Holy cow it has been so long so I have been on here! I completely forgot I had this!

So last week I finished my first year teaching. I survived 24 first graders. Unreal. I can't believe that when I walked into my room on work day that they weren't bounding off the bus after me. That I had no more shoes to tie, tears to dry, laugh till I cried moments with them. They were just gone. It was so bittersweet. They were ready, I taught them what they needed, they were ready. I wasn't though. I cried all day. I'm grateful for my summer but it's a part of my heart that's missing until I have a class again. It's sick, I know. But I can't help it. I'm tutoring 7 kids this summer and that will make it go by fast, and teaching summer school in August.

I bought my first house. It's a three bedroom house with tons of character because it's old. It's solid, it's not going anywhere, lol. I thought I would have to adjust to living on my own, with no one but my cat, Heinz. However, it's amazing. It's just so relaxed and rewarding knowing it's yours. All mine! I painted my bedroom orange. Stephanie would be laugh at me with my orange bedroom, green kitchen, and blue living room. Then she would have to stop laughing because her painting hangs in that blue living room, lol! I miss my friends. I hate how jobs, and life just sucks away the time. I took for granted the ability to walk down the hall at 2am to see someone.

I'm getting a new cat this week. An adorable black and white girl. My Heinz needs a buddy, he's driving me crazy!

I left Brad. Three years. I had wasted too much time. I should have listened, but I had to learn it the hard way. A couple months later I went to just visit a friend from high school that was a couple of years older so we had lost contact the past 6 years. I haven't left his side yet. He has two year old boy and that has been a pretty interesting twist on the relationship, not bad by any means, just different. so love life is going well. I've learned.

Starting my master's in August also. It's going to be a wild ride the next two years. It wouldn't be my life if it wasn't though.

off to bed, I'm excited I found my little xanga again. I will have to use it more often.

Currently Listening Coco By Colbie Caillat see related

ya know, I thought my life was insanely busy during college. I couldn't wait until I was teaching and it calmed down.....WRONG. lol. it's more insane now! lol

so a chapter of my life was completely closed and yet the knocking on the door of looking at the past keeps pounding. when will it get the point that I've moved up, on, and out? soon I hope, haha.

colbie calliat is freaking amazing, I have listened to her cd nonstop for like 2 weeks, lol. Oh, I bought a cat! His name is Heinz, like the ketchup and anyone who knows me knows why that is funny. He's hilarious, last night he wrestled a french fry for like an hour.

new chapters starting? playing it by ear, by heart, by mind. trying to stay out of my own way, my own head, and just let what it is, be! it's a different ball game now, but it's still the same dirt, sweat and tears.

ok, off to thanksgiving at my grandma's. too long in between visits with my cousins, they are amazing. My whole family is amazing. My other grandma, who is like my best friend, calls me this morning because she had a dream that I was trying to buy a house in a rotten neighborhood so that I could turn it into a memorial. haha cracks me up....I promised her I wouldn't buy a house without her approval.

oh, go cowboys.....=)

be good, be safe, be rotten at times!

parent teacher conferences in less then 2 weeks.....woohooo

vball game tonight to see my Katie! love her!

texas on friday.....SOOOO excited.

sometimes, I wish it were ok to punch people.

how time changes things.....

I'm glad I can stand on my own two feet....I just wish someone else would understand that and quit bothering me about it.

My kids are wonderful. I have 24 very active, very loud first graders who run me wild and ragged everyday but I wake up every morning so excited to see them again. corny, yes, but I don't care anymore! lol