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Thursday, September 09, 2004

HEY EVERYONE!

My internet has been cut off for about a week now, and will be turned on in a few days. I have alot to write about. Please forgive me for not updating... but I will when it gets turned back on.... btw... tomorrow is heathers birthday (www.xanga.com/IDontKnow_What_Huh) SHE IS LEGAL! ttyl guys.

~Lu`cas~


Thursday, September 02, 2004

So I saw Andrew today. He has been in a really good mood lately. I pray with all of my heart we stay together.

So today was my second day of work.

I learned how to make smoothies lol.

I really love it there. The people I work with are really nice, and my supervisors are extremely couteous.

Before I give you the next 5 I want to ask you guys for Andrew and I to get through this.

I LOVE ALL OF YOU GUYS!

anyway...

WHO IS THE BEST SINGER?

 HARRY CONNICK JR.

 FALLOUT BOY

 MATCHBOX ROMANCE

 BETTE MIDLER

 JASMINE TRIAS

pray...

~Lu`cas~

>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

XOD: aluckyoutcome


Wednesday, September 01, 2004

Well Today was a pretty good day.

I saw Tamie, and she drove me see Andrew.

Andrew was in a good mood, and he was joking with me, wasnt very affectionate, but he did kiss me goodbye, and he did say he loved me. i left in a good mood.

KEEP PRAYING... ITS WORKING.

My friend Grant is gonna be moving in with me for a while, he is dating my good friend Roseanna, but he lives in Mendota, and wants to go to Clovis West.

I have been thinking about my mom too.

Sometimes the pain is just so sharp.

4 months without her.

SOmetimes the pain is just a pit too unbareable. Just her pictures make me want to crawl out of my skin.

Sometimes I hate myself for pulling the plug. I feel like a murder. What if she would have pulled through. They said she couldnt have, but what if she would have.

The hardest thing I have ever done is watch her take her last breath. breathe in, breathe out, never to breathe again.

I hope you guys never have to watch the person you love die in front of your eyes.

Anyway enough depressing shit.

Im off to bed... but here are the next 5...

WHO IS THE BEST SINGER?

 KELLY CLARKSON

 DEEP DICKOLLECTIVE

 THE REMEDY

 HEATHER RICHIE

 MARK WEIGLE

pray...

~Lu`cas~

>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

XOD: Mangeld_Soul

 


Tuesday, August 31, 2004

I went and saw Andrew, we talked, we cried, we kissed, but he said it hurt him too much... but he is giving us this 2 weeks so he can see how he is gonna feel, if he can see us together for a while longer.

I had almost lost hope, but when we held hands walking back to his house, it felt good, it felt right, not awkward, and he kissed me on the lips goodbye, and he said I love you, and I know he ment it like a friend, for now anyway, but it still felt right.

I am gonna post a few lyrics that have made me think abotu things if we were to break up...

 

ITS LONELY OUT THER by PAM TILLIS

I can't make you stay, and boy I wouldn't want to
Go on walk away, but don't say I didn't warn you
Have you forgotten how it was
Before I wrapped you in my love

It's lonely, so lonely
Go on and get your share
But believe me baby
It's lonely out there

You think there's some adventure that you're missin'
Some thrill undone or sweeter lips you could be kissin'
So you wonder and you want to let go
Our love is dying for you to know

It's lonely, so lonley
Go on and get your share
But believe me baby
It's lonely out there

There's people out there tryin' to look like they're havin' fun
Do you really want to be one
They're just remembering what they had
Or waitin' for their next chance at love
Love, Love, Love

It's lonely, so lonely
We got such a good thing here
Believe me, baby
It's lonely out there

It's lonely, so lonely
We got such a good thing here
Don't go now, baby
It's lonely out there
It's lonely out there
It's lonely out there

 

I think andrew will feel like that if he leaves me.

anyway... nothing much else

hanging with maryann, it was fun.

Anyway, im gonna jet, but ima leave the next 5...

WHO IS THE BEST SINGER?

 ACE OF BASE

 BEN FOLDS FIVE

 HILARY DUFF

 FINCH

 PINK

pray...

~Lu`cas~

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XOD: NursingStudnt83



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