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Friday, July 04, 2008

  • i get it.....
    it's a shitty realization to come by,
    but i think i finally get it


    confusion is no longer an excuse.....
    i have no claim on you.
    i never did.
    i never will.


    our desires just didn't coincide
    and the timing will never get any better

    i am not a 'plan b'

    i will no longer be sorry

    i will take the apologies you give

    i will stop you
    i will stop me


    i hold nothing against you,
    or.... at least i am trying very hard not to.
    this i can say with confidence:
    you leave me with not a regret

    i am upset,
    but not angry.
    never angry.

    so....
    go and get her, tiger.

Wednesday, July 02, 2008

  • Currently Listening
    Something Real
    By Meg & Dia
    i'll find mine
    see related
    Don't let go of that one...
    I'll find mine.


    i'm smiling more.
    that's not meant to be as emo as that sounds.
    the sun has always been shining
    the clouds have just finally started to thin out

Tuesday, July 01, 2008

  • Currently Listening
    Frustration Plantation
    By Rasputina
    when i was a young girl
    see related
    i worked 9 1/2 hours today. i'm not complaining. i just wanted to make the statement that i worked 9 1/2 hours today.

    as vain as this sounds.... i am slowly losing weight and it is making me quite happy.

    i can't write music anymore. playing ferdinand just isn't working out. i think i'll put him down for a week. i think i'm all lyrically tapped out. there's so much left to say but that's probably why i can't write songs..... these residual thoughts were meant to be spoken.

    i really need money. frugality will be my next big thing.... after i buy a couple more records.

    i don't fall asleep until early in the morning. i dream different places filled with the same faces. one emotion runs constant. okay, more than one. but whatever those emotions are.... they must be good. because i will find myself forcing more sleep. because the minutes are days there. and i can rewind and replay and rewind and change. and i wake up and the world is just a little bit more somber a place.

    that can't be good. i don't want to wake up and think of life as basic cable on a 12 inch screen.

    when did dreams become temptation? sin?



    and to this i will sigh.
    i must remind myself to stop picking at the scab.
    the wound will never heal if i do.
  • Currently Listening
    ...Waltzing Alone
    By The Guggenheim Grotto
    Postmarnock Beach Boy Blue
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    I’ve got a black bag of wool in my head
    I’ve got a fist full of songs in my chest
    You know the sky bleeds blue not red
    It fills the sea like a vein from crest to crest

    i want to go to the beach. i want to see a meteor shower. i want to sleep in my car. i want to take a walk during a rainstorm. i want to walk barefoot in the mud and feel the squishy mess play in between my toes. i want to smell flowers, roll down hills, skip stones, steal hood ornaments, hug strangers, write messages in the books at the library, drive aimlessly, prance, dance, sing, and so much more.

    i need to be more frugal with my money. much more frugal.

    i'm still frustrated. conflicted. confused. it'd difficult to come by a definitive conclusion when you're still floatin' in the sky waiting for the tether. but until someone decides to throw me that tether... i'm left here with my thoughts as company. and as great as my imagination and my thoughts are.... i think that they are more emotionally taxing than i realize them to be. why this is so hard to dismiss is beyond me. that's a lie. but then again........ it's not completely a lie.

    i have to pee.

    we got vincent a new bowl. he seems happier. he actually swims around now. i find myself talking to him alot more these days. not in the crazy "my fish and i have awesome talks!!!! hahaHAHAHAHA" way. i'd rather talk to my fish for free than pay someone by the hour.

    i cleaned my room today. and i mean CLEANED the mother fucker. re-organized the clothes in the closet, the drawers, cleaned out books that we no longer need, then organized the book shelves, cleaned out the desk. it was nice. stress- relieving. oddly calming. all the while.... andrew jackson jihad, lemuria, the guggenheim grotto, and the decemberists played in my room.

    all in all. i go to bed, not completely satisfied.... but content.
    i will dream tonight. i'll take it in and enjoy it. in the morning i will smile. i will laugh at how silly my thoughts are.

Wednesday, June 25, 2008

  • i'm starting to believe that these highways don't lead anywhere,
    but i'm starting to believe that i don't really care



    i am frustrated
    very, very, very, frustrated
    in more ways than one

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