There are a lot of things wrong in this world. Things that make me sad. Things i know break God's heart. I know this isn't anywhere near my problem but the whole thing with the groom being shot on his wedding day. If you don't know what i'm talking about read the news. Basically a groom and his groomsmen left an" adult entertainment" place(i'm not sympathizing with that part) but they hit a couple undercover cop cars, and the cops shot the dude's car 50 times. 50!!! these were unarmed guys, and these cops broke police policy on car chases and fired 50 rounds into the car. This dude was getting married in like 8 hours, had 2 kids. They hit the groom 19 times(or 21 mixed reports) and killed him, they also wounded two of the other guys. Cops are supposed to protect and serve. I understand chasing the guys down and arresting them, but shooting them 50 times. no. I really just wanna scream. how wrong the whole thing is. I really wish i was some hero or vigilante so i could bring justice, but i can't bring dude back, and vengance is God's. So there's not a lot i can do.

I know it's the result of sin, and the product of our broken world. I know that while we can do good through God, and love each other, it's not gonna change till Christ comes back.

On a smaller scale. Friday night one of the teens i work with tried to steel my mp3 player. Now if you know me, you know i dig my music and i value that thing highly for it's content. So i was sitting there in the bus and i thought "ok i'm here to love these guys, let it go" so i said "alright i know one of you took it, i'm not mad and you wont be in trouble, just give it back so we can go home" well 20 minutes went by, and then one of the parents asked the kids to step off the bus and be searched, well one of my kids comes up and says "i'll help you find it mr. hector" so he bends down and sticks his hands under my seat" now me and 25 other people searched under that seat and i could see clearly it was empty. Kid reaches behind him, slides my mp3 player to the ground and says "I found it mr. hector" he was caught by me and 15 other people. I wasnt even mad he took it, seriously, i just was hurt he'd lie about it. i talked to him later, and tried to tell him how important it was for him to tell me the truth, and he said "i swear to God! i didnt do it, he can strike me dead!" I really hate lies, and being lied to hurts so much.

This world is broken, i cant fix it, but i can preserve some of it. So i'm doing all i can.

"I'm still here, and i'm tired. Tired of sin and struggling tired of almost everything" "I hope the prince of peace is coming soon"-Supertones