Well its been 2 months since my last post to the day.  And once again its me and Katie's anniversary.. this time its 6 months.  By rights I should be jumping for joy, and maybe I will if I ever get to sleep.  Its almost 3 in the morning... and I can't sleep.  Me and Katie got into a fight last night when I got home.  Were getting to the point in our relationship I guess where being apart is pissing us off and we end up taking it out on eachother.

So last night I was out shopping for a truck which im buying today.  I had told her before I left work at 7 That we were looking at a truck I wanted to buy.  I didnt plan on going out and looking at other trucks, but I wanted to make sure I got the truck that was right for me and didnt end up regreting my decision.  Well Katie got pissed that she didn't know where I was and was worried.  Which I understand and maybe I was too hard on her.  When I did finally get back at 10 pm she was quite upset that I had been gone for 3 hours without her knowing where I was.

Maybe I should have just apologized and asked her forgiveness but at the time it did seem like she didn't use the sense to figure i was probably busy with something involving the truck, be it test driving or looking it over or whatever.  As I look back at it now sleepless as I am because of it, I was probably too hard on her, she was just being worried about me.  Maybe she was just too upset over the matter, maybe I got carried away and yelled at her too hard, maybe we both were just out of line.

All I know is she stormed to bed without saying good night or replying to my I love you and probably cried that we were fighting the day before our anniversary.  And I am right now sitting on the edge of my bed at 3 o clock in the morning without sleep because I feel like I hurt the woman I love.

I hope she feels better later today cause I dont want her to feel sad or upset, because just as I didn't like being yelled at by the woman I love.... how did I respond to it? by yelling back at her... and that is not me.... that is not me at all.  I think when it comes down to it, being apart is just stressing us both out... I honestly don't know how we're going to do this another 16 months before we're living together.

What is wrong with me? why can't I keep the one thing I want out of life happy?  Why do I find a new way to upset her daily without trying?  Why can't I just hold her in my arms and whisper in her ear what she means to me everyday?  Why?  If anyone has the answer, I'm seeking it.

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY KATHERINE DIANE MOORE!!!!!!!!!!!!

It's me and Katie's 4 month anniversary and its been the best 4 months of my life!

Life has been so awesome since meeting her, I don't get depressed about little things anymore... cause no matter what happens I just smile and know she loves me and I her.

And its enough to get me through any disaster or any wrong turn.  Just that simple truth that she's there for me and I for her is enough to keep a man alive.

We don't have to tell eachother we love the other anymore.  We really don't.  God forbid if something should happen I know even if I didnt say I love you that she knew it and vice versa.  But you know what I say it anyway.

I tell her every single day, more than once a day That I love her so much and how beautiful she is.  And I plan to do that very thing all the days of my life.

So now Im just counting down till her graduation, when I can move and we can be together in Huntington, WV while shes at college.  Not long now, not long.

I love you Katie, and Happy 4 months, and heres to another, and another, and heres to another 210 or so more.

Well update time... Monday, November 14th....

This Saturday I get to see my darling Katie again! Oh how I miss her so.  I felt like I was at war yesterday.  I sat down on a rock outside while at the band competition waiting for the band to go on and just pulled out my wallet and stared at the picture of her for what seemed like forever.

So I'm going to WV for Saturday and Sunday to visit with katie.  Its so hard doing a long distance relationship and it probably wouldn't work if we both didnt know how right we were for eachother.  I contemplated while on the rock my moving to WV in June and what steps over the next 7 months I was going to need to take to make it work.  I think I may take up a second job to increase my income.

So Speaking of the band competition the band did pretty darn good with 5th place out of 23 bands all over the east coast.  Their Score was an 93.75 and scores are out of 100.  1st place actually was a tie at 96.15 I believe.

I've been running all over the place for Carida events lately.  I think I've been to Philly 6 times in the past 2 weeks, which is no short trip.  I'll be leaving for another one in Lancaster here in a little over an hour.  I'm hoping Katie gets online before that cause I didnt get to talk to her at all yesterday cause of the competition.  It kills me not talking to her at least once a day.  I cant handle going a whole 24 hours or more without her in my life, but at least I know she's in my heart no matter where either of us is.  Plus it won't be long until we're in the same city.

Still hunting for a car but also still trying to get the money to pay for the car I hunt down.

Well... not to much more to say... I could sit here and continue to ramble about how much I love Katie but I'll spare you.  Katie, I love you so much and Ill talk to you soon and see you soon baby....

Well its Monday and I'm at home bored as I usually am on mondays, no work, no play, nothing to do but wait for people to get home from school.   Well heres a rundown of whats been happening. 

Me Dave and Missy are still apartment shopping, I'm car (well truck,suv,hummer) shopping... I want a large vehicle... I'm tired of my little piece of crap blue car that could get beaten in a race by a bumpercar.  I'm looking for a truck or SUV or something that has good storage space.  I'd love a hummer (no pun intended) If I can get a good enough monthly payment plan on it and save up however much I'd need to pay upfront.  But I think thats out of the question for right now.  Hopefully whatever I get (truck or suv wise) right now will be good enough to allow me to get a hummer using it as trade in collateral.  So if anyone knows anyone selling their truck or SUV here is what im looking for.

decently low mileage (if the truck has a life of 180,000 and its at 150,000 I don't want it)
good working order (i don't want to have to dump a bunch of $ into it AFTER already buying it)
Less than $5,000 total and hopefully from someplace or someone who can accept monthly payments
NOT A DIESEL ENGINE!
decent gas mileage

So if you know anyone, let me know.

Theres a couple costumes I'd like to be working on but definately more concerned with getting an automobile and moving to focus on them right at this moment.  They'll need to be done in a little awhile.

My friend Randy is coming back from the Army for good sometime in the next week or so so that will be awesome to see him again,  I havent seen him since May.  And on a sidenote a different army recruit followed me around walmart and tried to get me in.  I kept telling him no I wasnt interested and he asked if I had a girlfriend and I told him, "Actually she's my fiance and we're getting married here in the spring"  and he told me that both of us could get in the army and live together on base... I turned to him, smiled and said "there isn't a damn person on this planet, not even bush himself, that will get me or her in the military or anywhere near it" then walked off.

I was at toys r us last night!  they had a costume contest and I went there in my stormtrooper armor to give the kids a thrill.  There were a good many little darth vader's jedi and clone troopers.  There was even the most adorable little yoda, couldn't of been more than 2 years old.  They got a kick out of it and this one darth vader kept chasing the jedi around and he'd run up to me and say "stormtrooper i found some of the jedi! lets go get them!" and we'd track them around the store.  It was awesome.  They had an ages 18+ category as well and I won best fictional character and won a digital camera.  it sucks as a camera but it can be used as a webcam too... which is what its being used as so my precious Katie in WV can finally see me everyday as I can her on her webcam!

Hmmmm..... well I suppose thats about it...... Talk to everyone later! PEACE OUT! I love you Katie!

Well I got back from New York late Friday night.  It was fun, I had a blast despite getting completely drenched the entire time.  But it was fun.  All the guys and girls from the different garrisons in the area were just awesome, I made so many new friends this week.

I've been really lonely these past few days , I havent talked to Katie since Thursday evening and its killing me.  I mean I've left her voice mails both friday and saturday and I will talk to her tonight hopefully, but its not the same.  Since the day I've met her I have NEVER gone longer than 24 hours without telling her how much I love her.  But with me being in NY and her being at camp it'll be close to 74 hours since last talking to her until Ill be able to talk to her again.  I miss her so much its killing me, Im about ready to just visit her this upcoming weekend so I can see her again.

Well I need to leave for another carida event in an hour so I'm gonna cut this short.. I love you Katherine Diane Moore, so much.