| | I've been exhausted beyond I can handle... Sometimes this constant tiredness
make me so depressed that I begin to think about what would happen if I had
to be the first to meet god before my parents and friends. I seem to cry every
couple hours because of the tiredness I feel and when I think of not seeing my
brother and sister grow up, I feel that I wasn't the big brother that my sister
always wanted cuz I feel I treated her so poorly when I was a little bit
younger. My parents often comfort me everyday but it kills me to see them
crying next to me on the floor while they tell me they wish they could have
done better for me when I feel they are the best parents in the world. My
brother is oblivious to everything that's going on right now and I can't help but
break into tears whenever he holds my hand or asks me to play with him cuz
I can't do anything for him right now. It's been so hard this month and I don't
know how I would have survived if it weren't for God in my life. I seem to
pray every hour cuz I can't bear the tiredness and the emotional pain tha'ts
been killing me lately. Despite all this I intend to keep fighting one day at a
time and I know God will use me somehow eventhough I feel everything is
too much for me right now.
I know that this is pretty personal but I have to get it out of my system somehow and I have to let my friends and everyone that is praying for me know how I'm feeling day to day...
I want to see everyone again and I want to know how their lives are going but I'm to tired to see them...I hope this isn't too much to ask but maybe you guys can e-mail me just to update me on stuff... korih87@hotmail.com. Thanks
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| | Posted 2/23/2004 11:54 PM - 270 views - 494 comments
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<3 stay strong