so much is going through my head right now...

everything has beena bout summer and friends until this week...life has gotten a lot harder and obsticles are, just....everywhere. Every day i wake up in the morning wondering what fate is gonna throw my way. im a believer that everything happens for a reason, but one thing doesnt make sence to me...dieing. Today i found out that one of my good friends', friend died of a skateboarding accident. [keep him in your prayers] && now, just yesterday i found out my grandpa has bone cancer really bad in his leg and hes having surgery, but no one knows how bad it is and he might lose his leg. Plus the fact that they think its spreading to other places...its fatal. and i cant handle it. I just got to thinking, why does god always chose the best people we know to take? Why do we lose people in a row rather than having time and recovering? A couple years ago a lost a very good friend, someone i loved, someone who had a son that she had to leave behind because she died of ovarian cancer...i will never get over that. everytime i think about it i tear up. its to hard to handle. And now, now i have a grandfather with cancer, the only grandpa who has beena grandpa to me and adores me. i may look strong but i just cant take it.

sometimes life is just too hard, sometimes i wish i could walk away from everything...are things like this just something that is planned, that your supposed to learn from?

life is precious & fragile, live it to the fullest...be the person you want to be, dont regret anything...

Yesterday is a promise that you've broken
don't close your eyes. This is your life and
today is all you've got now, && today's all
you'll ever have. This is your life, are you
who you want to be? This is your life, is it
everything you dreamed that it would be.

it feels good to just....vent</3

<3 Steph