So I guess my most recent entries should have been kept in private. I am once again in the wrong for letting it out on here. Sometimes I just jot down my feelings and look for no response from anyone, despite what my messages are insinuating. I have always done that and didn't receive much response from anyone. 

I will go back to silence because I cannot do this to you anymore. Things slowly get better without me, which is I want for you. But then I somehow do go through a tough time and cry out for a lost friend. I don't mean to 'use' you through my hard times. For now on, all my entries will be non-related to my sad feelings and if I do feel the need to express my pain on here, it will be protected from innocent eyes who should not have to read this about me. I am sorry to have disturbed you once again.

However, my last entry was more geared toward my family, mom & dad, more specifically. They don't understand what is going on in my head and they choose not to try and understand.