sun, 07 Sep 2003 19:15:38 GMT

lemme tell you whas crackin in my life right nows and why dah fuck im doin all dis shit...

ever since sko0 started all dis bull shit has been comin bac tah meeh. all dis shit wif my mama and my auntie and my uncle. meeh my sistah and my brothah fuckin fight all dah fuckin time nows. ill tell you dah shit wif my brothah and sistah first. my brothah dont got my bac for nuttin...he keeps callin meeh bac and its gettin hayl old. it doesnt really seem like he my brothah, it jus seems like...he's jus a ro0mate in dah house. my sistah, she gottah baby bo0 now and im hayl watchin aftah her cuz i dunno. im scared dat her bo0 ish gon fuckin force her tah do sumthang dat she dont wannah do. and he fuckin thinks he's so fuckin hard and shit. so im jus watchin out for her but i guess she dont want meeh to yahno. i really care about her on dah reals...even tho i be fuckin gettin hayl pissed at her at times i do love her and my brothah to0. my auntie and my uncle...dey ish fuckin pissin meeh dah fuck off. my auntie tol meeh tah ask kujo if he could rent out a ro0m to us and she sayed its onlee tah bring yall togethah, and i sayed its onlee bcuz you dont want us in your house no more. i really cant wait till im fuckin old enough tah get a job...so i could save up for a car and fuckin save up for my own place. dey be tellin meeh dat ima be jus like my mama wen i grow up and i wannah prove dem wrong so bad. my mama ish gon be dah one on her knees beggin for a place tah stay in dah future and i knoe it. my auntie lets meeh go out yahno...but den my uncle ish dah one who tells meeh tah be home at 1o wen dah thang starts at 9. i really cant fuckin stand his bitch ass. we fuckin clean dah fuckin house wen dey fuckin tell us to. fuckin wash our own dishes wen dey tell us to. but dey dont fuckin wash dere own dishes. i dunno, dey fuckin pissin meeh off. now lets get started on my mama. damn.....ever since sko0 started meeh and my mama been fightin non stop.all she fuckin wants ish money.and she be fuckin tell hayl ppl dat money aint everythang but das all she wants.right nows i knoe dat she fuckin loves her bo0 more den her own kids.she wont fuckin pick us up from sko0 sometimes cuz her fuckin bo0 needs tah fuckin get picked up from work or her bo0s daughter needs tah go tah sko0. first of all he could fuckin wait a liddle bit longer tah get picked up aftah work. she wont even fuckin pay for my fuckin fees at sko0. i havent even bought my sko0 uniform yet. she dont give us fuckin allowance. she fuckin puts all dis shit on meeh dat i dont need right nows wen sko0 ish jus starting. dah reason why i fuckin smoke ish tah fuckin blaze and get high so i dont haftah fuckin think about all dis bull shit das goin on in my life.cuz wen im fuckin high everythang goes away and im fuckin free. i could go tah sleep wif no fuckin worries. i knoe ppl be hatin on meeh cuz i be smokin but yahno...i try tah stop cuz i knoe its bad for meeh..but it takes everythang away from meeeh. i cant even fuckin consontrate on sko0 cuz all dis fuckin bullshit.i really fuckin hate my life.i would switch my life wif neone right nows...i would even fuckin switch my life wif a bum....at least i dont got family tah fuckin worry about. dis shit ish fuckin irritatin meeh....ppl say dat my life aint really dat bad but it ish. everyday i fuckin punch sumthang tah fuck up my knuckles so i put all my fuckin anger into dah fuckin punch....right nows my fuckin knuckles are fuckin bruised up fuckin purple and aftah i punch sumthang i cant fuckin clench my fist cuz it fuckin hurts to0 much and it fuckin shakes and trembles but its all go0d. no biggy. i want it tah hurt. instead my fuckin heart. my fuckin mind. all dis shit ish coming bac every since sko0 started and i dunno how dah fuck tah take it away. dis ish my last weblog for nows....if nethang important comes up den ill write in hurre...but its gots tah be hayl important. if your all dah way down hurre cuz you read dah whole thang..thx!!! i love yall and thx so much for always havin my bac. payce.

Tuesday, August 26, 2003

Tue, 26 Aug 2003 01:27:03 GMT

My BaDs YaLL FoR NoT wRiTiN YeStErDaY DiDnT HaVe TiMe..So iLL LeT YoU iN On WaT WaS CrAcKiN YeStErDaY iiGhT NiGgAhS? YeStErDaY WaS Ko0. iT WaS DjS ThUrD BdAy AnD We WeNt TaH ChUck E ChEeSe AnD aLL EvErYoNe WaS pLaYiN WaS BaSkEtBaLL HahAHa. DeN We WeNt TaH RoXyS HoUsE FoR BbQ AnD TaH OpEn Da PrEsEnTs. We WaTcHeD Da WaTeRbOy iT WaS hAyL FuNnY. We GrUbBeD DeN We SaW Dj OpEn aLL HiS GiFtS. He GoT hAyL SkRiLL oN HiS BdAy. pRoLLy $3oo SkRiLLs. HahAHa. DeY WaS aLL ScReAmiN "COUNTERSTRIKE MONEY!!!" i WaS LiKe YaLL iSh AdDiCtEd TaH DaT GaMe. NeWaYs i GoT HoMe At 9 3opM AnD i WaS tRiNnA Go TaH sLeEp BuT i cOuLdNt CuZ i UsUaLLy Go TaH sLeEp At 4 YoU KnOe. So i WeNt TaH sLeEp At 3aM AnD WaS WoKeD At 5aM. i LeFt My HoUsE At 6 3o AnD Da FiRsT PeRsOn i SaW FrOm Da CrEw WaS JeFf. MiChAeL LiNcH WaS WiF HiM. JeFf AiNt No SkAtEr No MoRe. He An aSiAn. i DuNnO iF YoU cOuLd CaLL HiM GaZn CuZ He Ko0. i AiNt GoT No cLaSsEs WiF HiM Th0. fUcKiN Bo0tY. My ScHeDuLe Be 1.) eNgLiSh WiF MiChAeL LiNcH AnD GaY AsS JeReMy BiTtOn 2.) sPaNiSh WiF NiKki 3.) PhOtOgRaPhY WiF LaNi, SuNnY, AnD eMiLy bErLaNd 4.) JoUrNaLiSm WiF AaLiA AnD aShLeY MiELE 5.) GeOmEtRy HoNoRs WiF AbRaHaM AnD hAyL SoPhMoReS i tHiNk...YeAh 6.) kEyBoArDiN WiF BrEnDa AnD aLeXiS 7.) pRiN oF sCiEnCe WiF JoMoNt 8.) PE WiF tAyLoR AnD AnJeLiCa. i SaW hAyL PpL ToDaY WeN i WeNt TaH BeCkEr AfTa Sko0... i MiSs DaT fUcKiN Sko0 sHiTtTtT!!! i GoTs TaH MoVe On ThO. My sPaNiSh TeAcHeR iSh hAyL TiGHt. ShE hAyL GhEtTo On Da rEaLs. My PhOtOgRaPhY TeAcHeR WaS LiKe We GoN HaVe A PaRtY iiGhT. Ne FiLiPiNoS? i rAiSeD My HaNd. He WaS LiKe pAnCiT? i WaS LiKe o0oKaY. He WaS LiKe YuM YuM... i WaS LiKe NaW NaW. HahAHa. My EiGhTh GrAdE aLgErBrA I HoNoRs TeAcHeR SaYeD DaT ShE GoN PuT MeEh iN ReGuLaR GeOmEtRy BuT i GuEsS i GoT PuT iN HoNoRs. Ko0 Ko0 i GuEsS. DaT sHiT GoN Be HaRd On Da rEaLs. i WaNnA TaLk TaH My BaBy Bo0 DaRyL. i HaVeNt HuRrD HiS vOiCe iN So LoNg. i HoPe We TaLk So0n. iN Sko0 ToDaY i Lo0kEd At DiS GuY AnD He LiCkeD HiS LiPs i WaS LiKe Oh hAyLS No!!! HahAHa... i GoTs MeEh A MaN AnD i LoVe HiM. i tHiNk OnCe My BaBe GoEs TaH HiGh Sko0 He GoN BrEaK Up WiF MeEh CuZ DeRe BeTtEr DeN MeEh. wHiCh iSh TrU!!! i OnLeE GoT 2 HoUrS Of sLeEp LaSt NiGhT AnD DeN i AcCiDeNtLy FeLL AsLeEp At tAyLaS HoUsE. i WaS KnOcKeD OuT. oN Da rEaLs. Oh YeAh... BeFoRe i BoUnCe i JuS WaNnA TeLL DaT sHiT TaLkEr TaH SteP OfF iiGhT!!! PaYcE OuT NiGgAhS!!!

Saturday, August 23, 2003

Sat, 23 Aug 2003 22:58:39 GMT

YeStErDaY AfTa We pLaYeD cS At GeNaS HoUsE We WeNt TaH buFfEt @ aSiA On ChEyEnNe. DeN We WeNt BaC TaH GeNaS HoUsE rEaL qUiCk. DeN We WeNt TaH Da mEeTiN At AtEh aRaBeLLaS HoUsE. DeN AfTa DaT SoMe PpL WeRe ArGuEiN AbOuT MoNeY AnD sHiT...DeY AcT LiKe DaT sHiT iSh EvErYtHaNg. NeWaYs!!! We WeNt TaH pLaNeT PC TaH pLaY cS AgAiN...i hAyL SuCk At DaT GaMe. At LeAsT i CaN GeT SoMe KiLLs ThO. SoMe PpL Be TaKiN My KiLLs ThO. BUT NEWAYS... i tHiNk i GoT HoMe ArOuNd 4aM. Da Do0r WaS aCtUaLLy OpEn. So i WeNt iNSiDe CaLLeD SaM BuT ShE WaS iN Da BaFr0oM SuPpOsiBLy. DaS WaT DeY ToL MeEh. DeN i CaLLeD Up AtEh BiMbEe BuT ShE WaS sLeEpiN So i LeT HeR Go. My BaBe CaLLeD YeStErDaY To0. i WaSnT HoMe Th0. My MaMa CaLLeD AnD i ToL HeR DaT i JuS GoT HoMe. My MoM iSh hAyL TiGhT Th0. i ToL HeR DaT i SnUcK OuT AnD sHiT...AnD WaT HaPpEnEd AnD EvErYtHaNg. ShE WaS LiKe DaS WaT YoU GeT FoR NoT TeLLiN DeM. i WaS LiKe o0oKaY!!! DaMn...Sko0 StArtS iN 2 DaYs...Da FuCk MaN!!! gOiN BaC TaH sko0 bRiNgS BaC So MaNy MeMoRiEs...aLL Da Go0d TiMeS...aLL Da BaD TiMeS aLL Da DrAmA AnD sHiT...i WaNnA Go BaC AnD NeVeR LeT iT EnD, BuT DeN AgAiN i wOuLd HaVe NeVeR TaLkEd TaH DaRyL..MeT BNP...aLL DaT sHiT. BuT NeWaYs...iTs GoN Be DiFfErEnT NoWaDaYs. Da OnLeE PpL i KnOe WhO's gOiN TaH PaLo iSh SuNnY, JeFf, AnD MoSeS. Da OnLeE PpL WhO WaS iN Da oRiGiNaL AzN CrEw DaT ArE gOiN TaH PaLo iSh MeEh AnD SuNnY. IT AINT GON BE DA SAME!!! sHiT... i MiSs EiGhTh GrAdE. WeLpS... iMa HaFtA MoVe On. HuRrE GoEs SoMe PiCs FrOm SKo0 AnD sHiT...

SuNnY, AbRaHaN, AnD JeFf...Da LaSt DaY oF Sko0

SaNdY, JeFf, AbRaHaM, AnD SuNnY...LaSt DaY oF Sko0

GeOgRaPhY cLaSs... i ALWAYS sLePt iN DaT cLaSs

MeEh. KeViN. MiCheLLe. GeNa. JeFf. MoSeS. SuNny. LaSt PiC TaKeN At Sko0

jEsSiCa, jAzZi, AnD MeEh...BeFoRe Da EiGhTh GrAdE DaNcE...YeAh i WaS iN A DrEsS BuT WiF SoMe BaSkEtBaLL ShOeS Fa ShO!!!

HuRrE GoEs SoMe PiCs oF MeEh NoWs

MeEh @ aDiNg rEiNaS HoUse

MeEh @ aDiNg rEiNaS HoUsE TaLkiN On Da FoNe WiF My NiGgAh MiKe

MeEh @ aDiNg rEiNaS HoUsE TaLkiN oN Da FoNe WiF My NiGgAh MiKe AgAiN

rEiNa, MeEh, AnD SaM sMiLiN KiNnA

rEiNa, MeEh, AnD SaM sMiLiN

rEiNa And MeEh iSh dAwGiN BuT SaM iSh KiNnA sMiLiN HahAHa

rEiNa WiF HeR ToNgUe OuT Lo0kiN hAyL Go0fY, MeEh AnD SaM FiNnA KiSs...HahAHa UnLeSs YoU WaNt Us TaH KiSs YoU!!!

rEiNa Lo0kiN Go0fY, MeEh WiF My ToNgUe AnD BiG AsS EyEs, AnD SaM tRiNnA Lo0k SeDuCtiVe...HahAHa

SaM AnD MeEh BeSt fRiEnDs Fa ShO!!!

DaS aLL FoR NoW...MaYbE NeXt TiMe AgAiN

Saturday, August 23, 2003

Sat, 23 Aug 2003 01:31:47 GMT

SoMe BiTcH AsS NiGgA iSh TaLkiN sHiT iN My XaNgA!!! WhOeVeR Da FuCk YoU ArE StEp Up BiTcH...STOP BEING A PUSSY!!! NeWaYs...LaSt NiGhT i SnUcK OuT ArOuNd 1o:4o. i WeNt OuT WiF KuYaH JoE, StEeVo, MiKeY, AmAnDa, KeNnEtH, GeNa AnD JiMbO. DeY DiDnT KnOe DaT i SnUcK OuT ExCePt GeNa. We WeNt TaH Da bAtTiN CaGeS AnD i pLaYeD DdR AgAiN. DeN AfTa DaT We MeT Up WiF KuYaH SeAn At SuNcOaSt. DeN We bOwLeD DeN AfTa DaT We WeNt TaH pLaNeT X TaH pLaY cS. i SiGnEd On FiRsT. DeN AfTa DaT i WeNt On AIM DeN i SiGnEd OfF DeN pLaYeD cS WiF EvErYoNe. AfTa DaT KuYaH JoE DrOpPeD MeEh OfF At HoMe. Da GaRaGe Do0r WaS LOCKED!!! i WaS hAyL SkErD. i WaS ThRoWiN RoCkS At My BrO's WiNdOw FoR LiKe 3o MiNuTeS. DeN AfTa DaT i WaS Lo0kiN iN Da GaRaGe FoR a SpArE KeY, BuT DeRe WaSnT OnE. DeN i WaS tRiNnA PiCk Da LoCk WiF A pLaStiC RuLeR. i aLmOsT PeE iN My PaNtS, BuT i FoUnD A BuCkEt AnD i PeE iN DeRe. HahAHa. At 5:3oaM i WeNt iN My aUnTiEs CaR AnD i WaS SiTtiN iN DeRe. DeN i FeLL AsLeEp. DeN i tHiNk iT WaS 6:3oaM AnD i GoT Up AnD i HuRrD SuMtHaNg...iT WaS Da cHiMeS On Da GaRaGe Do0r. i WaS LiKe OH SHIT!!! DeN i SaW My uNcLe AnD My AsS WaS LyiN DoWn iN Da BaC SeAt. DeN AfTa DaT i HuRrD My uNcLe OpEn Da GaRaGe...DeN i HuRrD HiM OpEn HiS CaR Do0r...DeN iT ShUt. DeN He PuLLeD OuT AnD i HuRrD Da GaRaGe cLoSe. I DIDNT GET CAUGHT!!! i WeNt iNSiDe ToL My SiStA WaT HaPpEn DeN i WeNt TaH UsE Da BaFr0oM. DeN i SaW My Br0s Do0r OpEn. DeN i WeNt DoWnStAiRs AnD i FoUnD OuT DaT He LoCkEd Da Do0r. i WaS So MaD. CuZ i WaS iN Da GaRaGe iN Da CaR AnD iT WaS fUcKiN HoT iN DeRe. ToDaY My MaMa CaMe AnD ShE SiGnEd PaPeRs FoR Sko0. DeN We WeNt TaH ROSS TaH ReTuRn SuMtHaNg. DeN We WeNt TaH TaRgEt TaH GeT My MeDiCiNe AnD CoUgH DrOpS. ShE WaS TaLkiN To SoMe GuY AnD i WaS LiKe MoM...Da FuCk YoU aLrEaDy GoT A MaN WhY YoU TaLkiN To AnOtHa OnE? DeN i tHiNk Da GuY WaS AsKiN HeR WaT TyPe oF GuY ShE LiKe AnD ShE SaYeD rOmAnTiC TyPe. i WaS LiKe MoM...CaN YoU NoT TaLk AbOuT DiS? YoUr EmBaRaSsiN MeEh!!! DeN ShE WaS LiKe Oh SoRrY. AfTa TaRgEt i WaS SiCk Of DiS GuY i WaS LiKe ...MOM YOUR MINUTES!!! ShE WaS LiKe i GoTtA Go...i GoTtA Go Do SuM ThAnGs. i WaS LiKe YuP. DeN We WeNt TaH MiKkY D's DeN ShE DrOpPeD MeEh TaH GeNaS HoUsE. We pLaYeD cS DeN i WeNt OnLiNe...DeN We GoN pLaY cS AgAiN So PaYcE OuT NiGgAs!!!

Friday, August 22, 2003

Fri, 22 Aug 2003 00:15:51 GMT

DaMn...iM fUcKiN SiCk YaLL...My EyEs ArE WaTeRy, My NoSe iSh RuNnY, AnD My ThRoAt iSh StUfFeD LiKe A TuRkEy!!! DaT WaS KiNnA KoRnY! i GoT SiCk YeStErDaY AnD iM sTiLL SiCk...DiD YoU KnOe i DiD SuMtHaNg i DiDnT tHiNk WaS pOsSiBLe...i To0k A ShOwEr wHiLe TaLkiN On Da FoNe!!! GuEsS WhO i WaS TaLkiN To? My AtEh BiMbEe!!! i WaS aLL SaYiN GuEsS WaT iM dOiN NoWs? AnD ShE wOuLd GuEsS...AnD OnE TiMe i SaYeD GuEsS WaT iM dOiN..AnD ShE SaYeD WrApPiN A ToWeL ArOuNd YoU. i SaYeD No...iM StAnDiN NaKeD!! HahAHa..FuNnY sHiT RiGhT DeRe!!! i DiDnT HaVe A Go0d sLeEp LaSt NiGhT...i KePt On WaKiN Up AnD My SiS sToLe My bLaNkEt FrOm MeEh...AnD My TeDdY MiKe FeLL...DaS pRoLLy WhY i cOuLdNt Go TaH sLeEp CuZ i aLwAyS sLeEp WiF MiKe... BuT NeWaYs...ToDaY i AiNt SoUp LiKe My KuYaH eRiCk AnD My KuYaH bEnJi SaYeD... At LeAsT SoMe PpL CaRe AbOuT MeEh. i FoUnD OuT DaT My NiGgAs MiKe AnD ReYgEn iSh CoMiN On Da 29tH. Da SaMe DaY WeN RyAn iSh CoMiN HuRrE...AwWw DaMn...DuNnO WaT iMa Do CuZ!!! i HaFtA KiCk iT WiF BoF oF DeM WeN DeRe DoWn HuRrE...DeY CoMiN DoWn On A fRiDaY. DaS Go0d CuZ At LeAsT i AiNt iN Sko0 YoU KnOe!!! So i cOuLd SpEnD TiMe WiF DeM...i HaVeNt GoN OuT ThUrEe DaYs sTrAiGhT...ToDaY i WaS BoUtS TaH Go OuT BuT 1.) i WaS SiCk AnD 2.) My SiStA WaS PiSsiN MeEh OfF...So My MaMa AnD My SiS ArE gEtTiN SoMe cLoThEs FoR MeEh. Sko0...sHiT Go0d AnD BaD...CuZ NoT Da wHoLe CrEw iSh GoN Be DeRe. i WaNnA GiVe A ShOuT OuT To DeM FoR aLwAyS bEiN DeRe FoR MeEh. STEPHEN CHANTHARA, JASON CHOA, SUNNY CHENG, RANDAHL SANTOS, DAVID TOTTEN, AND MEEH OF COURSE. Da oRiGiNaL CrEw WaS STEPHEN CHANTHARA, JASON CHOA, SUNNY CHENG, JUDY KOZMER, EUGENE MARTIN, RANDAHL SANTOS, DAVID TOTTEN AND MEEH OF COURSE. JuDy AnD MeEh WeReNt Ko0 No MoRe AnD ShE aLsO TrAnSfErEd Sko0s. EuGeNe TrAnSfErEd Sko0 As WeLL. WeN HiGh Sko0 StArTs We GoTtA MaKe A wHoLe NeW CrEw. iTs GoN fEeL DiFfErEnT CuZ iT AiNT Da oRiGiNaL AzN CrEw No MoRe. iTs JuS Da AzN CrEw.i HoPe DeRe AiNt No OtHa GiRLs iN Da CrEw CuZ DeEs ArE My BoYs AnD i GoT DeRe BaCs... i DoNt tHiNk DeY CaN TrUst Ne OtHa PiNaY LiKe MeEh YoU KnOe!?! i JuS WaNnA SaY ThAnKs FoR aLwAyS bEiN DeRe ORIGINAL AZN CREW!!! Sko0 StArTs MoNdAy AnD i DuNnO WaT cLaSsEs i GoT YeT. WeLpS...FiNnA BoUnCe CuZ My FiNgAs ArE gEtTiN TiReD. PaYcE OuT NiGgAs!!!

Thursday, August 21, 2003

Thu, 21 Aug 2003 00:25:23 GMT

iM So BoReD BuT HaPpY To0!!! LaSt NiGhT "AuGuSt 19tH 2oo3" ...11:57pM...MeEh AnD DaRyL vErGoNiO StArTeD TaH Go OuT. He'S My BaBy Bo0 AnD i LoVe HiM So0o0o0o MuCh. i aLwAyS tHiNk AbOuT HiM AnD LaUgH CuZ We WeRe FiGhTiN TaH SeE WhO WaS GoN AsK EiThA OuT. i WaNtEd TaH AsK HiM BuT He WaS LiKe..."AiNt DaT Da GuYs JoB?" i WaS LiKe...i AsKeD OuT 5/8 GuYs DaT i WeNt OuT WiF. So We JuS DeCiDeD TaH AsK OuT EiThA. KiNnA KoRnY BuT i sTiLL LoVe HiM. iM So0o0o BoReD RiGhT NoWs...i DiDnT Do nUtTiN YeStErDaY AnD i DoNt tHiNk iMa Do NeThAnG ToDaY. DaS FuCkEd!!! fUcKiN Bo0tY!!! My NiGgAs MiKe AnD ReYgEn GoN CoMe DoWn HuRrE AgAiN BuT i DuNnO WeN. ToDaY i WaNnA SaY HAPPY 16TH BIRFDAY JIMMY!!! fUcKiN Sko0 StArTs On MoNdAy AnD i fEeL LiKe gOiN CuZ iTs BoRiN At HoMe BuT DeN i DoNt WaNnA Go CuZ iM NeW. aLL i KnOe iSh DaT iF SoMeOnE fUcKiN MeSsEs WiF MeEh Or ThRoWs sHiT At MeEh CuZ iMa fUcKiN FrEsHmAn DeRe AsS GoN GeT SmOkEd. On Da rEaLs...DiS PiNaY AiNt fUcKiN ArOuNd. DiS GoEs To My NiGgA SuNnY AnD MoSeS To0. YoU fUcK WiF DeM YoU FuCk WiF MeEh. PaYce OuT NiGgAs!!! I LOVE YOU BABE!!! AuGuSt 19tH 2oo3 11:57 PaCiFiC TiMe!!!

Wednesday, August 20, 2003

Wed, 20 Aug 2003 01:21:49 GMT

DaMn... i cOuLd NeVeR LeT Go Of DiS TeDdY BeAr. i DeCiDeD TaH NaMe HiM MiKe To ReMiNd MeEh Of Da MeMoRiEs. iM sTiLL wAiTiN FoR "AuGuSt 22nD 2oo3" i CaNt wAiT!.:.! YeStErDaY i DiD aLoT. AfTa FaTiMa MeEh, KuYaH JoE, KuYaH SeAn, cAtHeRiNe, aShLeY, JoHnSoN, pAuL, MiKeY, AmAnDa, GeNa, JiMbO, AnD StEeVo WeNt TaH ScAnDiA AnD HiT SoMe BaLLs iN Da bAtTiN CaGeS. iT WaS MaD TiGhT. BuT DeN WeN Da BaLLs wOuLd HiT Da BaT iT wOuLd Go To My HaNd AnD iT wOuLd fUcKiN HuRt. DeN i pLaYeD DdR MiX 4. Da SoNgS SuCkEd ThO. i HaTe DoZe SoNgS. i WaS fUcKiN sWiMmiN iN My SwEaT. DaS HoW fUcKiN HoT iT WaS AnD HoW fUcKiN HaRd i WoRkEd. KuYaH JoE KePt On SaYiN i WaS A FrEaK DaT i WaS hAyL Go0d At DdR. DeN AfTa DaT JoHnSoN AnD pAuL LeFt. DeN MiKeY, AmAnDa, GeNa, JiMbO AnD StEeVo LeFt. DeN We WeNt TaH DrOp OfF aShLeY BuT KuYaH JoE WaS LiKe LeTs Go EaT BrEaKfAsT At Da OrLeAnS. So We WeNt TaH aShLeYs HoUsE So ShE cOuLd TeLL HeR PaReNtS DeN We WeNt TaH My MaMa'S HoUsE So MeEh AnD My SiStA cOuLd GeT SoMe SkRiLL. Da BaD ThAnG FrOm DaT iSh DaT i DoNt LiVe DeRe No MoRe AnD ShE MaDe MeEh ThRoW Da GaRbAgE. i WaS LiKe Da FuCk!?! DeN We WeNt TaH Da OrLeAnS AnD i GoT My TwO pLaTeS As UsUaL AnD i WaS gEtTiN hAyL PiSsEd At OuR SeRvEr. DaT NiGgA!!! i AsKeD FoR A Sp0oN He GaVe MeEh A FoRk. i AsKeD FoR a ReFiLL He NeVeR CaMe BaC. DeN i aLmOsT DiDnT GeT aLL My Fo0d. i WaS LiKe...WhErEs My PaNcAkE SaNdWiCh? He WaS aLL LiKe Oh YeAh!!! i WaS LiKe fUcKiN DuMbAsS! AfTa BrEaKfAsT We DrOpPeD OfF aShLeY DeN We HeAdEd HoMe. GoT HoMe At 3aM i tHiNk. ToDaY i WoKe Up ArOuNd 1 3o Or 2oo. i GoT On Da CoMp AnD DeN AtE DeN iM HuRrE RiGhT NoWs. FiNnA BoUnCe. iF YoU WaNnA PeEp At Da PiCs MeEh, rEiNa, AnD SaM To0k DeN iM MeEh AnD AsK iiGhT DeN. PaYcE OuT NiGgA!!!

Monday, August 18, 2003

Mon, 18 Aug 2003 23:11:13 GMT

DiS Be My NeW XaNgA CuZ i WaSnT fEeLiN Da OtHa OnE. i WaSnT fEeLiN Da NaMe. DiS_ShAwTeE_TiNa?!? FuCk DaT sHiT! HoLLaH At DiS BaLLaH iSh hAyL TiGhT! DaMn...So MuCh fUcKiN sHiT iSh gOiN oN RiGhT NoWs i DuNnO HoW TaH fUcKiN dEaL WiF iT! i HaFtA Ch0oSe BeTwEeN TwO PpL WhO ArE rEaL SwEeT TaH MeEh. i rEaLLy DoNt WaNnA HuRt NoBoDeE, BuT LiKe My NiGgA ReYgEn SaYeD..."Ch0oSe Da OnE YoUr HeArT LeAdS YoU To." YaLL KnOe WhO YoU ArE...AnD iF YoUr rEaDiN DiS AnD YoUr NoT Da OnE My HeArT ChOsE iM rEaL SoRrY...My HeArT KnOeS BeSt. i sTiLL WaNnA Be Ko0 WiF YoU BuT YoU HaFtA LeT MeEh. iF YoU GoN Be ShAdY AnD NoT Be Ko0 WiF MeEh DeN i GuEsS DaS My fAuLt. LiKe i SaYeD iM rEaL SoRrY AnD DaT i DiDnT MeAn FoR DiS TaH HaPpEn.iM rEaLLy HaViN A HaRd TiMe WiF DiS sHiT AnD iTs iRRiTaTiN! i rEaLLy LiKe BoF oF DeM AnD i DoNt WaNnA HuRt DeM. i DoNt HaVe DaT MuCh TiMe TaH Ch0oSe. i OnLeE HaVe TiLL AuGuSt 22nD 2oo3. DoNt AsK WhY. ToDaY i HaFtA Go TaH FaTiMa At KuYaH JoEs. i HaVeNt BeEn wRiTiN bLoGs CuZ XaNgA iSh aLwAyS DoWn. Da OnLeE ReCeNt ThAnG iSh Da LuAu AnD SoMe NiGgAs FrOm fRiSkO CaMe DoWn TaH VeGaS AnD MeEh rEiNa AnD SaM KiCkEd iT WiF DeM. On fRiDaY i WaLkEd FrOm My HoUsE TaH rEiNaS HoUsE To Go AnD KiCk iT WiF My NiGgAs FrOm fRiSkO. ReYgEn MaRkUs AnD MiKe. DeY LeFt AnD MeEh AnD rEiNa OrDeReD PiZzA. DeN SaM CaMe AnD We To0k PiCs. i GoT DeM iN My FaP! iT WaS FuNnY CuZ MeEh AnD rEiNa WaS SaYiN TaH DaWg iN Da PiC AnD DeN Da NeXt ThAnG YoU KnOe MeEh AnD rEiNa iSh dAwGiN AnD SaM iSh sMiLiN! WaTtA GaY! DeN i AsKeD MiKe TaH CoMe BaC WiF ReYgEn AnD MaRkUs CuZ DiS wOuLd Be Da LaSt TiMe i wOuLd SeE DeM iN A LoNg TiMe. So DeY CaMe AnD We WeNt TaH CiRcUs CiRcUs. MiKe WoN MeEh StUfFeD aNiMaLs. So SwEeT! DeN We DeCiDeD TaH WaLk Da StRiP BuT DeN We DeCiDeD TaH JuS KiCk iT iN Da VaN AnD YeAh. Do SoMe sHiT. DeN We HaD TaH DrOp SaM OfF. DeN We WeNt TaH SaM's ToWn AnD DeY bOwLeD. DeN DeY WeNt TaH SoMe pLaCe TaH EaT BrEaKfAsT BuT MeEh AnD rEiNa StAyEd iN Da VaN TaH sLeEp. DeN DeY CaMe BaC AnD We DiDnT Go HoMe We StAyEd At Da HoTeL WiF Da GuYs. StUfF HaPpEnEd DeN Da NeXt DaY rEiNa WeNt HoMe AnD i WeNt TaH KuYaH JoEs HoUse To HeLp OuT FoR Da LuAu. Da LuAu WaS TiGhT. i HaD A Go0d TiMe DiS WeEkEnD BuT i rEaLLy LiKe DaRyL. iVe KnOwN HiM FoR So LoNg AnD We'Ve BeEn TaLkiN FoR So LoNg! i rEaLLy LiKe HiM AnD MaKiN DiS DeCiSiOn iSh rEaL HaRd. iF YaLL DoNt EVEn WaNnA TaLk TaH MeEh No MoRe DeN iTs Ko0. iLL UnDeRsTaNd DaT iT WaS My BaD. BuT JuS TaH LeT YoU KnOe iT fEeLs Go0d TaH HaVe YaLL iN My HeArT. iM SoRrY FoR Da WrOnG i DiD AnD i HoPe YoU cOuLd fOrGiVe MeEh. PaYcE OuT NiGgAs!