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8 days to my bday!
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| Oh SugarHoneyIceTea.
My life is slowly speeding in front of my eyes. Yeahhhh. Does that really make any sense? Honestly, I have no idea what’s going on with my life. I want everything to be done and over with, yet it happens so slowly. I want to preserve those priceless moments, but then it happens in a flash. Uh huh, adults would say, ‘you’re still young, what do you know about the future?’. Haha, they’re probably right, but on the other hand, DUDE, they’re old, what do they know about the “future”, they already lived half of their lives. I don’t know, what am I truly looking forward to? My future. What are my goals do I want to achieve in my life? Success. Alright. Let’s narrow it down. What do I want to achieve in coming years? I don’t know. By the end of this year? I don’t know. By the end of this month? I don’t know. By the week? I don’t know. By the end of this day? I honestly have no idea. I know they say to live to look forward for tomorrow, but what is there to look forward to? I find it truly sad. Hmmm… why bother setting goals for my future when before you know it, the world will be destroyed thanks to the companies for global warming; that is, only if humanity haven’t destroy itself. Ahhhhh………Oh how satisfying it would be if someone could answer [and provide concrete evidence] the doubts one possesses. But truly unfortunate, I don’t think anyone could.
LaLa. I wonder if my medical insurance would cover my couple sessions with a therapist. But ‘til then, I’ll stick to writing it down. So… how was the summer? Completely Bogus. I didn’t really get anything done. But I’m currently employed as a full time nanny for the infamous Jessamine. Okay, Okay, I’m not quite a nanny, just a babysitter. It is truly just heartwarming and inspiring when you know that a baby follows you. You feel loved. And sometimes, that’s all you need. Just from her. Her love is more than enough. You just have to love her.
Enough of that, Missouri week turned out a lot more exciting than I expected, after all, it is my consecutive eighth year going, so yeah after a while, what more can you expect? But I was wrong, dead wrong. From the many trips to Walmart to the bubble tea booth late at night just to get my mocha. And did I mention, Kathy, you should consider a career in psychology; such an awesome person to speak to. An eyewitness of me getting ran over by that “stupid” priest [I’m sorry lord. Its truly necessary] who didn’t even say sorry or bother to see if I was “breathing”, we’re after him next year right? Lily, you need to go to rehab; you’re constantly on drugs. Unfortunately, I didn’t get to spend much [if any] quality time with my Trang&Jenn. Haha. Yes, I must mention, my good ol’ bud, Dr. Vuong, you must be there next year, I want my mocha bubble tea, or else .And, yes, Ngoc, my abusive&aggressive good friend, you are just indescribable. If I had to pick anyone else to go on the trip to the Precious Moments Chapel with me, trust me honey, it wouldn’t be you again. Jk of course. And other cousins&”people”, dude, you guys rocked. Thank you for making it such a blessing to be there. So who’s still up for next year? If someone’s driving, most likely, I’m there. So you better be too.
So today was Monday. If it was like six months back, I’ll still be struggling to stay awake for Mr. Cocoran’s class. I miss school, yet the thought of it sickens me to my stomach. Silly huh? The other day was the 13th. What was that you wonder? It was the day I walked down the aisle of my church out of my school. It was my graduation, ending my grade school years from Visitation as Class of 2006. I miss those muthafookers who’s always stirring up trouble, but I love them. Time flies. Sigh. And if it was two weeks ago from today, I would be getting ready to leave for Missouri. Exactly a week ago is when I departed from Missouri to return to reality. Nice eh?
Wow, so I’m writing a novel huh? Once I get started, I guess there’s no end to it huh. Sigh. It might be contradicting, but I actually accomplished some things today. I cleaned up my room, its not spotless, but better than before. I got an airbed in there on the floor, just in case if anyone wants to crash in you know, just kidding of course, no one’s welcome in my room. Its completely off limits. Jessamine takes her beauty sessions there. And then, finally I washed my own clothes [and some of Hong’s]. Before I would do my family laundry, but for the first time, its actually all my stuff. Man did I feel responsible. A closer step to becoming a ‘big kid’.
Today, I finally put my graduation stuff away. I wanted to hold onto those memories, but then, wtf, I’m not getting anything or anywhere so its time to let go. I still have four balloons left, yeah they actually lasted. I put my cap and other graduation junk in a box, and as I was doing that, I felt as though my school year flashed in my head. To the drama, the laughter, the discipline, the field trips, the memories. Sigh. But if you don’t let go the old ones, how would the new ones come? HAHA I always found that phrase cheesy, but its true.
And also today, I went and purchased my high school uniform to West Catholic. I spent 108 dollars. Uh Huh, huong’s cash. Not mommy’s, not hoa’s, Huong’s money. Yeah, it was hard to let go, but think of it this way, the less money I have in my hands, the less I would spend, and the less I would eat. Ahhh, what a brilliant plan. But it actually made me realize, I’m going to high school and its my problem now, not my parents or siblings, since I’m a “big kid” now. But for some reason, I’m not anxious, excited or frightened of high school. Its just replacing the eight hours of television of my day with pure anxiety and boredom. HAHA right?
Well, I guess that I should get to bed, since I needa wake up for Mass tomorrow. Night. The one and only. Huong T. Nguyen | | |
| oh lord. im not even finish shopping yet, and then i gotta pack. dude.
i'm leaving monday night, probably arrive like in the evening of
tuesday.
who's ready for MISSOURI?
NOT ME!
see you there ;]
She is watching you. No gimmicks.
boy oh boy isnt she just so cute? HAIR done by ME ;]
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| how to begin.
my days have been simpler than ever. mommy wakes me
up around six each morning. takes me alittle more than fifteen minutes
to brush my teeth, do my hair, change to my sweats, and put on contacts
and then head out the door.powerwalk and run with my mother, often in
silence. come home around seven thirty. get a drink of some refreshing
cold water, then head for a brief shower, then head to mass at eight. i
sit in church and pick at my nails, until the priest gives to
concluding rites. honestly, i have no idea why i bothered to come to
mass, i never ever pay attention even on sundays. i wont say that im
religious, but i do believe there is a god, and that is the lord jesus,
and then there's a heaven and a hell, but for some reason, faith is
important to me, but i dont know why.
after i get home from church which is around eight
thirty, head upstairs to my room and watch my mtv's and vh1's in the
morning. the music is irresistible. hong's usually just up then, and
hogs the bathroom. i sit around just listening to some tunes.usually
munch down some cereal with milk [especially cornpop, cookie crisps, or
honeynutcereal] then its time for laundry. dig around the house for
some dirty laundry, and then take a walk down to the basement.
detergent in, clothes in, close lid, and turn dial. the washer starts
to run. i stand there and stare for a bit, and for some reason, i find
it rather refreshing the sound of running water.
by the time i escape back from my trance, susan
drags her daughter, Jessamine, and son, Johnny, into the house. The
usual commotion, OMG johnny you're so cute! awwww look at jessamine!
tah tah. i put on jessamine's favorite flick, teletubbies. she loves it
all, the song, the freakish aliens with huge eyes, and the babyface
sun. she dances and claps along. her mommy and aunties leave for work.
after teletubbies, the agenda also consists of barney&friends at
9:30, then my show: Faily Oddparents, at 10:30 is Dragontales. 11 is
teletubbies again. and then Barney at 12, which is usually the time
where jessamine falls asleep. take her upstairs and tuck her into bed.
My parents have breakfast/lunch and i sit and agonize about my mistakes
as i watch jessamine sleep.
if im lucky, i get a visit from Nancy and her five
daughters. two are television addicts, two are hyperactive rugrats who
are just so troublesome. sometimes, there's sandy and nhu nhu who joins
them. and man, including johnny, those kids intensify the noise like
wh0a. first is omg can i be your friend, and then you're so stupid, and
then johnny starts crying, then just pure laughter. Nancy is a busy
person, she's always running "errands", thus abandoning her kids. after
countless hours of pure evil [from the kids], she returns and takes
these angels from above home. well except for her cute youngest infant,
Christine, she's just beyond loveable.
Jessamine usually naps for about three hours, and
after she wakes up, we just sit around and "chill" for hours. that
includes changing diapers and mixing formulas. around five thirty, its
time to shower for the baby. one of my favorite, because babies are
like dolls, you could dress them up. after she bathes, playtime for a
half hour, then she hits the sheets and dozes off. she's the cutest
angel ever, even though she is just wild. she sleeps for about two
hours.
from then on, i see if my mommy needs help with
preparing dinner which she usually doesnt. so i just sit and watch
television. and well television. thats a big part of my life. at three,
i watch "what i like about you" and flips to "Life with Derek". at
four, there's "ripley's, beleive it or not" then just flips the channel
til six. at six there's simpsons, six thirty, "my wife and kids". and
then seven i watch "CSI" and "Simpsons". then its time for "Unwrapped"
on the Food Network or "Fairly Oddparents". Between those time, there's
"Suite Life of Zack and Cody"; "Phil of the Future" and those MTV
shows. About time i finish off my shows, Susan and the girls are
usually home from the shop around eight. I sit on my steps for like
fifteen minutes or so, getting some outdoor fresh air. Soon, the family
begins to dine, and engages themselves in conversations, at which,
sometimes im excluded. After dinner, who's ever turn it is to wash,
does the dishes. My parents go out for a little stroll around the
block. I usually argue with someone til they come back.
When they come back, its time for family prayers.
Yikes, another oppurtunity for me to wander in my thoughts. As soon as
prayer finishes, i run upstairs to be alone in my own world in my room.
As i watch television, i hear the usual rude comments and gossip. I act
as though i do not care, but somehow it brings tears to my eyes. After
a bit, hong, angie, and hoa leaves for practice at tiffany's place
while i sit home and feel bad because i "abandoned" them. whatever,
they dont understand. they replaced me as soon as i quit, so yeah so
much for a team. i dont blame them, its not their fault im incompetent.
but i still cant look at them, because when i do, i just curse them and
wish them the unfortunates, even if they are my flesh and blood. oh
well the world spins on.
as i watch my night shows ["South Park"; "Whose Line
is It, Anyways?"; "Futurama";"Family Guy" and "E"], my mom and dad
would walk in and ask me some weird questions trying to get me to spill
but i dont. before you know it, i fell asleep with the television on,
and hong's home and wakes me up to sleep correctly...
ooiii the pleasure of life ;]
there isnt much i look forward to. I sometimes work
in the weekends, but then, they dont need me since hong's there. well,
probably starting next monday, im going to start babysitting for Nancy
so she could work. Oh boy how the daily schedule would change. Well, in
less than two weeks, i'll be getting ready to head out for missouri to
see the lovely miss ngoc and whoever else who's going. boy oh boy i
need to go shopping. probably make cody drive me one of these days. a
week in missouri. when i come back, its time for preparation as a
freshman for high school. West Catholic, here i come dude....
Toodles. Til next time. ;] | | |
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