Currently Listening Afterglow By Sarah McLachlan Fallen see related

I don't know where to begin. This weekend has been hard for me. With Rafeal and Big John in the Hospital and come to find out my Great Uncle is in the Hospital as well. He could very well be on his death bed. Please PRAY for Rafeal, Big John, my Great Uncle, and Mr. Teague who isn't doing well either. Today wasn't a good day either. Someone I care very much for found out something that happened a long time ago. He is very upset about it. He asked me awhile back if I had done something and I told him a lie so he wouldn't be mad. It got back to him and he just has nothing to say to me right now. I've been trying to change my ways because I know they are bad. Last Year was a major rollercoaster for me and I'm just trying to get off. *ok that was so gay*  Only two people know what I'm talking about. I was very scared during that time. Things happened that have changed my life drastically(sp?). I really am tryin to change but it is very hard. I've needed help for a long time now but I just have never asked for help. I've said somethings to people that should've never been said, and for that I apologize to Tim Buettner. You may never forgive me and you have the right not to. That was not kind of me for saying what I said. I could've said it in such a different way and I didn't . You can forgive me but if you don't I will perfectly understand why you can't.  I have nothing else to say right now so just leave me comments and PLEASE PRAY FOR THE PEOPLE LISTED ABOVE!!!

*Brianne

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         Today I don't feel pretty and I'm tired of trying to fit right in. Don't think that you're so great, cause being great must suck.

         Are you gonna live your life wondering? Standing in the back, looking around? Are you gonna waste your time thinking how you've grown up, or how you've missed out? Things are never gonna be the way you want; when's it gonna get you acting serious?

         I'm talking to the ceiling, my life just lost all meaning. Do one last thing for me tonight. I'm dying in this silence, the last star left in heaven is falling down to the earth. And do you still feel the same way? Do you still feel the same wayy?

        I wish I was a little girl again, scraped knees are easier to deal with than a broken heart. 

I've got a right to be wrong. My mistakes will make me strong. I'm stepping out into the great unknown. I'm feeling wings though I've never flown. Got a mind of my own. I'm flesh and blood to the bone. I'm not made of stone. Got a right to be wrong. So just leave me alone. I've got a right to be wrong. I've been held down to long. I've got to break free. So I can finally breathe. Got a right to be wrong. Got to sing my own song. I might be out of key. But it sure feels good to be me. Got a right to be wrong. So just leave me alone.

We all begin out with good intent. When love is raw and young. We believe the we can change ourselves. The past can be undone, but we carry on our backs, the burdens time always reaveals. In the lonely light of morning, in the wound that would not heal. It's the bitter taste of losing everything I've held so dear.

Currently Listening Come Away with Me By Norah Jones The Long Day Is Over! see related

Have you ever felt like people watch your everymove just to watch you make mistakes? Have you ever felt like anything you do is never good enough for the people around you? I feel these almost everyday of my life...but I don't think that I let people know my true feelings. I try to hold them back. I try not to let things bother me soo much.

Currently Listening S&M By Metallica see related

I was really bored when I answered these random questions! There are some stupid questions, but people have actually asked me these questions. If you get real bored leave me a comment answering these questions.

 Do you have a cell phone? yup
 Do you like boots? yea, i guess
 Do you have a cat? two..but i stole one of em from my neighbor
 Have you ever gone bungee jumping? nope..want 2 tho!
 Do you wear fake pearls? nope
 Have you ever shoplifted? yup
 Have you ever stole candy from the candy shop? no
 Do you live in an apartment? nope
 Have you ever stayed up all night? oh yea
 Do you like little kids? tha non annoying ones
 Do you take pictures of people's toes? uhh...no! who does that
 True or false: all is fair in love and war??? yes
 Do you like to perform?of course
 Have you ever been to Chicago? yup..my cousin played in tha world series there
 Does your mom know you have a Myspace? yea
 Does your mom HAVE a myspace? hell no
 Have you ever tried committing suicide? nope
 Are you famous in your own little world? haha..no
 Have you ever met a celebrity? yea...neal mccoy
 Do you like Hilary Duff? yea, but she needs 2 gain her weight back
 Do you like to take pictures of yourself?yea..but mainly if someone else is in tha pic w/me!
 Why are you taking this survey? cause i have nothin better 2 do
 Do you like oversized sunglasses? yea..buy daniel mccafee broke one
 Do you like Paris Hilton? yea..but don't know her personally
 Do you play with bubbles? uhh..when i was 5
 Are you a redhead? nope..brunetteHow many uncles do you have? omg..i have never counted
 What kind of computer do you have? dell
 Are you supersticious? naw
 Do you read the dictionary for fun? hell no...i hope i never get that bored!
 Do you shop at Hollister? oh yea!!
 Have you ever worn fishnet tights? hell no
 Have you ever been called a loser? probably
 Do you have an iPod? yea..it's broken though
 Are you a skater? no
 Do you think spelling "skater boy" like "Sk8er boi" is cool? i guess
 Do you like Britney Spears? hate tha way she sings but i dont know her personally...
 Have you ever had an eating disorder? yea
 Have you ever been to Israel? no
 Do you like to wear polka dots? yea..cute
 Do you and your friends like to hang out at diners? uhh..no
 Do you steal sugar packets from restaurants? yea...all the time
 Do you speak French? nope
 Are you Jewish? no
 Are you/were you ever a Girl Scout? haha yes
 Do you watch SNL? every now and then
 Do you believe what you read in tabloids? 2 an extent but mostly, no
 Are you a pyromaniac? used 2 be
 Do you have a fish? no..he died...i forgot to feed him
 Have you ever partied all night? oh hell yea
 Do you want to join the Navy? I HATE THA NAVY
 Do you eat string cheese by peeling it or just biting it? i peel it
 Do you like cranberry juice? eww...no, bad after taste
 Do you want to be a model? no
 Do you play the French horn? no
 Do you call fries "French fries" or "Freedom fries" or something else? french fries
 Do you like sparkly things? like diamonds? oh yea...love BIG diamonds!!
 What does your mousepad look like, if you have one? dont have one 
  Do you watch Family Guy? hell no
 Do you cheerlead? no
 Do you pop your collar? nope
 Do you shop at Hot Topic? ha only for band t-shirts
 Do you live in a city? nope..i live in a old town
 Do you read Harry Potter? no
 Are you athletic? i guess
 Do you like chocolate? yea, some times..depends on my mood!
 Have you ever lived in Kansas? nope
 Do you have satellite TV? nope
 Are you a dancer? yea
 Do you like Doritos? blue are tha best!
 Do you smoke? eww..gross!
 Are you in a band? nope
 Do you wear short shorts? only when im at home, and when it's warm outside
 Do you work out at the Y? no
 Have you ever paid for something in all nickels? yea...im sure
 Do you like strawberry ice cream? yea
 Have you ever passed out? sometimes in the mornings
 How many bones have you ever broken? none
 Do you make prank calls? haha...i love tha soundboards on tha internet!
 Have you ever sent a lot of pizzas to an enemy so they'd have to pay for them? yea
 Do you have a digital camera? yea
 Do you like shopping at Staples? uhh...never been there
 Do you play lacrosse? no
 Have you ever been evicted? hahano
 Have you ever gotten detention for something you didn't do? nope..i did it
 Have you and your best friend ever liked the same person? probably, but not out loud
 Have you ever gotten drunk? yea..my bad
 Do you have a crush on a celebrity? mark wahlberg and tom cruise
 Have you ever gotten a haircut that everyone had and then the next day it was "uncool"? nope...never got tha   same one as everyone else 
Do you like steak? not my fav
Did you like this survey? i guess