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Thursday, June 08, 2006

Thu, 08 Jun 2006 05:10:36 GMT

We don't have to try 
To think the same thoughts 
We just have a way 
Of knowing everything's gonna be ok 
 
We'll laugh 'til we cry 
Read each others minds 
Live with a smile 
Make it all worthwhile 
Make it all worthwhile 
 
Life has moments hard to describe 
Feeling great and feeling alive 
Never coming down from this 
Mountain we're on 
Always knowing we're gonna be fine 
Feeling great and feeling alive 
Never coming down from this 
Mountain were on 
The view is so clear 
And it's crazy up here 
Life is amazing with you on the ride 
 
We don't wanna sleep 
Just wanna stay up 
There's so much to say 
And not enough hours in the day 
 
We'll laugh 'til we cry 
Read each others minds 
Live with a smile 
Make it all worthwhile 
Make it all worthwhile 
 
Life has moments hard to describe 
Feeling great and feeling alive 
Never coming down from this 
Mountain we're on 
Always knowing we're gonna be fine 
Feeling great and feeling alive 
Never coming down from this 
Mountain were on 
The view is so clear 
And it's crazy up here 
Life is amazing with you on the ride 
 
We try be lazy 
The journey is perfect 
The place is so crazy 
The race is so worth it 
I will be with you 
We'll do this together 
Always together 
 
Life has moments hard to describe 
Feeling great and feeling alive 
Never coming down from this 
Mountain we're on 
(Mountain we're on)
 
Always knowing we're gonna be fine 
Feeling great and feeling alive 
Never coming down from this 
Never comin' down 
Never comin' down 
Never comin' down (from this) 
 
Always knowing were gonna be fine 
Feeling great and thinking alike 
Never coming down from this 
Mountain were on 
(Never coming down from this) 
 
The views so clear and it's crazy up here 
Life is amazing with you on the ride 
The place so is crazy 
The race is so worth it 
Life is amazing with you on the ride

Tuesday, March 28, 2006

Tue, 28 Mar 2006 04:34:27 GMT

I've had this "aha" moment these last few weeks. I finally realized that being crabby and pissed off all of the time was getting me no where. Why be angry at something you can't fix? I've been sooo much happier lately just living. I choose to forget about those little things that, in the end, won't matter and to remember all of the little moments we share that will forever mold who I am.

I'm growing up so damn fast it scares even me. I'm breaking from this shell of everything I have been for the past 20 years and I have NEVER felt so good. I won't lie, I'm scared to death of all of this. For the past 20 years I've had my mom and my sister there for me at any hour of any given day. And now, I'm moving out. Granted I'm moving just a few miles away, but it's the principle of the whole deal. This won't be my home. From now on, it's my parents house...it's not home. And I'm scared. Can I really have "home" without all of them? Without my support group...my best friends? There are days when I am so excited about all of this I feel I will burst with excitement. And then there are days where I sit and cry because I'm leaving...everything. I'm just so afraid that everything will fall apart. It sounds so dumb...but it's just this feeling. We have these nights...and its just wonderful. This special bonding that I would never trade anything for. But without living here, I'm afraid I'll fall out of that loop. Pretty soon I'll have my own things going on and no time for that, but I want that to be my decision. It sounds selfish...but I want to choose to leave...not be left out. And yes, I am a baby about that stuff...but for so long it's just been us. My mom and my sister are the ONLY ones I can always depend on. They are my rock...everything I am is because of them. So, now I have to move on and become who I will be...without them. I just pray I make good decisions.

So stop waiting

until you finish school,

until you go back to school,

until you lose ten pounds,

until you gain ten pounds,

until you have kids,

until your kids leave the house,

until you start work,

until you retire,

until you get married,

until you get divorced,

until Friday night,

until Sunday morning,

until you get a new car or home,

until your car or home is paid off,

until spring,

until summer,

until fall,

until winter,

until you are off welfare,

until the first or fifteenth,

until your song comes on,

until you've had a drink,

until you've sobered up,

until you die,

until you are born again

to decide that there is no better time than right now to be happy.

Happiness is a journey, not a destination.

yes, pointless ramble i know. but it makes sense to me.

Friday, March 17, 2006

Fri, 17 Mar 2006 03:06:15 GMT

Love is the answer

At least for most of the questions in my heart

Why are we here and where do we go

And how come it's so hard

It's not always easy and sometimes life can be deceiving

I'll tell you one thing

It's always better when we're together

Monday, March 13, 2006

Mon, 13 Mar 2006 02:09:56 GMT

this is me. this is who i am. YOU are who i am.

Y O U keep me alive

you saved me.

you believe in me.

you believe in us.

i love you.