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Wednesday, February 08, 2006

Wed, 08 Feb 2006 02:55:58 GMT

Well its been 2 months since my last post to the day. And once again its me and Katie's anniversary.. this time its 6 months. By rights I should be jumping for joy, and maybe I will if I ever get to sleep. Its almost 3 in the morning... and I can't sleep. Me and Katie got into a fight last night when I got home. Were getting to the point in our relationship I guess where being apart is pissing us off and we end up taking it out on eachother.

So last night I was out shopping for a truck which im buying today. I had told her before I left work at 7 That we were looking at a truck I wanted to buy. I didnt plan on going out and looking at other trucks, but I wanted to make sure I got the truck that was right for me and didnt end up regreting my decision. Well Katie got pissed that she didn't know where I was and was worried. Which I understand and maybe I was too hard on her. When I did finally get back at 10 pm she was quite upset that I had been gone for 3 hours without her knowing where I was.

Maybe I should have just apologized and asked her forgiveness but at the time it did seem like she didn't use the sense to figure i was probably busy with something involving the truck, be it test driving or looking it over or whatever. As I look back at it now sleepless as I am because of it, I was probably too hard on her, she was just being worried about me. Maybe she was just too upset over the matter, maybe I got carried away and yelled at her too hard, maybe we both were just out of line.

All I know is she stormed to bed without saying good night or replying to my I love you and probably cried that we were fighting the day before our anniversary. And I am right now sitting on the edge of my bed at 3 o clock in the morning without sleep because I feel like I hurt the woman I love.

I hope she feels better later today cause I dont want her to feel sad or upset, because just as I didn't like being yelled at by the woman I love.... how did I respond to it? by yelling back at her... and that is not me.... that is not me at all. I think when it comes down to it, being apart is just stressing us both out... I honestly don't know how we're going to do this another 16 months before we're living together.

What is wrong with me? why can't I keep the one thing I want out of life happy? Why do I find a new way to upset her daily without trying? Why can't I just hold her in my arms and whisper in her ear what she means to me everyday? Why? If anyone has the answer, I'm seeking it.

Thursday, December 08, 2005

Thu, 08 Dec 2005 12:45:51 GMT

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY KATHERINE DIANE MOORE!!!!!!!!!!!!

It's me and Katie's 4 month anniversary and its been the best 4 months of my life!

Life has been so awesome since meeting her, I don't get depressed about little things anymore... cause no matter what happens I just smile and know she loves me and I her.

And its enough to get me through any disaster or any wrong turn. Just that simple truth that she's there for me and I for her is enough to keep a man alive.

We don't have to tell eachother we love the other anymore. We really don't. God forbid if something should happen I know even if I didnt say I love you that she knew it and vice versa. But you know what I say it anyway.

I tell her every single day, more than once a day That I love her so much and how beautiful she is. And I plan to do that very thing all the days of my life.

So now Im just counting down till her graduation, when I can move and we can be together in Huntington, WV while shes at college. Not long now, not long.

I love you Katie, and Happy 4 months, and heres to another, and another, and heres to another 210 or so more.

Monday, November 14, 2005

Mon, 14 Nov 2005 15:24:26 GMT

Well update time... Monday, November 14th....

This Saturday I get to see my darling Katie again! Oh how I miss her so. I felt like I was at war yesterday. I sat down on a rock outside while at the band competition waiting for the band to go on and just pulled out my wallet and stared at the picture of her for what seemed like forever.

So I'm going to WV for Saturday and Sunday to visit with katie. Its so hard doing a long distance relationship and it probably wouldn't work if we both didnt know how right we were for eachother. I contemplated while on the rock my moving to WV in June and what steps over the next 7 months I was going to need to take to make it work. I think I may take up a second job to increase my income.

So Speaking of the band competition the band did pretty darn good with 5th place out of 23 bands all over the east coast. Their Score was an 93.75 and scores are out of 100. 1st place actually was a tie at 96.15 I believe.

I've been running all over the place for Carida events lately. I think I've been to Philly 6 times in the past 2 weeks, which is no short trip. I'll be leaving for another one in Lancaster here in a little over an hour. I'm hoping Katie gets online before that cause I didnt get to talk to her at all yesterday cause of the competition. It kills me not talking to her at least once a day. I cant handle going a whole 24 hours or more without her in my life, but at least I know she's in my heart no matter where either of us is. Plus it won't be long until we're in the same city.

Still hunting for a car but also still trying to get the money to pay for the car I hunt down.

Well... not to much more to say... I could sit here and continue to ramble about how much I love Katie but I'll spare you. Katie, I love you so much and Ill talk to you soon and see you soon baby....

Monday, October 24, 2005

Mon, 24 Oct 2005 14:43:36 GMT

Well its Monday and I'm at home bored as I usually am on mondays, no work, no play, nothing to do but wait for people to get home from school. Well heres a rundown of whats been happening.

Me Dave and Missy are still apartment shopping, I'm car (well truck,suv,hummer) shopping... I want a large vehicle... I'm tired of my little piece of crap blue car that could get beaten in a race by a bumpercar. I'm looking for a truck or SUV or something that has good storage space. I'd love a hummer (no pun intended) If I can get a good enough monthly payment plan on it and save up however much I'd need to pay upfront. But I think thats out of the question for right now. Hopefully whatever I get (truck or suv wise) right now will be good enough to allow me to get a hummer using it as trade in collateral. So if anyone knows anyone selling their truck or SUV here is what im looking for.

decently low mileage (if the truck has a life of 180,000 and its at 150,000 I don't want it)
good working order (i don't want to have to dump a bunch of $ into it AFTER already buying it)
Less than $5,000 total and hopefully from someplace or someone who can accept monthly payments
NOT A DIESEL ENGINE!
decent gas mileage

So if you know anyone, let me know.

Theres a couple costumes I'd like to be working on but definately more concerned with getting an automobile and moving to focus on them right at this moment. They'll need to be done in a little awhile.

My friend Randy is coming back from the Army for good sometime in the next week or so so that will be awesome to see him again, I havent seen him since May. And on a sidenote a different army recruit followed me around walmart and tried to get me in. I kept telling him no I wasnt interested and he asked if I had a girlfriend and I told him, "Actually she's my fiance and we're getting married here in the spring" and he told me that both of us could get in the army and live together on base... I turned to him, smiled and said "there isn't a damn person on this planet, not even bush himself, that will get me or her in the military or anywhere near it" then walked off.

I was at toys r us last night! they had a costume contest and I went there in my stormtrooper armor to give the kids a thrill. There were a good many little darth vader's jedi and clone troopers. There was even the most adorable little yoda, couldn't of been more than 2 years old. They got a kick out of it and this one darth vader kept chasing the jedi around and he'd run up to me and say "stormtrooper i found some of the jedi! lets go get them!" and we'd track them around the store. It was awesome. They had an ages 18+ category as well and I won best fictional character and won a digital camera. it sucks as a camera but it can be used as a webcam too... which is what its being used as so my precious Katie in WV can finally see me everyday as I can her on her webcam!

Hmmmm..... well I suppose thats about it...... Talk to everyone later! PEACE OUT! I love you Katie!

Sunday, October 16, 2005

Sun, 16 Oct 2005 08:11:04 GMT

Well I got back from New York late Friday night. It was fun, I had a blast despite getting completely drenched the entire time. But it was fun. All the guys and girls from the different garrisons in the area were just awesome, I made so many new friends this week.

I've been really lonely these past few days , I havent talked to Katie since Thursday evening and its killing me. I mean I've left her voice mails both friday and saturday and I will talk to her tonight hopefully, but its not the same. Since the day I've met her I have NEVER gone longer than 24 hours without telling her how much I love her. But with me being in NY and her being at camp it'll be close to 74 hours since last talking to her until Ill be able to talk to her again. I miss her so much its killing me, Im about ready to just visit her this upcoming weekend so I can see her again.

Well I need to leave for another carida event in an hour so I'm gonna cut this short.. I love you Katherine Diane Moore, so much.

Saturday, October 08, 2005

Sat, 08 Oct 2005 22:21:52 GMT

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY BABY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Its me and Katie's 2 month anniversary and these past 2 months have been the best of my life. I told her earlier today to imagine the next 70 years of her life as happy and joyous as these past two months and she smiled.

It feels like just yesterday that I met her, time stands still when I think of her, and shes all I think about!

I've been contemplating whether or not I want to move out to WV while shes in high school... if I don't then Ill be moving to wherever she goes to college at thats for sure.

Well thats it for now... Im just sitting here waiting for her to get home. I miss you all! Drop me a line sometime!

Pic

Monday, September 26, 2005

Mon, 26 Sep 2005 15:16:51 GMT

Ahh sweet Monday. Well its not the best monday in the world but not the worst.

I get to see Katie again this Saturday! Its her homecoming and oh I am sooooo longing to dance the night away with her and meet the rest of her friends and hold her in my arms and just.... be with her.

Yes I know she's all I talk about now.... but thats probably because she's all I care about. We were talking last night about where she wants to go to college and stuff. I plan on moving close to whatever college she goes to. SO yes you've heard it my friends, your dear piccolo has less than 2 years left in Carlisle. Unless she decides to go to dickinson... then ill be here for 6 more years.

Yes indeed I truly love her so, she was feeling really down a few days ago. Some of her friends said some hurtful things about me and her and she just got really depressed and was thinking we'd never be together. But I gave her a good lecture on how much I love her and how nothing can stop that love. It really cheered her up.

Well David and his girlfriend Missy are going in for a sonogram (spelling?) to see what the baby is. Shes only 4 and a half or so months pregnant and she looks really pregnant. I think shes caring twins... or at least 2 ... maybe even 3. I hope not because more than one baby is going to be a huge pain on their finances.

I love you Katie, 4 days baby until you can have your second chance to jump into my arms.

Monday, September 19, 2005

Mon, 19 Sep 2005 14:40:22 GMT

Well I've been laying here trying to figure out how to put to words the best weekend of my life. Well after a few hours I've finally given up trying to describe it. It was just that, the best weekend of my life.

I finally since the end of July got to see my sweetheart Katie! I don't know how to describe how great of a feeling that is. Imagine your best friend leaving the country for 20 years... and then coming back to visit you. That still doesnt even describe it... but hopefully its close.

We held eachother close the entire weekend and it became just a series of the greatest moments of my life..... One after another after another. Every second became the NEW best moment of my life... only to be replaced by the very next second.

I gave her her present this weekend. Which was a diamond ring. I know what your thinking... TONY!!!!! you moron now shes going to think your talking about marriage!

Well I've already told her I'm going to marry her and explained that this WAS an engagment ring. Only instead of most people who get engaged and then marry after like 8 months... we're just going to be engaged for 6 or so years. So technically am I officially engaged???? if you want to say no then go ahead. But what I define engaged as is promising someone to always be there for them and love them all the days of their life. And thats all it is... an engagement is a promise of marriage. And I've promised her those things, plus so much more. So when you realllly think about it... engaged is just a word people use to let everyone else know they are in a relationship that they intend to last the rest of their lives. Well thats us, so everyone... I introduce to you my fiance Katherine Diane Moore soon to be the future Mrs. Piccolo!

You think I'm crazy? go right ahead and think it. But to those of you who truly know that when I set my mind to something I accomplish it... I'll see you at the wedding.

If you want the details of the weekend... my fiance is actually typing it out event by event. So if you want to read what we did or just see who this woman is... visit http://www.xanga.com/lady_shagget

Eternally in Love,

Tony

Tuesday, September 13, 2005

Tue, 13 Sep 2005 18:28:17 GMT

Well ive been so love stricken I havent been posting any entries. lol sorry.

Well this saturday im heading out to west virginia to finally see my girl again.. Its been over a month and its been killing me. But Ill see her this weekend and I couldn't be more excited!

Life has been sweet, ive never been happier. Band season started and we've had 2 games already. Both games the football team dominated 47 - 0 and 40 - 7. I think Carlisle is going to make playoffs this year. They seem to be having a good start so far.

Im in the final stages of finishing my stormtrooper armor! then yours truly will be a stormtrooper as well!

Well I know you all are sick and tired of hearing me saying I love Katie.... well... TOO DAMN BAD! I LOVE KATHERINE DIANE MOORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! there I said it again. and I probably will in event entry... get used to it.

We celebrated our 1 month anniversary on the 8th so as of today we've been together for 1 month and 5 days. :)

Well Catch you all later!

Tony

Wednesday, August 24, 2005

Wed, 24 Aug 2005 22:10:10 GMT

So it seems Katie might not be making it out to Joe Bells this Saturday, which is dissappointing. I'll survive, but I want to see her so bad. Its like killing me literally, to love a woman so much and never have even held her or kissed her. Its worse than a dagger through the heart. But oh well, life isn't fair... but it got me together with Katie in the first place, which I am undeniably thankful of.

So work at the Toy Cave is proceeding nicely, its a wreck but that is a sign of progress. It'll look like an entirely new store when we reopen on tuesday. We've been covered with dust moving stuff around that hasnt moved in years. And the basement is full of asbestos covered pipes, so the trick to remodeling the place is to hold your breath.

Well I don't think there is anything else new and exciting, guess Ill update later this week.

Tony