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I think my head's about to explode. Ugh, I hate being sick
I'm going to paint my nails blood red... | | |
| Okay, so... I'm feeling better now. o_o Not entirely, but... yeah.
I
guess it's a problem I've had for a long time. One that never entirely
goes away. Even when I'm happiest, I still feel like there's not much
point to anything.
I wish I could be "normal," and be happy,
but I guess it's not really something that really goes away. It's just,
the way I think. The way my mind works...
So, I guess this means I'll never really be entirely happy. | | |
| Evertime I think this feeling is gone, it comes back. I'm bored with
life. I don't see much purpose in it. I don't enjoy doing anything
anymore. I don't want to feel like this anymore >_<
And... here's a song that's been on my mind...
Every New Day by Five Iron Frenzy
When I was young
The smallest trick of light
Could catch my eye
Then life was new and every new day
I thought that I could fly
I believed in what I hoped for
And I hoped in things unseen
I had wings and dreams could soar
I just don't feel like flying anymore
When the stars threw down their spears
Watered Heaven with their tears
Before words were spoken
Before eternity
(Chorus)
Dear Father, I need You
Your strength my heart to mend
I want to fly higher
Every new day again
When I was small
The furthest I could reach
Was not so high
Then I thought the world was so much smaller
Feeling I could fly
Through distant deeps and skies
Behind infinity
Below the face of Heaven
He stoops to create me
(Chorus)
Dear Father, I need You
Your strength my heart to mend
I want to fly higher
Every new day again
Man versus himself
Man versus machine
Man versus the world
Mankind versus me
The struggles go on
The wisdom I lack
The burdens keep piling
Up on my back
So hard to breathe
To take the next step
The mountain is high
I wade in the depths
Yearning for grace
And hoping for peace
Dear God increase
Healing hands of God have mercy
On our unclean souls once again
Jesus Christ, Light of the World
Burning bright within our hearts forever
Freedom means love without condition
Without a beginning or an end
Here's my heart, let it be forever Yours
Only You can make every new day seem so new | | |
| Ooof. My head hurts.
Other than that, not much is going on.
Besides having $75 dollars in birthday and babysitting money. >:D
Not to mention a $20 gift card to Barnes and Noble. Tehehe! I'm going to the mall
later. | | |
| So, I went to the orthodontist and the doctor today.
At the
orthodontist they were training a new assistant... and basically, she
just took forever. T_T What should have been a 10 minute appointment
ended up being 30 minutes. And I had a headache. So, that was not fun.
And
then I went home for a while, and all the sudden I realized I was
supposed to have a guitar lesson this week, but I hadn't practiced at
all because I'd been really busy with birthday party planning, cleaning
and such.
So, I would be at guitar lessons right now, but I
hadn't praticed, and had a headache. T_T This is the second week I've
had to cancel it. ARGH! I WILL go to guitar lesson next week!!! >:(
So
anyways, I went to the doctor to get a checkup. Heheh, my doctor is so
funny. XD I mean, she's not like, telling jokes or anything. But, she's
a short, chubby, Indian (Like, actually from India, not a native
American) woman, and has a really strong accent. I can't understand
half of what she's saying sometimes, lol.
But, anyways, at first
be sat there for like, 20 minutes before the doctor came in. Ugh. I was
like "NOT AGAIN!!" But, the doctor finally came, and it was over
quickly. And, I had to get two shots. Oh joy!
Anyways, not too
much has been going on. I've been kind of anti-social lately, I guess.
But not THAT much. I've just been spending more of my time reading and
playing video games than being with people, soo... Yeah. I don't know,
I've been kind of irritated with everyone lately for some reason, and
so I haven't been around people much.
But yeah, that's pretty much it.
P.S. Oh yeah, my headache's gone now, too ^^ | | |
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