Happy holidays vs christmas?

Okay..I remember when i was lil..I always looked forward towards x-mas. I'd see the
"merry christmas" signs, santa, nativety scenes.True I was looking forward towards
Santa, but I would also be constantly reminded that Jesus was about to be born.I think the last time I felt it was "christmas"was when I was in Highschool and first yr of college.For the past 2yrs..It doesn't.Im sick of seeing "Happy holidays" Signs!
Where I live, we have this big shopping district"And one used to see the North star with the sign "MERRY CHRISTMAS" Now?..I just see a freakin "sorry for sounding ignorant but that damn thing they use to hold the candles during Hannukuh" thing. How offending is it to say "merry christmas" to ppl who aren't christian?..Isn't this a nation of free religion?
....blah....im starting to hate the world..and the ppl in it-_- Things like this make you want to become blind..HAHHA

and about the MTA strike....I sorta want it to happen *Then I can e-mail my finals to my teacher* and some ppl can suffer this weekend HAHAH>D
Oh+ and you know what else pisses me off? ppl who keep claiming everything they are and not.Example black ppl..this is my fave

Im black,indian,white,mexican,puertorican,and chinese, and 1/4 cherokee.
........but wtf do u look like?..BLACK? THEN STFU! Like my mama said..if u gotta ask someone if they're mixed..then they are..but if u dun..then dun bother mention all that usless shit.Who isn't mixed?I mean...I am but wtf do i look like?I acknowledge my roots...and the other ethnicities that got in it too but if im not living the life style they are..or..crap..then no point in mentioning it ALL THE TIME! Maybe once..but thats it.
dumb bitch u black, u black! do u even speak any of the languages u mixed wit...bitch
im not ignorant I just know what I can and can NOT be...i love myself too much to try and find everything i have in my family tree under the sun to be the LEAST BIT BLACK! I know we go thru alot of shit, and there's gonna be a time in our lives when we might  wanna be another race or ethnicity, but some ppl need to grow out of that.

I only want sympathy in the form of you crawling into bed with me.

so one last touch and then you'll go
and we'll pretend that it meant something so much more
but it was vile, and it was cheap
and you are beautiful but you don't mean a thing to me.

TRINIDAD QUALIFIES TO BE IN FIFA WORLD CUP 06, HELL YEAH! OMG! Like..4yrs ago i was hoping we could get in it,HOT HOT HOT!!
tnt 2 de bone, mad ppl in port of spain is celebratin n shit..lol yo in skoo mad trini's gonna be goin buck wild, can't wait to see^^

Am I changing into another person?

I'am doing things now that I never would of done when I was a teenager. I don't regret most of my decisions but...its like "why am I doing it?"
"is this what I want?"Thats what im abit confused about.A friend of mine said im becoming an adult but I still have childlike ideals.
Can I help it?...Whenever I walk past grade schools and I see the kids running around in the parks I sigh, cause that was me not that long ago
"..well minus the...okay that was me up until 2nd grade",but I feel like I belong there on some days. Does it make sense that I still have a bit of innocence left in me?..And I don't want to lose it...but as I get older..I feel I am.

If i stop believing in Santa clause then I truely am an adult=(
I wonder what he's gonna get me this yr hehe^^

My life happens to be a manga* now as well. l Its a criss cross between parakiss/nana. I am Yukari/hachigo. I like George/Takumi/Nobu.
I can go on but you guys dunno what im talkin about-_-. Its sad im using this as a map on *WHAT WILL HAPPEN NEXT* Haha..its scary..so far im in vol.3 of the parakiss stage. and ch...um 20something in nana..

-->man xanga is dead huh?..GO TO MYSPACE WEE!! http://www.myspace.com/kaguyahime


+and for the record...guys that are behemoth dun look good in tight pants.
eww..emo isn't for everyone dammit!

Someone told me i think like a man when it comes to love*
Excellent...
I thank guys in the past who never noticed me into making me low tolerant of random shit and letting me move onto new guys^^ with a 3day gurantee ease.But its sorta bad since  I dun really *LIKE* guys that much anymore[no im not turning into a lesbian..I still hate females with a passion]but..I dun say I *LIKE* A guy unless the attraction I have for them lasts a month or more.Or half the time *me liking a guy* is dormant and I dun realize my feelings until 4months later"cause im slow like that"... Last guy I liked lasted 7months....*claps* but ehh what im trying to say is..
Im too lazy to look for love anymore..what happens happens.Heh the two guys im interested in will probably be over by december "wanna make a bet?...with food onl!y!" True..I still get reminded im single*which sucks* and wanna go Jason on random PDA couples,but one day that'll be me..MAKING THOSE EX PDA COUPLES MISERABLE!! AHAHAH!!-->im bitter... 

Man..y dun ppl use xanga no more?...I dun even wanna update my shit...I just felt like writting...and its about shit like this?...argh!!