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| There is nothing better than an iced coffee, windows down, sometime at night, and blues.
I'm just going to say it for the record.
That list of things are probably in my top ten.
So for a blues lover like me, i wrote a little.
no one knows what happened.
i guess no one ever will
just a shadow of smoke
lingering on the ground
waiting to be covered up by hurried footsteps
make sure you're on time for your appointment
i know he won't wait forever
like ive promised you i will.
perfect five pointed shapes where your eyes used to be
looking through the glass right at me.
locked doors and boarded up windows
ive lived in this town for long enough
to know what the future has in store for my love
poison soaks in from the ground in which i sleep on.
you'll be dead by morning if you follow in my steps.
you said, 'i wont fight it, i promise i wont scream'
but baby its more than you think
This life aint for the weak.
I'm sorry love, my heart isnt yours to keep.
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| I just saw Owen and Rocky Votolato and wow, what an amazing performance by both.
Each are so unique in their lyrics and music.
Pure amazement.
I'll develop the pictures I took at the concert sometime within the next week.
I wrote this a while back, enjoy:
All of Creation Moans
To the sound of the waves;
Crashing upon shores of memories.
With jagged rocks upon the clifts;
Sticking straight out with forked tounges,
They won't set you free.
Oh, Darling, they are only there to capture you.
I've picked duty tonight on the light tower,
Just follow my signal to safety.
You say 'oh its so dark, i dont think ill be able to see'
Just turn your eyes up and look towards me.
Because in darkness my light shines the brightest,
And you'll never have to worry about planting a seed in the sand.
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| A friend gave me the new Arcade Fire album.
It beats Of Montreal's or Clap Your Hands Say Yeah's new releases.
Here is something I wrote the other day.
It is quite long, but If you take the time to read it.
I am sure you'll enjoy it.
I am very happy for whoever created the program called 'Notepad.'
I can open it and just type line by line my thoughts, emotions, ideas, or whatever it is I plan on writing about.
I don't think this program is ideal for writing a novel, or perhaps an encyclopedia
No spell check, no grammer check, just a blank tablet in which letters form based on me hitting the keys on the keyboard.
But enough of my rambling about a computer program.
What I really want to get to is this uncontrolable love I have for my family and friends, and well everything.
I've been 'high on God' or had my 'fire inside set ablazed'
But this isn't anything like that.
I didn't just get back from a mission trip or a retreat
Or some seminar or anything special.
I am merely sitting at Starbucks sipping on coffee and listening to music.
Nothing more, nothing less.
It is pretty amazing how the human body responds to such stimuli
I wonder though if we are truely grasping what God really wants us to feel.
The sun shines so we say we are warm.
The grass grows greener in the Spring, so we say we can't wait til Spring.
But what if there was something so much deeper that God wanted us to experience.
I believe there is.
That God is part of the most beautiful things here on Earth.
His hands and His love are a part of every sunset and every joyess moment we experience on earth.
I say this, because it just makes sense.
It makes a whole lot of sense that reason our eyes light up at a beautiful sunrise or sunset or how the hairs in our nose tingle at the smell to a fresh rose
Is because it is actually a work of God.
That he wanted us to feel that way so we can praise Him for His greatness.
This morning I woke up and dragged myself to class at 8 o clock
Not really excited about anything.
But when I walked out of class into the fresh air and cool breeze
I immediatly thought of God and how beautiful He is.
That without His doings, I wouldn't be able to experience any of this.
I returned to my room and turned on some blues and just layed in bed, feeling terrific.
Last night I prayed to God to make me more reverent and more thankful.
Not just the, Oh man thanks God, that was a pretty cool sunset'
But like a Super Thanker.
Throwing my hands in the air and just dancing because that is what I do when I am truely happy and truely thankful
Or if I am in the car, I turn the music up real loud and sing just high enough so I can't hear myself over the song playing.
I think it is more than a kind act by God, meaning all this beauty on earth.
I think it is actually Him.
He is beautiful and He is allowing us to catch a microscopic glimpse of what He is all about.
This morning when I was listening to blues, I was looking for a new picture to go on my background of my computer.
I searched through random photos on my computer.
Looked at some of my photography.
But nothing was so appealing that it became my background.
But then I opened the folder that contained all the black and white photos of my family from Christmas.
And I found the perfect picture.
When I opened it to full-size I couldn't believe the smile that appeared on my face.
I thought of how perfect God is, and how thankful I was for such a wonderful and supporting family.
The picture has a lot of contrast so I wouldnt normally share it, but the subject matter is the greatest thing i have ever captured through a camera lens.
My mum, little brother, and step-dad sitting on a couch all wearing what has to be the biggest smiles ever!
Small tears formed in the corner of my eyes and I remembered how it felt to be so happy that you want to cry.
Not because of sadness but because of joy.
It brought me to think of this unconditional love I have for them all and they have for me.
I have done a lot of stupid things growing up but my mom put up with it all.
I beat the crap out of my brother when we were both little
But we have both matured and we share the strongest bond I have ever shared with anyone.
As God shows me mercy and love, I in turn show that to my brother.
It is jsut truely wonderful to God is working in every aspect of my life.
He causes the muscles in my face to form into a fmile
He causes the light to shine from the sun
And without Him I wouldn't be anywhere near complete.
I can't 'find myself' in another human being, or a new thing, or anthing on this Earth.
That God is who defines me.
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So lately my life has consisted of three things:
Cooking
Listening to music
Reading
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| brain, wain
pieces, decreases
modest, goddess
you, to do
reinforcement, endorsement
accomplished, accomplish
ill pick your body apart into tiny pieces
ill sell it on the black market until the supplies decrease
i think real hard, walk real slow maybe its a college thing
i dont like big groups, its a bit embaressing
now take your time to walk away
i like looking at how your ass sways
i tend to use my brain
i dont speak words out of vain
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There is a battle between hearts and minds
I surround myself with art, not crime.
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