the thing that hurts me the most is knowing that we were once something, but finally realizing that it's all gone. i'm thankful that i can at least be your friend and that i still have the privillage to still cruise with you but i can't. i only get mixed messages and i don't know what to think. as the days go by it seems like i can't even make you happy at all. maybe i should just let you go for good so you wouldn't have to worry about me. you would have one less thing to worry about and it wouldn't even be a problem. i'm sorry about everything and i wish the best for you. just remember, there's no other guy that'll be able to take your place and i can guarentee it to you. like i told you i won't be able to love anybody the way that i love you and you know i'll love you forever and you're always on my mind. i hope you find that someone that'll make you the happiest person in the world and treat you good. take care and take it easy.

.:[*RacheL LOVES HenrY*]:.

hmm.. oh! thank you for helping me realize that i can still live life without you and that i don't need you. i know for a fact that we've been through a lot and we always pulled through everything no matter what. unfortunately this was different. i know you say it's better if we're friends for the both of us, but i think that you're just looking at your point of view. i don't know. i want to believe everything that you told me and everything you say, but everything just doesn't make sense. no words can explain what's going on. things changed for the good and the bad but i just wished that things could only change for the better. life is general is just grand! if it weren't for my friends, who knows if i would still be standing today? i may have told you that you're the only one that i can really talk to and tell you everything but thanks to you i know that i don't have to hold anything in. but as for the high skoo life, it sucks and it would be better. but what can i say? it's mililani and things travel fuken fast. it doesn't really bother me if it's the truth cuz you can't deny it but i hate it cuz i know stories get changed and rumors start. all because of you people look at me like i'm dumb but that's okay cuz it doesn't matter what people think about me. kay i don't even know if this is making sense anymore but i'm going to go now. i hope you're happy and life is good for you!