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HottiMommi
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Country: United States
State: Washington
Birthday: 11/13/1982
Gender: Female
Interests: Some of everything!
Expertise: Photographer at the moment! Tomarrow, who know's?
Occupation: Artist
Industry: Art
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Member Since:
9/1/2003
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| So, like I haven't written anything on here in forever, but that's because a lot has been going on. First Bogar and I were having a lot of problems. He was getting mean and I just wasn't happy any more. So I moved out in Sept. and we were going to try to fix things. Well, he just started to get meaner about everything. So I broke up with him. About a month later I started kinda dating someone else and well when Bogar found out he came over and basically broke every single thing in my house. Needless to say he spent the weekend in jail. SO the last few months I've been dating this guy. He's the nicest guy and I have a lot of feelings for him. Only he's married and has kids in Mexico. I don't feel to bad though because it's more of just a friendship with benefits situation. Nothing more, because I know he has a family but at the same time easy for me because I don't have to worry about any kind of long term commitment or anything. But then a few weeks ago I started to feel really sick. So I went to the Doctors, and guess what. I'M PREGNANT. Which sux because I was getting a shot once a month t make sure I didn't get pregnant. Well they think what happened was because I was on anti-biotics for strepp throat. Now not only do I have to deal with being pregnant, but there are some side effects that could happen for the baby. Nothing to serious though. But the guys married so I told him that I understood he had a family already and was going home before I got pregnant and that me being pregnant didn't change a thing. But that he was going to have to decide if he wanted to be involved or not. Well, he decided that it would be easier for him if he just didn't know anything. Yeah, that's nice but I understand that it's because he doesn't want to ruin his family. I think it just sux for me because this is the last baby I get to have and how many people are there in this world that are going to want too get involved in any kind of long term relationship with a 21 year old who already has 3 babies and also someone who they'll never be able to have their own baby with. And how am I going to explain not only to the baby but the other kids what happened? That I slept with and got pregnant by a guy who was married and already had kids? This sux and while I'm not angry at the guy because I can understand his point of view, I can't help but think how nice it must be to get to go home to your family and pretend like nothing ever happened while I get stuck here by myself taking care of everthing. But then Again he'll have to be the one wondering everday for the rest of his life about the baby he'll never know. | | |
| Kay guys sorry I haven't written in a long time. Been kinda busy. Not much going on lately. I wish there was but nope. Things have been quite boring lately. Just hanging out doing nothing at all
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Gabby is learning how to walk now. He can stand up for quite a long while by himself, and take two or three steps before he falls. I love it. he's so cute. He got his hair cut and officially owns a haircut.
Lots-O-Luv,
Jeana Steinborn | | |
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WWWWWWWAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!
So nobody likes me or reads my site anymore!!!
Oh well. Just another way I'm on my own for awhile. He He He anyway........
I'm excited and yet kinda sad and scared about moving out by myself.
I've been working lot's lately though which is really good except for the fact that I've been late three times in the past week. Not good. Once Chrystal who promised to get Shaylah was late to cme and get her and then I got stuck in traffic at the mall and then today I had to help the Computer illiterate Bogar talk to his family via webcam in Argentina.
Hey guys ever wonder what it feels like to be me? I found a picture to describe it.
Anyways gotta go sorry t make it so short!!
Lots - O - Luv
Jeana L. Steinborn | | |
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Yeah So the picture above is so me and Bogar lately which is why........ Sniff......sniff........I'll be moving out on my own with the kids on Monday......WWWAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHH!!
It's for the better though. We're not breaking up just seperating for a little bit to fix our own individual problems so that the don't keep turning into each other's problems which causes too much stress and then has us yelling at each other and him kicking me out every other day. I want to fix this before it get so bad that we can't. So, it's for the good of things. Bogar's still gonna come over and watch the kids every night and he's welcome over any time. But now I don't have to stress about his debt. And he doesn't have to worry about mine and we can't use it against each other. Beside maybe he'll come to appreciate me more and not take for granted the thingd that I do. Maybe he'll realize I'm his equal and not a child he's in charge of.
Who am I trying to convince though you guys or myself. I'm upset about and want to change my mind but I know if I do we'll be right back where we started from. Maybe even worse. We both agreed though that it'll be at least three months or until all his stuff is paid off.
Lots - o - Luv,
Jeana L. Steinborn | | |
| So I wake up this morning around five olcock with this bad feeling. So I get up and walk around the house. The only thing I notice was that the girls hadn't come home from their party. SO this worries me because I think something happened to them.
I go back to bed and when I get back up and go to work Amanda tells me. Don't worry because she just talked to them.
So I start thinking oh great then. Maybe my bad feeling means that Chrystal's gonna forget to pick Shaylah up from school like she's supposed to.
So I'm working working working, waiting for the school to call.....
And the call comes. Only it wasn't the school, it was my Dad. He was calling to tell me that my Mom was in the hospitol because she's sick and they're gonna take out her gall-bladder hoping that it solves the problem. And get this....he took her into the hospitol at what time?????? Five o'clock in the morning. Duh duh dummmmm!!!!
Lots - o - Luv,
Jeana
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