Hello.

Time does see to stand still while I watch other people live their lives.
I know I'm not ready to move one and let go.
Its been one year.
I'm so tired and yet I still can't let go.
I hate this.
...I wish this was all one bad dream...

These past days have been some of the hardest days.
Feelings can overwhelm me. I can feel my breaking point is nearing everyday that pasts.
It is very hard for me to ask people for help when I need it. I know i am very selfish when it comes to asking for help. I know I rely on myself to get through anything to almost everything. I try to find a way. I'm selfish .. or is it, am I reluctant to burden myself upon others. Even if I wanted a way out I do not have one. Now I ponder my mind this past year about things that have happened. I've been forced to grow up to quickly and i know I'm not ready to take up responseabilitys but I know i'm forced into. These things are stressful I admit, but I know i can handle.
My feelings?
They are not a concern until I get things handled and done with.

This blog comes to an end without a real beginning.
When will matters come to an end?
Time is a matter that I am burdened with.

Well xanga, it has been quite a while. For the most part I have been doing alright. School has been.. well i just havn't been paying much attention but i know i'm doing a little bad. I need to fix that and quickly. Life still won't move on. I have been stuck in this one area for so long. The legal process is very slow, but i just think my lawyer is very stupid and doesn't really care much.
It was miko's birthday yesterday. Yes happy birthday to him. CAB and then some was there. It was chilled. SANG alot. My voice is kinda scratchy today. At the end of the night we ended up bowling at like 2 am or something. I was very tired . Something got me thinking. I really don't know why i can't let my guard down anymore, or is it just the people are just very ignorant or just damn straight immature. Well i don't know. I dwell over some things in the past still.