HolLiStEr_BaRbIe60nine's Xanga

Friday, December 23, 2005

Fri, 23 Dec 2005 12:54:04 GMT

so0

Monday, May 02, 2005

Mon, 02 May 2005 12:17:27 GMT

I fucked this xanga up and i dont want to fix it Sooo I made myself a new one.!

Ashleyyy04 lol

sooo

http://www.xanga.com/Ashleyyy04/

sorryyy thats the last one i'll make, I'm just sick of this one. Don't like being Barbie anymore

-ash

Saturday, April 30, 2005

Sat, 30 Apr 2005 23:17:34 GMT

Hey everyone...Woah it's been a Long time since I've updated.! Atleast I got some Hott comments, from hot people. . Well let's see..Last wednesday, I went to school...don't think anything interesting happened, but that night I hung out with Janelle, we went to CHURCH then came back homee. Thursday...I don't remember, I know I did something that night...oh yeah. Alicia and Angelica came to the Band concert to WATCH with me (we're not in band) Not that theres anything wrong with that...well b4 that we went to Wendy's and this guy kept smiling at me...I'm like..no..your yucky. hehe then we went out to the school for Jarred's soccer practice. We girls went to a diff. empty field and did some tumbling..it was fucking hilarioussss, there was some dirty dancing in there too. . Then we went a played soccer with Jarred and his team. I scored two goals. . lol, Alicia shot for like 7 but made 1 lol she sucks. . Then we went a played at the Prairie Heights thennn headed to the highschool to watch the concert. I saw some Hott guys, that I didn't know when to my school. . but one is off limits cause Angelica would get mad? lol idk...I prollyyy shouldn't have typed that..oh welllll. Then Alicia and I met this Justin kid...Angelica went home with her mom. Sooo Alicia, I and Justin went out to the track and hung out...we layed and looked at the starts..etc...awesome night. FRIDAY NIGHT. Crazyyyy fun times! Alicia snuck in at like...10..then we snuck out (super easy!) at 10:45 and met up with Zachary, Scottie, Ross, Nick and Dustin. Then we just walked around CR. After that I went home for a couple minutes and then Ice came to get me and we went to his house untill likeeeee 4:45 in the morning! Then I came home and SLEPT until 12:30. Then went back to bed at 3-5...then slept from 5:30-8:30 ish so I'm wideeee awake. I might go out again tonight...who knows..I've been listening to music while I'm awake. I'm on the phone with Alicia right now...she's watching a sad movie. I tried on my big fluffy blue dress today. I can stilll fit into a size 4...yessss. . Omg Cheerleading tryouts are in like 20ish days. I think i'll make it, just cause I'm thatttt cool. But I have to do either Basketball or Wrestling cause I'm doing swimteam in the fall. Sooo I get to life mon, wed, fri. Then after school I go to WILLIAMSBURG to PRACTICE. lol that sucks...

10 random things about me

1. music is my LIFE, I listen to everything.

2. I can listen to a song and write out the piano part and teach myself to play it. I'm just that gifted.

3. I'm not afraid of heights, I'm afraid of falling.

4. I'm not scared of the dark, I'm scared of whats in it.

5. I'm not afraid to love, I'm afraid to not be loved back.

6. I'm a veryy complex, intelligent individule.

7. I would kill my father's wife if I got the chance. (does this make me a bad person?) fuck you if u think it does.

8. I'm in a bad mood right now because I'm sick, i've been puking my guts out allll day.

9. I hate AIM.

10. I can't smoke pot, shrooms, acid, coke..all that shit I can't do because of a heart defect It's NOT serious, its just something that makes my heart beat really fast and Icould have a heart attack. That would suck --this was for the stupid bitches in my grade/other grades who think I do drugs and have alot of sex. Dur fucking fags go to hell:-p.

-ash

Comments..x3

Tuesday, April 26, 2005

Tue, 26 Apr 2005 16:57:13 GMT

You bitches fucking suck! lol only TWO comments..so I guess Jake and Janelle don't suck, but the rest of you do.!

Today was prettyyyy good. Last night idk WHAT I did.! I went to bed at like...11 so I was SUPER tired this morning! lol I got up and did my hair..showered the usual. FINALLY ALL of my t-shirts are washed...all like 78million So I can start that routine again...I have to much tshirts that I wear it once and put it in the hamper until i've worn them ALL..then they get washed and the cycle starts over..-P Don't ask....In first period we watched a movie on the holocaust since we're learing about WWII...even though I fucking know everything to it's quite a bore..lol..I was doing GREAT in German today. I hate being so smart ohhh well. I got a gold star sticker. *yessss* Inn..A-tech we watched a gay ass movie about how to work this camera and all this other shit...Science was gay...Lunch was gay...Chior was effing awesome.! Mrs.Truax picked the really good people from our chior to sing for the teachers...and yes I was included I'm excitedddd.! Historyy wass...GAY..Math was pretty good. Alicia and I kept making fun of this Andrew kid with a HUGE mole on his face...We WERE partnered with him but moved to Dustins group cause Andrew's stupid. So Mr.Richter came over and hes like "why did you move" and I'm like "there was a ....distraction" *cough cough andrews MOLE* and Alicia and I started to CRACK the FUCK UP! lol In a/a I cleaned out mrs.Andersons fish tank..that was fucking nasty as hell. OMG! This morning b4 school everyone was in the cafeteria..alicia had a doughnut and a juice box I tripped her and made her dropp the doughnut on PURPOUS she she CHUCKED the juice box at me and it EXPLODED thats how HAD she fucking threw it. It was SOOO hilarious, I almost peed my pants..lol Well I think that's all for now.

comments please! <333

-ash

Monday, April 25, 2005

Mon, 25 Apr 2005 18:22:14 GMT

Hey Bitches.! Whatsup?

Notta lotta here...wow last time I wrote was...Saturday I think? lol idk.. Well Saturday night I went to Skyes house...during the day we hung out with Cody, thennn later that night we were downstairs, I was laying with Troy ( ) lol..then Skye snuck Michael? and James in..? lol thennn we watched VanHelsing..and Dawn of the Dead, and then some cartoons. Then Skye and I went to bed...lol at like...4? And I had to get up at 9! Ugh! Then Sunday morning I went to church, and skipped chior to hang out with laura. After church, I went out to Brianna's house.! She's 18!! scoreee. I Love You Bri.! Thenn Sunday night I came home..I don't think I did anything...wait yes I did! Last night I spent the night at Angelica's. We jumped on the trampoline..then we got all dressed up in winter coats/hats/mittens and went for a walk...it was effing awesome. It was dark and scary though. We walked on the train tracks until a fucking train was like 10 yards away no fucking joke and we jumped off and watched..We loveeee Fairfax Trains Then we went home and sat on her porch and Darrell drove by...hott....lol Thennn we went inside and went to bed. Today I looked GOOD for the first time, I semi-dressed up.! Since i've been wearing Jeans and a T-shirt for the last like 3 weeks.! lol. Anywhoo, school was gay...In 8th period (math) I found out that I had the ONLY test paper in the entire orange team with the perfect score. scoreeeee.! lol ****NEWS FLASH**** My mom just informed me that I will be recieving my own mini-fridge for my basement.! SCORE! anywho back to my day...My science atom project was fucking awesome..I used pez to represent neutrons, electrons and electrons..its fucking schweettt.!!! Thennn I attempted to go to the boys soccer game but it was POOORING, and so I gave up and went home. / Sorryyy boys. I won't miss anymore! lol I've got myself in a messss. Next year I don't KNOW HOW I'm gonna fit ALL of my exra curriculars in my schedule! I have to fit in..

1. Swim Team

2. Soccer (for the school)

3. Club Soccer lol

4. Cheerleading

5. Show Chior (If I make it, even though I have like a 99% chance )

ughh idk WHAT I'm gonna do! lol I'm in a goooddd mood right now.! yesss finally. I have a bunchhh of pics from when i stayed at Angelica's...i'll upload um onto my site and then edit it in here later.! Welll I'm gonna go, I get to COACH 5th grade soccer yessss..Ashley's in charge

comments please! <333

-ashhhh

Saturday, April 23, 2005

Sat, 23 Apr 2005 13:47:51 GMT

Hey everyone..

Wutsup? Notta lotta here...last night I went to Fever Pitch with Mitch haha that rhymes..it was a flipping awesomeee movie.! lol. Thenn I came home and my night went totally downhill. But YOU people don't need to know about it. I cried until like 1 in the morning, then finally fell asleep. Today Skye is gonna come over and were gonna do stuff? idk what yet..I woke up at like 8, ate breakfast and decided to go back to bed. I slept until like...9:45 or 10. Then went and got my hair cut, but I'm getting highlights on...Monday? I think. scoreee. I've decided that I never want to be in love again. The rest of my school career I'm only dating one or two more people. And they have to meet my VERY picky standards. That's if I date at all...Love sucks majorrr nasty ass. okay..my list...this prolly will be revised.

HAVE TO BE:

HONEST, trustworthy, reliable, clingy but not to clingy, have to be protective, but not over protective, sweet but not gay sweet, funny as fucking hell, nice but not TO nice, kind of bad but not tooo bad, taller than me, good looking, kinda nice car hehe..touchy feely, but not tooo touchy feely..has to compliment me, has to have prettyyy eyes...I like to be picked up so strong is a plus, relatively nice body...athletic, doesn't change when he's with his friends, calls me all the time, kisses me whenever wherever, hugs me..remembers my birthday, takes pictures with me, sings with me, loves all kinds of music, adventurous, good boy so my mommy likes him, has a freaky side haha justtt kidding, sneaks in my house late at night cause I'm scared or sad..picks me flowers, writes me love letters, plays with my hair, doesnt yell at me when i do something wrong, not violent at all, has a passion for something, does silly stuff all the time...theres alot to this list..

I think im gonna go...i'll write more later

-ash

Friday, April 22, 2005

Fri, 22 Apr 2005 17:16:10 GMT

Talk to her every chance you get. Just hold her hand. Tell her she looks pretty. Sit in the park and talk to her. Write her a note. Just walk around with her. Let her fall asleep in your arms. . Sing to her, no matter how bad you are. Carve your names into a tree. Give her piggy back rides. Take her shopping Stay up with her all night when she is sick Make her mixtapes/CDs. When she's sad, hang out with her or stay on the phone with her even if she's not saying anything. Look into her eyes. Slow dance with her Kiss her in the rain.

Heyyy bitches...Wutsup?

Wow I can NOT believe it's Friday! lol Thats Crazzyyy..! Well Thursday...hmmmm I don't remember alot of what happened Thursday...all that sticks out in my head is Alicia depantsing (spelling?)me, anddd her pulling down my pants while playing soccer and her mooning the school. . Welll Today..hmm My moods have been off and on. Tonight I've got myself a hot date aka Mitch Sheely. haha..Corey is talking to me right now..he says he has a suprise for me..I wonder....well back to my day. First period..we talked about WWII I was so fucking smart I amazed the teacher by being the only one who knew holocaust meant Death By Fire..haha that's why I loveee being smart. 2nd period..(German) Frau was being a BITCHH lol so I sat by Skye and we talked...3rd period (Atech) I turned in my project...hopefully I did pretty good on that. Thenn Science we watched two videos on the 3 R's ..Reuse...Reduce..and recycle..cause today was Earth Day or something..lol Gay. Thenn Lunch, was lunch. Chior we had free time cause we were good. Then after Angelica and I were the ONLY ones at our chior lesson out of like 15 people and Mr.D told us we were VERY talented. haha but like we didn't already know that? Thenn Math was effing gay. Alicia and I took a test but cheated throught the whole thing by whispering answers to eachother...Funnn shit.! lol Thenn A/A..was stupid. Now I'm home, sitting here...talking to people. I colored my hair light brownish...so I'm no longer a blue eyed blonde. But it's still pretty...I think I like my natural blonde more. Tomorrow I'm gonna go get it cut cause it's INSANELY long..and then I'm getting highlights. This weekend I don't have alot of plans so if anyone wants to hang..just lemme know.! lol Ugh we have some STUPID BITCHES at our school..*cough cough* Not gonna say any names...cause it's a waste of my fucking time..And when they read this they will prolly KNOW im talking about them. Cause I give um dirty looks all the time. Wellll I think I'm going to end this here...

comments please! <333

Ashley

Wednesday, April 20, 2005

Wed, 20 Apr 2005 18:17:31 GMT

[Edit 1]-Ahh well after this entry..I called Rusty..aka my "father". Ugh that did NOT go over well..but I won't write about it. Let's just say it almost ruined my week. lol But thennn I wrote my mommy a note and picked her a flower and hid it in her sock drawer so she can find that tomorrow. I felt so nice..all that warm n fuzzy shit..Thenn I went and worked on my room...It's fucking sexy as hell...well thats all..no its not..mom suprised me with new Hurley flip flops...like Kyleas black ones, except pink. And a new pair of shorts from Nike...hottt shitt.

Heyyy bitches.

Wutsup? notta lotta here...I WAS supposto go and get my hair done tonight...but I chickened out...What if they mess it up?! lol..Today was an okay day. Kinda blah...I was either really happy or pissed off. I blocked German and frau gave me a fucking crab sticker cause I was being "crabby." lol Then in science..that was prettyyyy gay. oh I forgot..I rode to school with Danny today..that was fucking awesome. Love that kid. I'm talking to Sean n Amanda right now..sooo that's cool..Sean, Ansel, Angelica and I all hung out like...last weekend I think? Idk, Angelica thinks Ansel is HOT. lmfao..soo that was SUPER fun.. Anywho back to my day.. Lunch...was weird...like normal. History was gay..A/A was fucking retarded too. Hopefully tomorrow goes better.! I still have Mitch's sweatshirt..I love it. ..alot. Today was 4-20..lol not cool. Welllll hell I think I'm done with this entry...I'm gettin sick of all u whores not commenting me. fuck you.

-ash

Monday, April 18, 2005

Mon, 18 Apr 2005 21:52:52 GMT

[edit 2-sorry!]

Things Guys Should Know About Girls : Written By A Guy After Years Of Experience

1. Whatever you do, don't just show up at their house .. they run around in their underwear just like we do

2. Don't cheat on them, it may seem foolproof, but girls tell eachother everything about everything. Trust me, they will find out and you will be in the mud.

3. Be aware of every single male relative and all her guys friends. Any of them would kick your ass at the drop of a hat.

4. Never miss an oppurtunity to tell them they are beautiful.

5. Don't refuse to kiss in front of your friends. If they laugh, its only because they are jealous.

6. If they slap you hard, you deserved it.

7. Don't be afraid to touch them if you want to. If they're going out with you in the first place, its because they like being in your arms.

8. If you don't sleep with them, don't tell your friends that you did.

9. You can be dirty minded in private ... really, most of them are not offended by it.

10. Not all of them eat like birds, a lot of them can eat like whales.

11. Most of them don't mind paying half of everything, but they do discuss these things with their friends. Realize if you make your girlfriend pay half all the time, everyone will know about and you're friends will know your a pussy.

11.5. Do you honestly need all your money that much? Be a man, pay all the time!

12. Every girl should eventually get 3 things from her boyfriend- a stuffed animal, one of his sweatshirts, and a really pretty ring.

13. Make sure she gets home safely as often as you can. If your dropping her off, walk her to the door. If you aren't dropping her off, call to be sure shes home safely.

14. If a guy is bothering her, it is your right to kick the shit out of him.

15. If you're talking to a female friend of yours, pull your girlfriend closer.

16. Never, ever slap her, even if its just in a joking way. Even if she swats you first, and says "oh, your so dumb" or something, never make any gestures back.

17. Go to a chick flick once in awhile. She doesn't care whether you enjoy it or not, it just matters that you went.

18. You're dead meat if you can't get along with their friends, parents, and pets. Be prince charming to their friends, Mr. Polite to their parents, and nice to their animals.

19. Don't flirt with their moms ... thats just freaky.

20. Don't be freaked out by PMS. It's not gross, and it really does make them feel like shit, so be understanding.

21. If you don't like the way they drive, then you do it.

22. If you're officially dating, and your introducing her to your friends, you'd better introduce her as your girlfriend.

23. If they complain that something hurts, rub it for them without being asked.

24. Girls are fragile. Even if your playing fighting/wrestling, be very gentle.

25. Memorize their birthdays, if you forget her birthday, you're basically screwed for life.

26. Don't give her something stupid for Christmas or Valentine's Day. It doesn't have to be expensive, just meaningful. Jewerly is always nice.

27. If you think the relationship isn't going to last, don't wait to find out. It will only hurt the more you draw it out.

[EdIt] Hey bitches...wutsup? Ugh, today was funnn. idk what day I last updated..Prolly monday. Today I took well..he gave it to me...Mitch's soccer sweatshirt. ::smile:: It looks hot. Karl is fucking awesome..we kinda drifted apart, but I'm gonna SUPERGLUE us back together! lol I'm TRYING to figure out how to upload pics onto this mother fucker. But I dont know how to do it.! So leave me a comment to tell me how to! lol. Yesterday night, I went to the soccer game with Angelica. That was super fun. I think I'm playing soccer for the school next year, sooo hopefully some other of the girls that a really good join too, so our team won't suck ass so much.! lol. I want to go and watch one of Jordan's soccer games but helll idk. I'm thinking about getting my hair cut. It's getting LONG and BORING. . I think I want bangs like Kylea's..and maybe go with brown hair and blonde highlights...who knows.! I'm in need for a change.!! Blah other than that..I don't really have anything else to say. I'm not dating this year or this summer. I MIGHT next year, but as my last bf proved all guys I know are the same...soooo until I find ONE that can treat me RIGHT I'm staying single and no guys get a chance. hehe well I'm gonna gooo. kisses

-ash

Hey Skanks.!

Whatsup? Notta lotta here. Today was pretty good. I spent this WHOLE weekend at Angelicas<3. I spent the night there on Sunday night too. This morning she was taking FOREVER to get ready I was getting pissed Thenn we went to school. This morning was pretty good. We have a 4 day block this week. So I'm kinda bunmmed about that. I had German 2nd period. Frau told me I had a "very good day" lol..I was like..okay..I care why. hehe. Thenn I blocked Science..that was so fucking GAY.! I had to sit by Angelica, Jace K, and Alex L. OMG talk about fucking hilarious. I swear those two boys...are the funniest men on this Earth. . I tried to get some work done...but that didn't work. ...Then lunch...Chior...Then History...I think that was pretty good? idr. I was on a roll in that class to. I had a good day altogether. Then A.A. (homeroom, Amanda ..I'm not an alcoholic.!) Then Angelica and I went to the boys soccer game...xoxo SOO much fun.! Some kid from the other team, was running and his shorts fell down.! It was HILARIOUS...but hey, I didn't hate it.! haha..anywho. Then my a.a teacher pulled me aside and asked about a bruise on a friends face..I'm like..duh she ran into a door. fucking tard...Anywhooo...Tonight I got home..showered...ate food..talked to Sam for a bit..Now it's 8:51 and I'm debating an EARLY bedtime..lol...And thank you MONICA for the ONLY comment I recieved. Fuck the rest of you.! lol. I've also decided I'm like not dating for a LONG mother fucking time. All guys are the same..liars, play with your heart, all the stupid shit. My perfect guy? Hot, sweet, tall, honest, gets jealous, clingy but not TO clingy, loving, lovable, prepish, someone whos a hopeless romantic like me..haha...I know ONE guy But it just wouldn't be a good idea yet. Welll I think I'm out..

-ash

Saturday, April 16, 2005

Sat, 16 Apr 2005 21:04:16 GMT

Sad shit.

A girl sits in the back and listens to the band play
The boy stares at the tears rolling down her cheeks as she pretends to be ok
She stares at the pictures of her boyfriend with her best friend….
This is causing her more pain than her spirit can mend
With tears streaming from her eyes
she runs home screaming “WHY?”
She throws herself on the floor
She screams as if she is her foe
She writes a note and mumbles, “He’ll wish he never met her…”
She begins to bleed…It’s not enough to concur
To spill it all is what she needs
Minutes later there are knocks at her oak front door
She ignores the knocks and hollers; it just makes her want to cut more
The lead begins to shout outside her window
In her hand she holds the bloodstained note…
She is falling asleep in her own eminence…
She feels a sense dominance
She hears the boy knock down her door,
Everything is numb; her heart is no longer sore
He darts for the girl’s room he cries out at the sight
He dives for her limp body and he holds her tight
He doesn’t want her to go…he doesn’t her want to die…
She mumble “read the note…is this your fault? Is that why you cry?”
His eyes swell…this is the first time in his life… he cried….
He screams and swears “WHY DID YOU TAKE HER…. why?”
A reply is made,
He begins to realize its cause he, with her best friend he laid…
He looks at her…he woes and weeps
Staring at her glossy eyes deep
His gaze shifts to the note
He begins to read…
“Dig me a grave for all to see,
Look down as you stand over me.
Get over yourself, let your pride cry.
Stare into my face: watch an angel die.
This is something you can't undo,
Go tell the world: I died for you...”
He just can’t cope…
He screams aloud….
Pain consumes him…along with others
Cuz tonight, there was two deaths…instead of one <|3

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I feel like there is no need for conversation
Some questions are better left without a reason
And I would rather reveal myself than my situation
Now and then I consider, my hesitation
The more the light shines through me
I pretend to close my eyes
The more the dark consumes me
I pretend I'm burning, burning bright

I wonder if the things I did were just to be different
To spare myself of the constant shame of my existence
And I would surely redeem myself in my desperation
Here and now I'll express, my situation

There's nothing ever wrong but nothing's ever right
Such a cruel contradiction
I know I cross the lines its not easy to define
I'm born to indecision
There's always something new some path I'm supposed to choose
With no particular rhyme or reason
~~~~~~~~~~~~

Send away for a priceless gift
One not subtle, one not on the list
Send away for a perfect world
One not simply, so absurd
In these times of doing what you're told
You keep these feelings, no one knows
What ever happened to the young man's heart
Swallowed by pain, as he slowly fell apart

And I'm staring down the barrel of a 45,
Swimming through the ashes of another life
No real reason to accept the way things have changed
Staring down the barrel of a 45

Send a message to the unborn child
Keep your eyes open for a while
In a box high up on the shelf, left for you, no one else
There's a piece of a puzzle known as life
Wrapped in guilt, sealed up tight

What ever happened to the young man's heart
Swallowed by pain, as he slowly fell apart

Everyone's pointing their fingers
Always condemning me
And nobody knows what I believe
I believe

.:*-*[edit]*-*:. Ugh, have you ever just felt like crying? For no reason at all. Have you ever been sucked into deep depression for no reason at all? Have you ever wanted to die, for no reason at all? I have. But suicide is for weak people, who can't face their problems and have to run. Not me. Crying is for weak people, Not me. I guess I just have to suck it up and get over being severly pissed off. Some people just irritate me so fucking much. When SOMEONE doesn't really have alot of time for you, yeah yeah whatever. I don't care. ::Don't make someone your priority if your their option:: haha well we'll see how he likes being MY option. Not fun, Buddy. Now I'll put Me, Myself and I first. Well and Angelica. But No one else. fucking bullshit. Ugh. what the fuck ever. bye.

Hey Gorgeous.! This is Ashley and Angelica..oh my gosh. The last couple days have been the BEST.! I'll start with....thursday? lol. I went to Angelicas musical...she did FAB! Brandon and Kylea WERE going out..but not anymore. Alicia and I went to the school early and hung with Kylea and Brandon for a bit. Thennnn Alicia and I went and I decided to climb a tree...so we both climbed it..it was awesome. We're so good. :: Thennn we went and watched Angelica's play..that was super fun.! I gave her a rose Thennn I don't remember the next day at school, but last night I went to the track meet, Angelica and I helped score the shot put so we get snacks from Mr.R on Monday. Thenn Angelica had to go get ready for the play so I hung out with Christian for the rest of the time. Thennn I went and climbed the tree again anddd thennn went into the play and watched. It was prettyyyy awesome Then I went to the party after the play and that was funnnn we fucked around with Karl and a bunch of other people..and climbed the tree again. OMG the last couple nights have been PERFECT for looking at the stars...yeah I know pretty pathetic huh.? Then after that I went home with Angelica and spent the night at her house, we fell asleep really early. Then we woke up at 10...and from 10-1 we were getting ready for the day lol just shower+hair. no makeup...it was crazy. Thennn we went to Target and Menards...lol Angelica's mom is so stupid she was like talking to the helper guy and she was like "why can't u have the ones that pier 1 has?" were like "omg you can't say that in Menards!" lol Angelica and I want to work in Menards cause there will be hot guys lmfao. thennn we came here, and we layed in bed and just messed around lol non sexual! Thennn people came over..and then they left. My mom is out on a DATE!!! OMG! lol. It's insane.. We don't know what were doing tonight..oh PS- Alicia and I went streaking!! it was great...mmkay I don't feel like writing in here even more...

::stay sweet n party hard::

-Ash n Angelica